Hi. Â This is probably going to be weird. I’m actually in 6th grade right now and I found this website. It matches me. Because this is the only website that I could write my thoughts about.
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It’s 3:07 am and I can’t sleep. I just can’t. I’m so tired and I want to rest. So I have a friend that always judge everything. I mean sometimes I ask myself why am I friends with this person? I mean she punched me on my stomach which really hurts for me because she doesn’t know anything about me except for the things that I like. She doesn’t even know that I have breathing problems. She pushed me to the lockers so many times and yestesssrday her best friend punch me in my right chest. I’m not even doing anything to them. I’ve always been kind to them. I don’t know what the problem is. They called me wimp and pu$$y because I don’t want to do anything bad, it’s because I really don’t. I don’t want to get in trouble. The insults are just too much 🙁
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I’m going to write a letter to my teacher or I might talk to her tomorrow if I’m going to school tomorrow. I’m not sure how am I going to deal with this thing.
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Sounds like school yard manipulation 101, and I think it’d be wise if you did speak with a teacher or other adult about this. Do you have any other friends you can confide in? You will need support through this, as once these two morons who are abusing you get called out, they may target you again anyway and that simply will not stand.
So – Talk with an adult whom you can trust; reach out to another friend or friends; most of all, stand above everything and NEVER let the actions of others dictate who you as YOUR OWN person become.
I hope you get some sleep, and I wish you a good day once you’ve awoken.
My best friend committed suicide on March 14th. She had an account on this website that i just came across and she had posted asking about ways she could do it, and my already shattered heart broke a thousand times more as i read the comments telling her how. As much as apart of me wants to respond with so much anger to anyone who encouraged her in how to end her life, a bigger part of me also breaks for all the others who were in her same numb state. She had talked with people about how she had shut her friends out in order for us to not feel as much pain, and she had also hoped that no one would find out because of her not responding for so long. If only she truly knew how far from the truth that really was. We could never ever ever just forget her.. we were so worried that we weren’t hearing from her and when we found out what happened.. my heart physically broke in two. No matter who you are, or how you have been treated, you are a beautiful person with beautiful potential. There is always hope as hopeless as things may seem. I use to be suicidal myself, starting in 6th grade, and struggled with depression for four years. I once too felt like things would never change or never get better. I now am 19 and so much has changed since then. If my beautiful friend would have truly known how loved she was and how broken we are all now because of how much we miss her and want her back, she would have never ended her life so soon when there was so much more time for things to get better.
I mean this with my entire heart — if you need someone to talk to, even if you feel like there could be no comfort from a stranger, I assure you I genuinely care about a life that could possibly be lost, even if I have never met you. Everyone has a story and that story doesn’t have to end early or so tragically.
There is more to life than what is going on currently.
I will never be the same after losing my friend, and the pain we are now all in is greater than my friend ever imagined.
You don’t realize how valuable and precious you are. Your life is worth so much. Don’t let your circumstance or the people and awful things around you determine how good or bad things will be.
If you need someone to talk to, please talk to me. Do not give up. THERE IS HOPE. No matter what. No matter who you are. My email is theldbproject@gmail.com
hey 🙂 i just read this. first of all i’m sorry about your best friend :/ and second i’ve been missing out lately in school which made my teachers kind of worry. i thought about what you said, and i’m not going to suicide because you told me my life is worth it 🙂 i’m really close to trying to suicide.. if i try to do it i think everybody would care about me. but i won’t try to do it. i’ll try to survive ’til the last day of school :/ i still kind of cut and people in this town actually tease me about it and call me emo sometimes. but i don’t care about them anymore, i will let this scars fade away and not to do it anymore 🙂