On april 15 i was on fb and my friend messaged me. “Before i take this bottle i want you to know i have always loved you. You were a good friend i hope you do well”
half skimming the message i wrote ” its been awhile we should hang out tommorrow and catch up on things and yor a good friend also” i had to log off cause the library was closing. The next day a friend called and told me that sheena had killed herself lastnight. My heart stopped and i didnt know what to say… Life blows and thats just the way it goes. I cry and i miss her. My other friend died the day before my birthday  in 2012 from suicide n another a couple months earlier. I feel their pain i know how it feels just to want to it to end.  I cant stop thinking about it.
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My heavens, how many others are there out there like I used to be? I know what hopeless feels like. I lived there most of my life. But life is good now at age 70. Yes, I have fought the battle for that long, and it was worth it to have the glorious days. BTW, being old isn’t so bad if you have your health. When you look back, you know that you’ve fought and won!
Vedura, hats off to you. You’re infinitely braver than me. I wish you the best.
Lif3blowz, your post made me cry. I felt your sincerity. And I felt, or believe I felt, something–through you–of your friend’s pain, and her desperation in seeking a way out. I don’t really know why I’m commenting. But thanks for sharing, and for making me feel. I hope you’re safe.
I’m not braver. I don’t know how or why I survived, just that I did.
Yeah your story is touching. When I was a child my next door neighbor and best friend. His mom committed suicide when we were about 12 years of age and man did it hit him hard. He cried so long an hard it looked like he had been in a fist fight because under his eyes were all black and blue from crying so much. I am sorry to ear about your Friend sheena and the loss you feel. I hope you are able to get over it. I believe she is at peace now.