I’m tired. I’m just tired.
I’m tired of food. I’m tired of television. I’m tired of work. I’m tired of school. I’m tired of going outside. . I’m tired.
Anytime someone asks how I am, my answer isn’t “I’m fine”
The answer is “I’m tired”
I’ve lost any shred of hope that I might of had. And I don’t see the point.
And the funny thing? I’m tired…but I can’t sleep.
I guess I’m not physically tired. I’m mentally and emotionally tired.
I don’t know what to do with my life anymore.
I don’t feel like going anywhere. I don’t feel like talking.
I seriously don’t remember the last time I had a normal conversation with someone.
What is normal?
I don’t even know.
I don’t feel like I have any friends. Well..not any real ones.
My best friend is my dog. I love her.
The closest thing I have to human friends? There’s 3 people that I still talk to
from high school. But they’re fake.
They play nice but then talk crap about me behind my back.
They’re always hanging out without me and make plans without me.
That doesn’t sound like a real friend.
So yeah. I have no friends.
My family you ask?
My family hates me.
And they let me know it everyday.
“Hate” is a strong emotion to feel.
Feeling a strong emotion can wear you down.
Do you know who I hate?
Myself.
Maybe that’s why I’m so tired.
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Here I almost thought I was reading my own post. But yeah final sentences fit me
You wrote exactly how my life is and how I feel! At least I know someone understands…you do!
Yes, my friend. Totally, I´m just too tired.
You are not alone. This is what my life is like and exactly how I feel. I am exhausted trying to find a reason to continue this mindless, purposeless existence.
I’m knackered too. There’s no pleasure in going anywhere or doing anything. Life itself is exhausting.
You are tired, they are tired. I’m tired. Sooooo exhausted trying to find a reason in this sea of nonsense that life has become. And yet we are still here. Living to be tired another day.
A lot of people will relate to that. A lot of people are tired, exhausted. We don’t believe in this way of life that is being lived now days.
I don’t find pleasure in anything anymore. I’m really stuck and I don’t know which direction I should lead myself to. It all seems so pointless.
Ditto,Ditto,Ditto,Ditto…. what is a friend anyway? If you did have one, would they want to do anything that you enjoy? If you could enjoy anything? No one that i could consider a friend would do that for me. There really is no point in trying for a friend when one always disappoints the other. I love my dog too. But then i wonder, if he could talk, would i still love him? Would he still live me? Thinking sucks!
oh my gosh… i love this post. literally best thing I read on this site all day….
kiss, and hug.
I’m tired as well. We’re all tired.
Anyone fighting a lengthy battle will get tired.
Our battle is misery. Depression. Anguish. Sorry. Hopelessness and Helplessness.
Whatever you want to call it, our battles are harder than what most people have to deal with.
Sure, other people experience sadness
But few experience an interminable sadness, seemingly without any hope of redemption.
That being said; you’re in high school. At least wait until college, when you can begin to possibly figure out if you want to have a future, to make such a conclusion; that you hate yourself.
I hate myself.
But I’m still sticking around for a little while longer
I’m in college, not high school.