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Just have to get to the point of understanding that the thoughts, ideas, and electrical impulses that shoot through the brains of other human beings don’t have to mean a single thing to you and your world. It’s not always easy. We all listen to the feedback we get from the outside world and let it influence how we feel about ourselves. But your own inner voice needs to be stronger. If you know that people are saying things about you that aren’t true, all that matters is that you know the truth. Anybody worth being friends with would either approach you to talk to you about what happened to your face, or at least not take part in gossip. So if you look at it a certain way, you really aren’t losing anything. The type of people who fall for gossip and like to spread mean things about other people, those are the people who don’t exactly appear to be your friends. But when choosing the qualities you would like to have in your friends, would gossip and hurting other people be part of what you’re looking for? Be happy. Be happy that the crappy people not worth being friends with are revealing their true colors. Be glad that they aren’t disguising their behavior. Otherwise you might mistakenly believe they are people worth knowing. Same with the guy who started all of this in the first place. You didn’t lose anything, and you didn’t do anything to make him do what he did. He already was the type of person he was. You were just unlucky enough to be the person to walk into his life and believe that he was a good person. I feel bad when some of my friends suddenly stop talking to me and act like they don’t like me any more. But I just try to remember that a real friend is impossible to lose. If someone mistreats you, they were never a friend. It hurts to lose people but it’s important to remember the the good ones will stick around, and anyone who decides to leave is actually doing you a favor by not wasting your time trying to keep bad people in your life.

The worst reason in the world to end a life is because of what other people think or say about you. It’s normal for humans to want to be loved and appreciated, but you can’t let them totally control how you feel about life. Sickness, not having food to eat, not having a place to life, there’s a lot of real problems out there in the world that people face and that might make them not want to live anymore. As you get older you start to realize that what other people think about you is very far down the list in terms of what really matters. Reputation does not matter. Especially when it’s a reputation formed by people who spread lies, and the other people who are dumb enough to fall for gossip without asking for proof or evidence. You cannot worry yourself with what your reputation is to every single other person in your environment. The only peoples opinions worth caring about are those of people who actually love you. Random people in a school hallway who are so bored with life that they care about a rumor about you are not people you need to be friends with.

Be glad that they are not your friends. Celebrate the fact that if you asked them to be a part of your life and a part of the circle of people who matter to you, they would laugh and say no. You don’t want these types of people in your life.