I don’t deserve to use this site

The utility of this platform to convey inner thoughts and true emotion is unmatched. I can express myself even though I’m talentless. Look let me skip the formalities of how I usually write and just get to it. I feel guilty. I was reading the first post on SP (this was approximately 1 month ago) and I realized this is a website where you’re supposed to share experiences of suicide. Anything else is viewed as unnecessary. I’ve only posted here a few times, but most of my pieces do not spare detail. But never have I wrote about my suicide attempts, nor do I plan to. I feel as if I’m stealing the spotlight from people who can use it more. People with wisdom and experience, people who just want help or want to help. On top of this, I would lose my literary integrity if I do not retire right now. Knowing you’re contributing to unnecessary clutter can help you lose a motivation very quickly. Nothing would be genuine. I still think about suicide multiple times a day, and nothing has gotten better physically, mentally or emotionally, but continuing to write would be difficult and morally wrong upon this new revelation. I try to capture an essence in my writing. Display an unaffected being from his own point of view. Translate teen angst and examine cynicism, ideologies and societal formats. This is not the place for that. So, until reconciliation, I will retire from making posts on SP at the ripe membership age of 2 months. Stay classy and fill that status quo.