I’ve been wanting this for so long; but now it’s more than a desire, it’s an obsession
I have nothing in my life that gives my living any credibility
I’m just a girl who’s broken beyond repair and this may well be how the rest of my life be like and I do not wish to keep going this way.
I need to go. I have to go.
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U don’t have to be like this maybe all u need is a little bit of some.positive people in your life that will help u n listen to u when u r feeling down or unhappy about or the way things are I’m here if u Need someone to help care
I very often feel this way. Not so much when Im awake but when I lie down in my bed and hope to go.
Though it’s disappointing i dream of my waking life. There was no place to go or return to.
Thank you insecure-wreck. You seem like a very kind hearted person.
And BrokenClock I’m sorry you feel this pain. I hope one day you can wake up in a tranquil and content state amongst the living xx
i fail at giving advice but i can listen. Hugs, i wish you peace if you do die. That would make me sad… You write amazing poems and you seem like a lovely person
I wish you peace also whether in this life or the next Hun xx
Your writing is beautiful. Its sad that the gifts we have cannot be enjoyed or understood by many others. {hugz}
Ohh scarlett dawn….
Wish i had the glue to fix your broken pieces…
Or perhaps an eraser to take away the pain….
How about an elixer to fade out the memories….
But, alas, where can we find these dreams?
In the realms of magic…. Some say they don’t exist…. But i have been there, and can tell you this….
Thru trials & pain & tribulation….
We find our destination…. Ready to quit, it’s then we submit….
Give up our possessions… Though these are not in question…. It is not our body, though this not forgotten….
But it is our spirit that is here to learn the lessons….
I have become convinced that there is no true escape….
Call it what you want, i call it Karmic Fate.
And if you can recall, the past’s gloomy halls… You may begin to see, this life is more than Me…. It carries a responsibility… Yes indeed you are here for a reason… Not to save bodies, but spirits…. You are the embodiment of the divine feminine and shall be honored so…. The ones who do you wrong, they will hear the song…. The piper loves to play… But he will always get his pay…..
That is so beautifully scripted
You have a wonderful gift my friend
I refuse to believe that anyone can be broken beyond repair. Because if that’s true, if my one true goal of life is gone, then I may as well die right this very moment.
Maybe you just haven’t found the right person to trust, the right person to talk to. If you want to reach out, my email is on my profile in my most recent post. Honestly, I don’t want you to die, but that’s just me being selfish
I’ve survived this hell we like to call earth for so long purely for those whom I love and care for. But in the end, evil triumphs over love and it hurts when that day strikes.
Suicide is not selfish. The people that try to prevent one from doing it are the selfish ones (not in a bad way, in a caring way for they usually are the kindest people as you are).
I often think though.. When an animal is suffering and there is no chance of recovery – they put them down. Essentially killing them in a dignified and peaceful matter so the suffering animal can be rid of his pain.
So is it not credible to ask for the same thing simply because we’re humans?
The thing is, death is unavoidable. It is a fact that we will all die eventually. So why is it such a crime or bad thing to chose where, how and when you want to go if you’ve been suffering for so long?
Sorry for ranting, I took a fair bit of tamazapam and diazepam and I do not feel quite here at the moment. But thank you MaskOfLies. The earth is scarce of gentle souls but people like you prove that there are still angels that walk by us within this hell xx