nopeee

Im not crazy , just alone, need employment, cant get out of house, lost my last job 2 months ago hitting on a girl, which i would never do ever but wasnt thinking clearly from the kratom. Im about 400 pounds and i feel lazy and lethargic alot. I worked at 711 for about a year, hard to keep up but i tried reallh hard. Then i got a job as a security officer. im a nice guy, why did i have to hit on that woman, i should of not did it, noe i have 14 dollars living with my brother, ive messed up with jobs in the past. quitting or being lazy, but i really wanted to change that around, maybe travel or something when i had money saved up. Now im mooching off my brother, eating at soup kitchens, and everybody around me hates me its a big yet small town, so everybody knows what a loser i am. I need to look for work, im going to hang myself, i tried a couple of months ago but…… i cant tell you how i couldnt but embarrassin, anyways, im in florida so finding a private spot to do it, is near impossible. Everybody rpund me is acting like they want me to kill myself too.