I’m not a human being to anyone. All my friends are fake and liars, full of shit, false hopes and false promises.
The guy I had fallen for bitches endlessly about how alone he is, how bad he wants someone, and how he needs to be loved bit ignores me like I don’t exist. No response means that I don’t matter and I don’t count for shit. As I never have in life.
Even people here are wrong and full of it. My only replies are on what women want and how to get a woman when I have said I am not interested in women! I am attracted to men! But being a transgender man attracted to men means being alone for all eternity. Gay men have no interest either and frankly I have no interest in the GAP wearing preppy dance clubbing gay population because I am a heavily tattooed rocker who wants the same. Having common interests matters to me.
I’m sick of the psychobabble “you’ll find somebody!” bullshit LIES people tell me to avoid taking any responsibility of friendship towards me that they claim to have. I’m sick of being the one everyone believes was born to be shit on and it’s OK to shit on. I’m not here to be everyone’s punching bag. I wish they would all have to suffer a lifetime of loneliness, isolation and being a laughing stock regarded as less than human the way I’m forced to live. Every second of every day I am lower than everyone else on earth and see disgusted looks from everyone around, angry they have to have come across someone with so many obvious less than human classifications stacked upon one another. I’m a plague in this world, born and living with everything wrong with me on the outside that could possibly be wrong and turn others off. I have no one, no friends, no family, nobody, nothing. I’m done being treated like shit. The silence tells me that my feelings don’t matter, I sicken you, and you want me to go away. Don’t worry I will find a way to kill myself and I hope it fucking haunts you for the rest of your life.
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They ignore you? Then you should ignore them.
I think what people here tried to do is give their own examples from their own lives.
To show they are struggling too in their own way and know your pain.
Don’t let your ‘friends’ bring you down, they’re not worth your time.
It’s hard to find true friends at any case, it’s not because there’s something wrong with you.
Don’t waste your time or hate on them.
It’s hard to find people who actually treat others properly but it doesn’t mean they’re not out there.
Just because you’re a transgender man doesn’t mean no one will like you, and well as far as i know at least not all ‘gay men’ are the same so there’s always a chance you’ll find someone similar to your taste.
Don’t waste your time and energy on idiots who don’t listen and ignore you, and wait a little longer, you might run into others who are more worth it.
I’m nearing 40. I guess thankfully transguys usually look younger and I can still pass for under 18. Thanks for listening. I really needed to vent. I do not fall in love easily and this guy says he’s bi but wants a pretty little girl only and ignores me like I mean nothing and my friendship and support isn’t wanted.
How great this site is,to listen to others in pain and not to feel so alone. I wish I had the strength to use my helium apparatus.
Of course you’re human! Why not? You’re much more of a human than those homophobic idiots!
You ARE worth living and you sure DO MATTER because YOU ARE HUMAN!!
I know there are people who can’t get on with people that are different. I got to know the isolation with what they punish you for just being you. But trust me, those people are the real idiots! You’re worth more than all of them together! Don’t let those fools bring you down. You are who you are and they have no right to change or ignore or make you look small or talk down to you or hate you or anything! You are a human being so you have rights no matter who you are, who you love or what you think. You’re unique and irreplaceabe because YOU ARE YOU! Stay strong.