why I want to die.

ever since primary school I had been cutting. I dud it because all my ‘friends’ were horrible. One day they were all friendly the next day they would be holding me down and throwing footballs at me. Bow I’m in secondary school. And it just got worse. I was alone again. Then people started commenting on my appearance. I began starving myself to make ne skinnier than I am. I gate being ugly I hate it. One day I decided I was gonna do it. I had enough. But then this boy stayed up all night trying to stop me. He was the kindest person I ever met. I thought I could never repay that. I started being nice back and then he told ne to just leave him alone and that no one like me. I dug deep un my bag and found my pills and mt razor. But then jasmine took them away and threw them in the bin. My chance to escape was gone. She told a teacher and they told my parents. I got home and I had to wait outside my house for 15 minutes because my dad didn’t want me to get in. I finally get in and he smacks me around the face, strip searches me and sends me to my room. I come back down when my mums home and they shout at ne. “kill yourself then!” “noone should waste their time with you and so forth. I try to explain and my dads keeps hitting me saying shut up shut up shut the hell up. And I just want to end everything. Noone wants me and they never will