I cant stop crying right now….. I used to be depressed and i have been clean for the past few months.. Thinking thay the summer would make everything better. It didn’t i started cutting again and had to hide my scars with my ankle bracelet and my mom has seen them and she yelled at me but stopped caring. Nowone cares anymore and im always spending my time alone…… My mom is alwyas telling me that im screwing up all of the time and she always gets mad at everything i do. And i dont think i can wait till senior year to be free of her and the rest of my family
share your suicide story
Report Post
Please log in to report posts
8 comments
Please don’t cry. I will accept you. But you probably won’t accept me. Nobody ever liked to be my friend 🙁
Id be your friend dont worry <3
You’ve always got a spot here with us in the Land of Misfit Toys 🙂 Something I like to do when I’m upset is to think of all the people and things that are in my life and to imagine them all disappearing. Take a moment to think about only yourself and what you want from life. Your parents may have created you but they don’t own you or your future. You are your own person, in charge of yourself. Man’s law says that you need a guardian till you’re 18 but the law of nature says that we’re all born alone and are the shepherds of our own destiny. Most animals don’t even spend a day raising their kids. They just lay the eggs and dip out!
You are in control my friend, even when it doesn’t seem like it.
I like the Land of Misfit Toys tphg and I agree with spending some time concentrating just on yourself and what you’d like to achieve in life. Its a good idea irrespective of situation.
Cte_saves_me was there a particular trigger that started you cutting again? Perhaps are ways of changing the negative triggers into positive ones, same goes for thenstress relief in cutting. I’m sure those woth similar experienes will chirp up in due course too. Stay strong, you have plenty of time for healing etc 🙂
I do not judge you for what you do (cutting). And crying is something perfectly okay to do. Hang in there and spend as much time as you need with the rest of us on SP. Based on your message I believe that you are mid-to-late-teens. What I will tell you (if someone hasn’t told you already) is that you are coming into your own… that said, you are also in an age range of changing hormones that can cause havoc. I’m 34 and can honestly say that I’ve been there… different circumstances of course. I encourage you to hang on. As @Limited_infinity mentioned, see if you can identify negative triggers and either try to avoid them. Perhaps seek out methods of meditation; information on meditation is available online and also at your local library. Seek out things that are relaxing–gardening, time in a park, reading–things that can take your attention away from your terrors. Focus on the positive as much as possible. There is also something called Mindfulness Meditation (I learnt this from my doctor) and have attached this link: https://www.psychologytoday.com/blog/the-courage-be-present/201001/how-practice-mindfulness-meditation
Hang in there. And regardless of where you are right now–both physically and in mind, I wish you peace.
You’re only in high school. That’s sad. You’re surrounded by your peers all the time, so that makes it difficult. Wait until you graduate before you think about doing anything to yourself… You can’t change your mind if you do. Keep your chin up, eyes forward, and dick hard. Things will undoubtedly get worse, but there’s always a silver lining no matter what.
Misfit Toys—ya, I guess we are.
Please you do need to hang on I accept you.