I’m scared because the only thing that has kept me from going over the edge are my boys and it seems lately that isn’t enough. I know those feelings are selfish and they make me feel like a horrible person and mother. Which just pushes me further to edge. I’ve tried to talk to a friend and I just keep being told that I’m fine, maybe I’m PMSing. I can’t find anyone to talk to me seriously and I’m afraid that if I talk to a doctor they’ll take my kids away. I don’t want to die but I can’t live like this.
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Those feelings aren’t selfish at all, they’re perfectly understandable. Sometimes, it’s all too much to handle. And this doesn’t make you a horrible mother, and it certainly doesn’t make you a terrible person.
As much as you might not want to go to a doctor, it would probably be best if you did. That way, attempts can be made to make things easier and more manageable. That way, you get the help you need and it has a positive impact on you, which will rub off on your kids. Perhaps mentioning your fear of them being taken away from you to the doctor might help? That way, you could be given support if it was needed, which could make life better for you and your kids.
Stay strong sweetheart 🙂
Please go see your doctor. Don’t have to tell the whole story; just say you feel sad, and ask for some medicine to try. That might just do for you.