I should be dead

On Friday night I overdosed on burpion, this time I didn’t even mean to. I thought I ran out of my 350mg so I took 4 150mg to equal it to 450mg. Instead I took 4 350mg. As soon as I found out I did that I was having a panic attack. I didn’t want to tell anyone, I didn’t want to bother anyone and I felt like I would get yelled at. So I just went into my living room and watched some YouTube videos. After 2 hours of waiting I finally felt the side effects. I felt like I could not breathe, my heart was racing, I had a headache, and I felt kinda dizzy. I still didn’t tell anyone. I had to get up from the couch and pace back and forth and breathe really hard. I could not sit down because then I would feel like I can not breathe. At 3:00 am I finally said fuck it if I’m going to die then let me die. So I went into my bed, brought my two stuff animals and my two baby blankets. I felt like they were going to protect me. I didn’t think I would wake up, but I did. I still didn’t tell anyone. After dinner I ran up in the bathroom and puked. I then told my mom everything. I don’t know what happened but after an hour I told her I started to hyperventilate really bad. I’ve never experience that feeling before and I have really bad anxiety. I felt like I wasn’t in my body, I could breathe, I couldn’t stop shaking, I couldn’t stop talking, I couldn’t stop moving my hands. They wanted to call the ambulance but I told them not to. So when I arrived at the hospital they said everything was perfect. I was extremely lucky because that medicine is known to give people seizures and kill them. I took 1400mg of it and nothing really bad happened to my body. Just two days of not breathing well. It was like it never happened.