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so i think i’m defective…..

by pixiekins
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Hey, so I’ve come to the conclusion that I’m defective. Nothing I try and do changes how I feel I should just end it all. Its been this way for as long as I can remember just a constant over whelming feeling that I’m not suppose to survive this thing we call life. I’m not trying to wallow, nothing majorly traumatic has happened in my life its just my serious and honest opinion. Ending it would be so easy but I can’t seem to get that right as I said I’m defective. I thought I was ready tonight then time got away with me and my partner came home so that threw a spanner in the works. I just don’t know what I’m suppose to do.I am and have been medicated for a while, I’ve tried counselling but it never shakes the urge to die. I’m at a loss I don’t know if I even have it in me to keep trying at this losing battle

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8 comments

rocketman 9/15/2015 - 8:40 pm

pixiekins,

You are defective!!! I’M defective!!! EVERYONES DEFECTIVE!!!!!! šŸ™‚ I don’t know one person who isn’t!

“for as long as I can remember just a constant over whelming feeling that Iā€™m not suppose to survive this thing we call life.” NOBODY survive this thing we call life! we all die.

We all lose the battle sonner or later šŸ™‚

IT’S NOT JUST US ON SP, IT’S EVERYONE!!!!
I am around so called normal people all day everyday, HA HA! They are really abnormal!!!

The problem is you grown to smart! you realise life isn’t a bowl full of cherries, on one hand you have joined the smarter than the normal person club! but! being smarter than the normal person has it’s draw backs, you don’t like it! to tell you the truth niether do I!

BUT were stuck, The choices are accept life will never be a bowl full of cherries, and do your best to keep yourself interested in living and play the game, the game will end like it or not for everyone. i will say this is it! you will never experiance pain happiness or any feelings again once your dead, i say embrace it feel it, because once it’s over it’s over forever.

dare.poe 9/15/2015 - 8:52 pm

Here here! Well said.

I pretend I live on a planet that has 7 billion unique aliens. What Joe Arachnid thinks is right has nothing to do with me. I could care less if Mary Slugmonster gets worked up about my sexual preferences. One me can judge me.

dare.poe 9/15/2015 - 8:54 pm

Only me can judge me.

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Can we get a preview or edit button for comments, please??????

v.c.333 9/15/2015 - 8:54 pm

I always just find a reason everyday to keep living. I never wanted to live. I am still here today. I don’t know about tomorrow.

Morris 9/15/2015 - 9:25 pm

Sherlock Holmes was a great defective.
There’s nothing wrong with being a defective.

rocketman 9/15/2015 - 9:33 pm

dare.poe,v.c.333,
Well said, i say don’t sweat the small shit and everything is small shit! šŸ™‚

it’s not about acceptance, it’s not about pleasing others, it’s about you! be yourself and be glad about who you are, in the end nothing really matters accept you did your best.

pixiekins 9/16/2015 - 3:59 am

Thank you for replying and I do understand but surely at some point you are allowed to put your hands up say you tried and them I can drift off into nothingness. I don’t mean to sound selfish but surely its more selfish for people to want me to keep doing something that only makes me miserable? Life really does suck doesn’t it xx

v.c.333 9/16/2015 - 6:31 pm

I find it does and i feel the same way. about the selfish stuff. But so far I stay for my daughter. She didn’t ask to be born. I had her. I shouldn’t bail on her.

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