Does this happen to everyone???

Ruminating.

The doc says that I spend a lot of time thinking about the past. In turn, the past is able to build on itself and haunt me. Sometimes I can have something good happen and still completely expect things to fall apart. I try to seize the good of the moment. It can be difficult. More people probably love you than you think. Sometimes we have a powerful pair of sunglasses on that blocks the good from getting through. As more positive experiences happen, hopefully the negative thoughts get pushed aside.

I don’t blame God for the situation that I’ve found myself in. Instead, I look to him for support and guidance. There have been decisions made along the way that I perhaps could have made differently. Sometimes, religion can help serve as a steering current of sorts. To your point, if there is a God, I’m sure that he does love you.

It’s really important that you love and accept yourself. You will always have obstacles, mistakes, and bad days. On some days, you might be the only ally that you have. Keep moving forward one step at a time.