I know i am posting a lot, i am so fed up of my life, its getting worse everyday. I cant cope anymore. My life has no point or meaning. i just cry all the time. im in so much pain and need it to end
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There’s no need to apologize for posting. I’m sorry about how things are at the moment. Take a little time to catch your breath. It’s a good idea to allow yourself some time to slow down from warp speed. Going for a walk, writing a journal, and stuff like that can help you sort your thoughts. Things won’t always be like this. While the struggles sometimes go on for a bit, they often end slowly but surely.
im just so fed up, im in constant emotional and physical pain. My life is going nowhere, just staying the same. I want out so badly
so get out. just pack up and leave. if you’re hurting because your life has gone to shit, throw it out and get a new one. get a new job, move to a new town, get a new gf/bf, who cares? no one is in charge of you life, only you can affect change in it. tell the people who bring you down to go fuck themselves and pack your bags. there’s more out there that you’ve never even seen and you could totally go out and see it. i’m not saying death isn’t a good option, i’m just saying you’re gonna die eventually anyway, so you might as well exhaust every possibility to find happiness before it takes you
i respect your point. oh how i wish it was that simple. I wouldn’t be here if it was that simple
well, it IS simple…but it’s not easy. i got to a point in my life where i was certain i was gonna kill myself. i strung up a rope and had a note and got shit-faced to make it easier. then, i just was like ‘what the fuck am i doing?’ so i decided to make two major decisions; i came out of the closet and i told god that he could eat shit.
i’m sorry to be all ‘advicey’ and stuff, but i’m sort of making the assumption that your depression isn’t just a short term affliction. for me, it was just like, ‘i’m gonna be sad no matter what i do, or where i go; i won’t feel good or be happy no matter what i do. so what am i going to do?’ i personally decided just to let go of everything and chase happiness until i found it, or until i died. by the way, i haven’t found it, and i haven’t died, so take this rant with a grain of salt.
sorry for the unsolicited advice, i’m not trying to make you feel judged or upset; i just wanna offer an alternative to suicide.
you is kind, you is smart, you is important.
I have a disability, no matter what happens, I wake up with my disability still. Every day is a struggle. I’m trapped in this useless body. Its awful. Suicide has been on my mind for years. Carrying it out will be physically hard, not mentally. I am ready to die now.
hi, it looks like you probably are not able to have any quality of life, due to this disability. you didn’t ask to be born with a disability and I’m sorry. when choosing your method please research it carefully as I would not like you to end up even worse (e.g. paralyzed, locked-in syndrome, brain damaged). A failed suicide would definitely not improve your situation. you don’t need to suffer anymore. just be careful when carrying out your method and follow all instructions carefully to minimize the risk of failing
quality of life is hard, people don’t understand how hard or frustrating it is. Every time I think i’m moving forward i am knocked back again. I can never have just 1 day to myself. Can’t just go for a walk. It is pure torture. The world is a horrible and cruel place and i can’t take anymore.
I have done countless research on the helium method. This seems the most reliable. I will continue to research more and know the facts for a guaranteed success
i am not physically disabled but I do agree that the world is a horrible and cruel place. i do not like this world
Hey. Seems today isn’t any better. How do you post? Computer, phone?
no, today is no better at all. I really really want to do this. I am going to slowly start buying stuff. I can use ‘christmas’ ass a way for having balloons and tank. (balloons would make a good atmosphere). i am in too much pain to carry on to be honest. I use my computer
Well then be content and do what you feel is right for you. I saw another post about a girl in Belgium who was approved for Doctor assisted. But they day came and she said no. Was interesting. Do you comment on others posts or check them out?
yeah, ive commented on a few. I have thought about going to belgium
Well if you have made up your mind, does that change anything for you. Relief, happiness, comfort, anxious, scared? The reason I talked bout the Belgium girl is because she was so convinced she was ready. But didn’t go thru with it. But yes Belgium would be cool.
i feel comforted in a way to know there is a way out. Also scared at the same time. I would hope i wouldn’t stop, but, being human, your body fights it. my fear is not being able to stop. I want it,m but, natural instincts would kick in.
Well I guess you still have a bit of time. Maybe you can comment on someone’s post in the meantime. May get you out of you for even a few minutes.
That is a good idea. I have been trying to, mainly to show support to thers, dont want to appear selfish. It’s comforting to know total strangers care this much
This site is for posting. Last I checked there wasn’t a character limit. I am reading along with what is happening with you. I just want you to know I support you with your decision. I just don’t want you to suffer either way.
thank you, I appreciate all your support
i hope you can find some peace soon, i support your decision also
Thank you ‘no more of this’. The amount of support is amazing. most of my friends know how i feel but arent supporting. My ex bf/bf was highly supportive, but, he suffers severe depression and has not spoke to me in a week. It is harder without him. Ending is my only optionn
They aren’t supportive because they can’t get past that it isn’t about them but you. I did comment earlier that I would try to talk you out of this. Not because I don’t support you ultimately finding peace in this world, but because I would want you to be absolutely sure that the reasons you want to leave this world and the ones you love are well thought out.
I am unsure if people would agree with my decision, but, people also don’t understand how hard this life is. Not just for me, but anyone who has a physical disability, life is more complicated. Simple things like days out or holidays, its a big task, that is the hardest
You see, here is the thing, they don’t need to agree with your decision, they just need to respect your decision. You are an adult and are thinking this through rationally. I respect your decision and support your choice to find peace in your life.
friends and family (especially my ex) will never understand. I try talking, but it doesn’t help. I am out of options. This is why suicide is becoming the best option
Yeah, I had a good idea today. Nice ?
what was your idea?
For you to comment on someone’s post.
Good wasted. Princess go over and read my post and prevent me from stabbing someone in the eye with a screwdriver.
read and replied
already taking your advicce, thank you 🙂 are you ok tonight?
Princessxx, I support your decision. It is your life and your choice. I’m am in the same position: disabled and ready to go.
its hard to even leave this world, i don’t even know hoiwd capable i am of that. What’s your disability if its ok to ask?
How are you today Princessxx? I know I’ve reached the point of being capable but I also know how important planning is to ensure a successful outcome. For that reason I am taking it slowly and making sure I have everything in place. I have 2 adult children and 1 almost adult child. I will wait until he is legally an adult. He is also disabled so I have to make everything is in place to meet his future needs. I made an attempt 25 years ago that would had been successful except I failed to consider my work schedule. When I didn’t show up for work, they called and I was discovered by my roommate.
My “official” disabilities are Parkinson’s (early onset) and major depression (recurrent). I think the depression is actually a manifestation of the Parkinson’s. However, at times, I think (100% my own opinion), I’m bipolar.
Right now, planning helps me feel in control rather than feeling like a puppet in this world. The hard part of life for me is the intense loneliness I experience. My so called friends fell off the face of the earth when I had to stop working. My kids are have their own lives (as it should be). The other difficult part is the inability to work and the physical difficulty I have completing the day to day requirements of life. The one thing that keeps me going is my pdoc. There are days I don’t want to let him down by giving up. I don’t want him to feel like he failed because he genuinely cares. He treated me for over a year for free (no insurance). He is really in the profession for the right reasons. A rare find in this day and age.
I hope everyone has, at least, a tolerable day.
i totally understand you, I have a life-time physical disability. I use a wheelchair and i was in town earlier (it’s 4.15pm here) and people kept bashing me and not apologising, im just an object to them. I can work, but no-one hires me because of the disability
I’m sorry that happens to you. People can be so self absorbed and inconsiderate. I try to stay away from others as much as possible.
It’s awful not being seen as a person. My life is going down hill each day. I need to leave and be at peace. Be with God, free from pain
I am totally on the same page as you.
Good Morning Princess. Ready for another day?
no, not at all. i can’t take anymore
Well I’ll be in and out all day. It is nice to see you this morning.
I will say you make me smile. I think to myself, she made it another day. She doesn’t think she can, she thinks this is all pointless, but she talked to all of us and even left her room for a while.
Like I said yesterday, I support your journey, however it ends.
thats so kind of you, i feel like im in a big endless pit and death is the only way out
Most of us here can’t take anymore of whatever, yet here we are for another day. We just do what we do. I don’t know how we do it. None of us can see you but we see you as a person just like ourselves. Suffering, fighting.
i don’t know i manage each day. Its like i have this voice telling me to do it. to take that step and end it all