It wasn’t so bad

Only one reply? Ya’ll must be disgusted and disappointed with me. Yes I know I did bad. I went back to see how it would be. And it wasn’t so bad this time. Started off slow and little communication but picked up later on when the roommates showed up they’re actually cool people and I’m getting better at talking in a group and not sounding like a fucking idiot so that’s good too. But yeah I’m a sucker because I went back, brought food, and ended up rearranging my financial schedule a little to cover him for a little bit of bud because he gets into a dark place without it. So yeah he is of course going to every party he can find and I have no idea if he’s found girls to mess with or fuck yet but it’s better I don’t know. There’s a gay couple rooming in the hippie commune of a flat they’ve got going and they were fun as hell to talk to. But anyway the guy I like was decent to me and not on his period at all, even before he smoked his last hit and I contemplated how I’d take care of things if I gave him my bus pass money on hand. .. Yes I suck. I get paid from my 2nd job when it hits my account in 1-2 business days but I can’t math so the $60 I thought I’d have left well no because I need my nerve meds refilled too. Ugh. But it was nice to be around him. Sigh. I guess I torture myself. I look at him and just think daaaaaaaamn and mentally drool.