on the outside I look
But on the inside I’m
on the outside I look
I just finished my college classes and I’m in vacation now.
I called up my old friends but none of them wanted to hangout.. So I’m not going to insist.
I just wanted to have some sort of fun before I start classes again this summer. Which is in like 13 days.
It just sucks that I have no friends to hangout with or share my interest with.
And I constantly ask myself, is there something wrong with me? Because it seems like I just can’t keep friends or make them.
Anyways people aren’t What they used to be.
I remember having so many friends that actually cared about me but now- there’s absolutely no one left. Or anyone interested in being my friend.
Usually this doesn’t get to me but since I’m not keeping busy with school I guess it just kinda feels lonely.
Overall, not to brag or anything but I’ve always been a down to earth person. And I always got along with just anybody but where the down to earth people at? Kuz it seems like I just don’t fit in with the uptight people I’m always around in college.
So what if I drink alcohol to have fun or smoke a little weed here and there. Everyone looks at me like a creep.
so what if I like flashing people when I’m buzzed lol or like singing out loud or skinny dip in the dark in the ocean.
i just like to have fun and let loose and be care free once Ina while and enjoy what life has to offer.
I just have no one to share that with.
And honestly a lot of people care too much about what other ppl think. And don’t let loose.
Does this happen to some of you?
it seems like everyone is too cool for me
I just wish I could meet people that don’t give a dam about trying to be cool or worry about there status quo.
I guess it’s maybe because I don’t go out there anymore.
Hey cordless, I was reading some of the previous post and seen the one you did about your claw ring and had to say that it is a very cool ring, I had a close bro give me the exact same ring about 20 years ago, this one was made out of brass ( of all things ) the funny thing is that I still have it all this time later. When I read your post and seen the ring I looked for mine and found it, along with some other stuff I have forgotten about. Thanks bringing back some really cool memories. 🙂 🙂 🙂
I keep going, day after day, doing the same old bullshit while I wait to be crammed into a dorm with three other people for the next two years who will come and go and be replaced and whatnot. All so I can get a career in forestry to make me money while I go try to get a proper biology degree. For what? The only reason I do this is literally with the hope that humans will launch me off the planet to go die in space and maybe see some cool shit before I die. I have no hopes nor prospects for love, and I’m damned if I have a family.
I just wish I didn’t have to worry about this all the time. I wish i could be happy, or at least not always on the verge of tears, like everyone else seems to be. Life is like a bad highschool school day; I just want it to be over with already.
I’m… I’m just going to go pound a nice big bottle of honey lager and pass out. I’m sick of thinking about it all.
Hello. In a few hours I have an interview and it’ll probably be a disappointment. But for right now I wanted to ask you a question. What do you guys do for entertainment? How do you guys get your mind off of things. I play video games and watch youtube ( I love game grumps and I’m watching the new episode right now). I also love animation. Not working on it, but seeing the process and the final product is so cool. I have major respect for anyone who can animate. It’s just so cool to see it all come together. So what do you guys do? Do you draw or write music or have a favorite show? I just thought that a casual post today would make everyone feel a bit better. Well thanks for listening and I can’t wait to see what you guys say.
I don’t think people here really appreciate the hard work you put to this site. You’ve given us broken people here a community that has saved many lives and brought many of us life-long friends. Thank you for everything that you’ve built for us. You’re all the coolest!
P.s. the default picture icons you added to this site is way cool.
P.p.s .. Adding messaging would be cool too.. And complementary cookies.
So yesterday I read someone’s post that said when they are bored they text “I hid the body.. now what?” to a random number. Well guess what you guys I did it! A random number texted me so I texted them back about the body thing. It freaked them out and made them laugh and I felt a thousand times better. lol. By the way I was just scrolling through the internet and found this cool ass website. Numerologist.com. Go on it, don’t pay, but just do it. It’s so cool I promise!!
Only way I could find the pics lol but they are so cool its a old psychiatric hospital in my country not too far from where I live my brother broke into when he was 15 and was really traumatized saying he could here the screams of the old patients O-O so I thought I should look this shit up. :3 the pics are really cool no not mine some photographers.
So yesterday, I was pretty stoked. Got some good shit planned for today. Got some cool future shit unrolling. It’s cool
Wake up, 1st indication everything’s going to hell: the sun is shining. Fuck!
Then it happens. The succubus calls…. Double Fuck!
I need to quit my job so I can be home for her.
I don’t even bother trying to explain again why that’s beyond stupid.
She doesn’t say it sarcastically, she’s stone faced dead serious demanding.
Cue the barge of insults, I’m not a man, I’m not a dad, I’m not a husband… OK? So why are you calling?
Then some more demanding, make it all better, do yadda blah…
In a 2 minute call. I’m ready to deep throat a shotgun just to make it stop. I’ve opened up, told her how I feel. I get mocked, I get teased..
It’s fucking stupid.
Howdy. It’s highly probable that I’ll be dead within few days, so I figured I might share my cool ass story with you, but halfway through I realised that it’s not like somebody cares or that I care I’m being cared for.
So, to anyone passing through, have a good one. See ya (nope).
Happy February everyone… Today it is 70 degrees. My favorite temp. Not too cold, not too hot. Just perfect. I feel alive today. I stepped outside and felt the nice cool breeze on my skin. Spring is going to come early this year here in Virginia beach. It’s been a warm winter. I’m gonna go to the beach today or go to our state park and walk on the trails.
For some reason, days like this make me happy that i haven’t given up yet on life. It’s so peaceful out and pretty. I wish every day was like this.
I hope all of your days are just as good as mine.
Happy Monday everyone 🙂
In my English course we had to do a research paper on something . I’m really interested in alternative medicine vs. allopathic medication (what we use here). I found some super cool stuff – it can also help depression.
Aromatherapy – different aromas can alter your mood . I actually tried this and bought different essential oils and smelled them . I could see a change . You can even put the oil on your skin , behind your neck and on your wrists . It some how changes your mood . Super cool
Traditional Chinese medicine(TCM)- needle therapy/massage therapy .
With acupuncture, they think that if one part of your body is in pain , then it is derived from some where else on your body that’s not functioning right . So they map out the body in meridians and put needles in it . This could help depression too. It relieves stress . It’s actually really interesting how it works.
Chiropractic therapy (spinal manipulation)- in this doctors adjust your back/body so it will relieve tension on your spine . My friend actually did this and she could sleep better, felt more awake, happier . This is like TCM because it also shows the idea that if your back isn’t adjusted , then your overall wellness diminishes .
Herb therapy- this was the most interesting one I wrote about . Certain herbs can help with depression . One is feverfew . It looks like a daisy . I don’t really know how it helps though. There isn’t really a true reason why. I honestly believe that the earth has so much to offer us . And we should use it instead of popping man made synthetic shit . And these remidies don’t come with all the side effects that western medicine comes with .
I just thought I should share some of these cool things I found . I hope it doesn’t sound like I’m all over the place . My paper sounds a lot better . Lol
There’s so much sad shit on here , so I thought to change it up a bit. Well here is some cool facts about me.
1. I’m related to Edgar Allen Poe . He’s actually one of my favorite writers . Before I knew I was related to him I would have nightmares about him. It was a little weird. Maybe he secretly knew we were family .
2. I have the same birthday as Neil Armstrong . August 5th, 1997. Yeah I’m a late 90s kid. How cool…
3. My grandma helped hide Jews in her home in Copenhagen Denmark during ww2. It was one of the countries known for saving a lot of Jews. Then I met the person she helped saved .
4. One of my favorite shows is lost . I’m on season 5. It’s the most rediculous show ever . I dare all to watch it .
5. When I was 2, my dad took the air vent out of the floor in my house to do something . And when he was looking away , I fell through it . 3 stories . And landed on the ground . I was perfectly fine . That’s some miracle shit.
6. I’m currently driving a red 280z. It’s my dad’s . He bought it for $100 and totally fixed it . My cars shit so driving that .
7. IVE NEVER BEEN ON A PLANE. crazy right ? Never even left the east coast .
8. I love Leonardo da Vinci . Such a intelligent man . I wish I could meet him. I would do anything to travel back in time .
so these are just some random facts. Nothing too cool . Just enough to be interesting . Lol
I just don’t think I can keep this up. This emptiness inside every night. I even had a great text conversation with a guy who seems cool from a dating site. I still long to die. Or just not exist.
I also realize I’m love with a celebrity. I’ve followed him on Twitter for years and actually met him at his show and took a picture with him. He recognized me. I didn’t expect to fall in love with his personality. This probably sounds insane, but it hurts SO BAD!! To want someone you can never ever have. It’s just torture and he has a girlfriend now anyway. I hate myself right now more than I can stand. I’m pathetic. I just want to die.
“This is my least favorite life. The one where I’m out of my mind. The one where you’re just out of reach. The one where I stand and you fly.” ~ Lera Lynn
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