Chronic PainCoping SkillsFamily & Friends EffectsFun & InterestingI want to die by hatemy life 12/31/2015 written by hatemy life 12/31/2015nearly whole of my life has been shit. Last two years it got even worse now im struggling. Ive tried so many time to leave but it never worked this year should be the one happy new year too all imlastmy lifenewstrugglingto dieworse 37 comments 0EmailRelated postsFirst 2/17/2020SIBLINGS – THE PERFECT IMAGE OF YOURSELF 2/16/2020In Limbo 2/16/2020Where is this going? 2/16/2020Feeling it again 2/14/2020Feeling lost 2/13/2020Been a while 2/11/2020Life is not fair 2/9/20201115 Days… 2/9/2020To grow up and being an adult (adulthood)... 2/7/202037 comments BL98 12/31/2015 - 6:22 pmhappy new year to you too … even if isn’t looking so happy for some of us … Log in to Reply hatemy life 12/31/2015 - 6:39 pmI dnt knw wat to do im lost Log in to Reply BL98 12/31/2015 - 6:57 pmwanna talk about how you feel ? i like to listen to people’s stories , even if i suck at giving advices and stuff … sorry if my english is bad Log in to Reply rocketman 12/31/2015 - 6:54 pmhatemy life, what’s my whole life in years? just asking 🙂 Log in to Reply hatemy life 12/31/2015 - 6:59 pmIm 29 nearly all of it has been shit Log in to Reply rocketman 12/31/2015 - 6:59 pmBL98,English is good! where are you from? Log in to Reply BL98 12/31/2015 - 7:03 pmI feel a little insecure to tell you … just that my native language isn’t english … and related to what hatemy life said : ” Im 29 nearly all of it has been shit ” , i don’t know … you lived 29 years , you are way much stronger than i will ever be in terms of will … Log in to Reply rocketman 12/31/2015 - 7:05 pmhatemy life,had to ckeck out if you were 12 or something 🙂 your qualify for the whole life comment!OK i had the reversal going on all great years till then 🙂 and what may i ask has made your life shit? Log in to Reply rocketman 12/31/2015 - 7:09 pmBL98,insecure! we are all people from the same maker, it just interests me when someone can talk such good English and not be, bravo! Log in to Reply BL98 12/31/2015 - 7:21 pmsorry if i offended you … i’m just being paranoid … you seem to be an interesting person , would you like to share your story with me ? i just like to listen to people’s stories … And for hatemy life , i don’t know if you are 29 , 12 or 40 … we are one big bunch of wounded sick f*cks – excuse my language – and , unfortunately , if death did not took us already when we tried to reach her .. we just have to keep living and see what’s ahead … Log in to Reply hatemy life 12/31/2015 - 7:15 pmEverything really i got a back problem and the pain constanly there i had that two years ppl dnt believe me think i lie bout it no medication helps it i was taking alot of thing never helped i constantly stuck in my room smoking weed i take anxiety tablets but every time i drop down it gets worse thats 1 thing ive got even mre thing going on and its just messing up Log in to Reply hatemy life 12/31/2015 - 7:17 pmBl98 you do have good english mate you write good Log in to Reply rocketman 12/31/2015 - 7:40 pmBL98, offended me ha ha! never! i’d be glad to share my story with you, but it’s a very long one! basically i’ll start at the end, i’m a singer although i don’t do it for a living any longer, but doesn’t mean i’m washed up! 🙂 i’m a very responsible person and am a professional in the steel industry, although that doesn’t make me happy. i’m waiting to retire so i can go back into entertainment, i have serve nerve damage which give me a host of problems but you’d never know it if you met me. i love people and i am one of them, unfortunately that means i’m a predator to! 🙂 oh my friend i could write a book! Log in to Reply BL98 12/31/2015 - 7:47 pmi was right , you are truly an interesting person and if by any chance you will write a book , promise me i will be the first who will have the chance to buy it . And i’m curious , if i may ask , how old are you ? And for hatemy life , seems everyone at some point has back problems … mine goes away with some stretching exercises and unguent ( don’t know if the term is correct ) , what else it’s bothering you ? By the way , you have a nickname or something like this so i can call you that way … hatemy life .. for me sounds so … depressing … sorry … Log in to Reply rocketman 12/31/2015 - 7:50 pmBL98,how about 59! but i can float like a butterfly and sting like a bee! Log in to Reply BL98 12/31/2015 - 7:56 pmi’m sorry but it’s hard for me to believe you’re really 59 , but if that it’s really true , you’re awesome ! I mean , most people i know , that are above the age of 50 , they don’t even bother with ” the world of internet ” / social media / and so on ( i know , silly name ) . Log in to Reply rocketman 12/31/2015 - 8:03 pmBL98,well you see i’m 59 but lets say 38 at heart 🙂 however the only way i would want to be 38 again would be with what i know now, ha ha! life is so complicated for so many but it’s really simple to me, but i had to learn that. Log in to Reply BL98 12/31/2015 - 8:08 pmcomplicated … i think life it’s simple .. people are complicated , but that’s what makes them so beautiful … Log in to Reply rocketman 12/31/2015 - 8:28 pmBL98,ha ha! i guess were kinda on the same track? and my friend my i ask you what the meaning of life? Log in to Reply BL98 12/31/2015 - 9:22 pmmeaning of life … for me would be to make as many people as possible to smile , to be happy … even if i’m in pain … i don’t really know how to express myself , but i will tell you this … i’m in love with one girl , she is the only one who has been nice to me , i don’t care that she does not love me back , i don’t care how much she makes me suffer , i still want to make her laugh … i think the same about all the people around me .. i believe we choose our own role in this world … Log in to Reply NoBuddy 12/31/2015 - 8:41 pmAnother sad year for me. Have a better year. Log in to Reply BL98 12/31/2015 - 9:22 pmmaybe this one will be … for all of us … Log in to Reply rocketman 12/31/2015 - 9:40 pmBL98,well first off you have the heart of an entertainer, i love that! far as the girl is concerned if she is meant to love you back that’s great if not oh well, there is a girl out there that will 🙂 love doesn’t come easy! it shouldn’t anyways! you have years to go! Log in to Reply rocketman 12/31/2015 - 9:43 pmBL98,are you love sick? if so i’ll supply you with more inspiration 🙂 Log in to Reply BL98 12/31/2015 - 9:54 pmwell i guess .. and thanks Log in to Reply BL98 12/31/2015 - 10:01 pmhatemy life , you’re still here ? Log in to Reply rocketman 12/31/2015 - 10:04 pmBL98,Here you go!!!You Can’t Hurry Love By The Supremes I need love, love to ease my mind, I need to find, find someone to call mine, But mama said you can’t hurry love, No you just have to wait, She said love don’t come easy, It’s a game of give and take. You can’t hurry love, No, you just have to wait, You gotta trust, give it time, No matter how long it takes; But how many heartaches must I stand Before I find a love to let me live again. Right now the only thing that keeps me hanging on, When I feel my strength, yeah, it’s almost gone, I remember mama said, You can’t hurry love, No you just have to wait, She said love don’t come easy, It’s a game of give and take. How long must I wait how much more can I take, Before loneliness will ’cause my heart, heart to break? No, I can’t bear to live my life alone. I grow impatient for a love to call my own, But when I feel that I, I can’t go on, These precious words keeps me hanging on, I remember mama said, Can’t hurry love, No you just have to wait, She said love don’t come easy, it’s a game of give and take. You can’t hurry love, No you just have to wait, She said love don’t come easy, It’s a game of give and take No matter how long it takes. No love, love don’t come easy, But I keep on waiting, anticipating for that Soft voice to talk to me at night, For some tender arms to hold me tight. I keep waiting; I keep on waiting, But it ain’t easy, it ain’t easy when mama said You can’t hurry love no, You just have to wait, She said trust, give it time No matter how long it takes. You can’t hurry love You just have to wait, She said love don’t come easy It’s a game of give and take. Log in to Reply BL98 12/31/2015 - 10:18 pmwell … i guess you’re right … but i don’t think it’s ” love ” anymore … it’s more like ” to care about ” , nothing more than that i suppose … i don’t even know for sure … but how about you ? Log in to Reply rocketman 12/31/2015 - 10:49 pmBL98,“LOVE!!!! LOVE!!! LOVE!!!” WOOOOO! HOOOO! IT’S MAGICAL!!!! 🙂Well not actually love is a four letter word! kinda like FUCK!!! 🙂you see there isn’t really a true definition of the word love and it means something different to everyone, love is a complicated word to those that don’t understand that.including myself although i feel i have come light years from what i thought love was to this time in my life,To me love is a word like well not to be redundant but just that “like” how much you like something or someone, kinda of a scale 1 to 10, 10 being completely out of your mind! insane 🙂I’ve come to the conclusion not to expect a 10! a 5 or 6 is pretty good! ” to care about ” is pretty near that! maybe just a little bit stronger 🙂 and it fluctuates like the stock market everyday! 🙂 one day you love spaghetti oh’s the next day you can’t stand them!!! ha ha! Log in to Reply BL98 1/1/2016 - 8:40 amrocketman , that comparison of spaghetti and how love works it’s pretty accurate … but when i think about what you said , the scale of how much you like someone , i don’t know , it makes me really sad … How things are going for you ? i mean in general and things like that …hatemy life, you didn’t respond to my message , hope you’re fine … Log in to Reply hatemy life 1/1/2016 - 9:46 amHey BL98 i couldnt think straight yesterday i had a few sleeping tablets u can call me chukie you two are brilliant thank you Log in to Reply rocketman 1/1/2016 - 9:54 amBL98,Hi kid, Sorry if i made you sad, that wasn’t my intentions, i’m usually very careful of what i say to people, sometimes it’s almost impossible to resist, the scale thing really is how i feel about the meaning of love you could be completely different, hope that makes you feel better 🙂 ha ha! but really knowing the truth helps you deal with reality and instead of going crazy saying to yourself WHY WHY WHY? you know why and learn to accept it, the answers to our questions aren’t always what we really want to hear. remember i asked you what the meaning of life was? the purpose for that was to find out if you really knew, you see i do and if you think my analogy about love stinks , you’d really be disappointed with that answer! i know what your thinking don’t ask! i won’t tell you 🙂 how am i doing? actually very well, I’ve been experimenting with drugs! 🙂 no not “illegal ones!” 🙂 and it’s to early to actually tell but the horrible effects and pain that my back nerve damage creates has lessened by 50% at least, after 20 years of living with it, it’s like i’m in a whole new body! 🙂 i hope it lasts. thanks for asking 🙂 Log in to Reply tiredthoughts 1/1/2016 - 10:03 amIm glad i get to read rocketmans wisdom… Even if it hurts. But it helps. Oh and i love his inspiration too. I dont think this made sense, but it does to me.. Thanks rocket! Log in to Reply rocketman 1/1/2016 - 10:21 amtiredthoughts,Hey you! THANKS for making me feel like i know anything 🙂 your a good man! and i read i earlier response you made to someone ” I hate existence too!…” either you shape up! and turn the channel to life ain’t so bad or i will spank you in the next story i write! don’t make me do that! 🙂 by the way the story is half written i’m still in search of a few more victims 🙂 Log in to Reply tiredthoughts 1/1/2016 - 10:42 amI only read episode 1. in Sp and the magic spell. I started getting wasted yesterday early and I couldn’t process words. eventually passed out and slept through the bangs n booms of fireworks. I heard a few. I can’t wait until I wake up some more so I can read more. Log in to Reply rocketman 1/1/2016 - 10:50 amtiredthoughts,There is only episode 1. so far in Sp and the magic spell. i figure tomorrow episode 2 even if it’s just the 4 of us! the show must go on!!!! 🙂 Log in to Reply tiredthoughts 1/1/2016 - 10:57 amThat awesome.. Ok cool Log in to Reply Leave a Comment Cancel ReplyYou must be logged in to post a comment.Subscribe to comments: Don't subscribeAllReplies to my comments Notify me of followup comments via e-mail. You can also subscribe without commenting.