I’m going to kill myself. The world would be better without me. Who would miss me? I could count the people on one hand? Suicide is not selfish. It is in fact selfish of the people around me to not let me let kill myself. I should have done this years ago. I live alone. It would take days for anyone to notice. No one would check. He wouldn’t give two shits. He’s moved on. You were unimportant to him. You really are unimportant to several people. The only people who might care are mom and dad. Everyone else will move on. That’s what people do. People just get over it. Nobody cares. Nobody cares about you. You are the least important person on the planet. You’re life will not have meant a thing. People will actually be better off. They will no longer need to call you, text you, or waste any part of their day on you. You’ll forever be the single, fat, annoying girl. How about you save everyone the time and just end it now. End it. You’ll never do it because you don’t have the guts. You have no self confidence. You’re a pathetic piece of life. Kill yourself. Do everyone a favor. He doesn’t Care about you!!!!!!! He never did. Everything he ever told you was a lie. He never loved you. You’re nothing to him. Absolutely nothing. Nothing nothing nothing nothing nothing nothing. You are nothing to everyone. You have nothing to live for anymore. Literally. Hide everything. Because your life is over.
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You sound young, endless. Many of us go through that darkness. You mention ‘him.’ Please don’t let him decide whether your life is worth living. I understand how you feel. Please give life time to fall more into place, for you to grow, perhaps lose weight and find your worth. If not, I understand wanting to leave. This can be a vacuous world for the sensitive heart.
at least you have parents who care for you , i think that is important , if there is just one person who has hope for you , why don’t give it a try and try to start again , try to be someone better and so on , just for the sake of living another day for that person …
This touched me . I too understand your sentiment in regards to people regarding suicide as selfish. As a person who has tried relentlessly, I’d advise you to hold on. With every period of darkness, there’s A beacon of light. I’ve noticed you mentioned that you can count the people on one hand who really care. Though it may not be numerous, quality is better than quantity. These few individuals care . Make them your exoskeleton. Make them be your inspiration to aspire towards change. In your dark times they will be your light. Capatalise on them. When life gives you numerous reasons to surrender, show it infinite premises analysing why you’ll never give up. Hopefully one of those reasons will be your newly acquired exoskeleton.
Feel free to talk to me if you need to talk .?I understand what you’re going through
The way you wrote your message sounds like the way I’d write to myself in class when things get tough. Though, I can’t relate to the same situations you’ve mentioned above, like the “he”, still, it was the very last sentence that got to me. “Because your life is over,” I’ve written it many times. At times, I am my own abuser. I send hateful messages, thoughts and etc., to myself. I am hooked on hurting myself. Whether physically, mentally, indirectly, or directly. I would’ve never had the guts to write a post so personal to me, like the way you wrote yours. Still, I believe that a “he”, no matter how hard, should not be the influence of your suicidal thoughts.
It was nice, however, reading that post I could relate too. It hit me hard and well.
For that, I guess I gotta give a thanks.
I’m not the only one, I realize.