Old Entry Found

IF YOU ACTUALLY READ THIS POST, READ THIS SECTION IN BOLD FIRST:

I found this in an old notebook dated May 27th 2015 and I decided to type it out to keep it documented since I need to destroy the notebook before my family see it and hand it to my psychiatrist.

It contradicts quite a lot, and it’s extremely confusing. I don’t remember writing any of this. I can only assume I wrote it during a time when I was too ‘in-tune’ with my hallucinations to understand what I was doing.  

The contradictions may be different voices and/or demons/figures arguing with one another, I don’t know for certain.

I’m sorry if you do read this and find yourself completely lost and not able to understand any of it. 

The faces; they change. They’re twisted and disfigured. Their eyes just empty, black sockets without feeling. Their mouths permanently shaped into horrified expressions. Nothing will ever be the same.

The cameras are everywhere. They monitor you. Your actions. The Others are waiting. They’re going to get you. Everyone’s going to get you. The people’s eyes are cameras that have been implanted. Everyone is watching you, they’re all working for the Others. For Her.

Their book is getting full. Every detail of you is in there, scrawled in silver like little spider of death curled upon the pages. You let this happen. This is their fault. No. This is your fault. You let them in, you spoke about yourself. You can’t do that, they have it against you and now you’ll die. They’re going to kill you. Isn’t that fun? You’re smarter than this, we told you what to do. And you didn’t listen. You’re stupid. You’re so stupid. This has to end, you’re going to die. They’re going to die.

The earth is going to end. You need to run. Get away. No, stay. We’ll plan it. We’ll work it out. You need to stay safe. We need you, He needs you. Run away. This is why we’ve kept you so long. You listen. But not when it really matters. Clearly. You’re going to die because you didn’t listen. You need to get away. You need to leave, you need to hide.

Don’t trust anyone. They’re all going to get you. They’re working together. Nothing is safe anymore. It hurts. Everything is going to hurt and nothing will stop it. I can see you. The Others are getting stronger. They’re going to start planning when to attack, when to kill you. Run. It’s too late. No, not if you hurry.

The demons are coming. They want you, too. They don’t work for the others. If need be, you go to them. We can get you back from them easier than we can from the Others. Can you feel the burning yet? Does it itch? The bugs are everywhere. They’re in your skin and crawling around. They’re infecting you. The Others will send bugs. They’ll get you with the bugs. Not these bugs. Yellow bugs. Watch out for the yellow bugs.

They’re going to get you soon. No, they’ll wait. They want to stealthily plan this, when you’re most vulnerable. But quicker would get it over and done with. Watch out for them. They’ll find you. They’re going to get you. The Others will kill you. That’s funny. They’re funny. No it’s not. It’ll burn. They’re watching. I can see you.

Get away. The demons are coming. We can see them. They’re going to get you. You’re going to die tonight. No you need to hide. Run. The demons are almost here. They’ll get you. They’ll kill you. You can’t die. Not yet. We need you and He needs you. You can’t die. The demons are almost upon you now. Good luck.