Daily struggle

I have a very severe case of Body Dysmorphia Disorder. Which makes life so difficult for me. And it has only gotten worse. Going into work every single day, knowing people are looking at me, and thinking how hideous i am. It hurts me so so bad. I actually feel bad for the people that look at me. Because of that, nobody ever wants to talk to me, or hang out with me. There is a girl that is required to sit next to me, and she is constantly complaining about that. But I actually feel bad that she has to sit next to me.I wouldnt want to sit next to me either. :(. Sometimes, and quite often, it hurts me so bad, i leave work early, just to come home and cry. I am going to get fired soon because of how often I do that now. but it just hurts, ya know? But if i do end up losing my job, there is literally nothing else I could do beside just finally end my life. Nothing.