Much sometimes. I have had such a crazy few weeks. I’ve been sick with a cold/flu/maybe viral pneumonia for two weeks now. All this coughing is a blast, I have had people get on my case about going to the doctor and my reply was, they can’t do anything this is the stuff EVERYONE else has and it’s viral. They can’t do shit to help me. I’m not wasting any money for them to tell me to take it easy and keep up on my fluids. Part of me wants it to kill me. If I don’t get better it’s going to turn into a bacterial pneumonia and that gets me hospitalized and deathly. I’ve had it twice and ended up on oxygen in the hospital both times. I don’t care anymore to have horrible hospital bills.
I’ve been enjoying the time I spend with my bus friend. She gets me. Tuesday she saw me and said how missed me the few days last week I wasn’t around. I said I just had a few days off and she said she figured that. She didn’t have to say any of that, really. I honesty think we would be close friends if the circumstances were right. She’s just one of my bus drivers I encounter in any given week but she’s different from anyone else. She’s obviously my favorite and I actually told her so the other day because she listens to you and is so encouraging. I need this. I don’t get attached to many people but she’s one of them. I have to stop myself because I want to tell everyone how awesome she is but I realize people will thing I’m wierd (and yes, I am) but I need more people like this. I don’t know what this really means in the grand scheme of things but I wish I wasn’t so reserved and shy and could really let people know how I feel about them. I hope I see her tomorrow because I at least want to tell her see makes a difference in my life.