is it weird that miss the people on this site ???

Well I made it out alive once more, not sure how I feel about that. Actually just woke up. After more shit was thrown on my already full plate, I lost it and raged like I tend to do. So after being up for 3 days partying, rippin the scooter down the highway at 120+ enough alcohol and other things that would kill a herd of elephants, sleeping for another day. I woke up, but instead of being pissed off because I did wake like usually do, I woke up and thought of the people that I’ve met here that have showed me love and support. To all of you ( and you know who you are ) that have been here for me from the beginning I’d like to say I’m sorry for my selfishness. My last post was done out of pure and unadulterated anger and I left that post with a sense of uncertainty. I’m guilty of doing things like that, but I continue to work on that still. Unfortunately depending on what’s going on, I have no problem hittin my self destruct button. But I know how it feels not knowing about the well being of someone I care about and having to worry about them, and then finding out I lost them or the anger of finding out that they made it out but made worry anyways, I feel that I’ve done that to some of you, and for that I am truly sorry