I don’t want to be here anymore. I’m selfish, pathetic, worthless, and I’m scum because I won’t be able to survive on my own at 18. Leeching off the government to keep my thyroidism maintained (not for long since I wont be a minor in July) and using food stamps to not starve. I have so many dreams and goals but I’m f*cking useless and havent been in school since I was 13 I barely know how to do division (IM RETARDED) and I see everything I am as a burden or a lost cause. Everything I look at I see it as an accessory to kill myself with. Its to the point that if life gets worse this year I’ll be hanging myself somewhere.. Just haven’t figured out where yet.