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I ruined my moms paradise. “Youre just like your father, you came into my paradise and ruined it”. I was homeless and between jobs. I helped around the house, I tried keeping conversations with her, but every time I was met with disdain. It was just a repeat of my childhood. Except my father wasnt around to physically abuse me. My mom was there to still be emotionally abusive though. She let her ex-boyfriend constantly use the f-slur around me even after expressing to them both multiple times Im uncomfortable with it because of my being bisexual. She even made excuses for him. Its always been that whenever I protest against something she’s allowing to happen or does herself, Im the one thats wrong.

18 minutes left. She was always respectful towards other peoples kids though. So its definitely clear its all just because its me and how I remind her of my father. She resents me. She never will admit it but she does. She resents me because Im the child she didnt want. Im the child my father wanted, but she wanted to leave him before I was ever conceived.

Empty promises of becoming friends amd getting closer after I move out. Only ever calls me or messages me when she needs me to watch her dog. I get thank you’s, sure, but never calls to catch up. But she’ll call my brother or sister. Because she wanted them. Even though theyre the children of a man that tried shooting her. At least, according to her he tried shooting her. So why does she still love and cherish them?
Why do I have to pay the price of my father being a horrible person. She divorced him years ago and still she only ever sees him in me. Even with how much she says that my brother and I sound and look a lot alike.

10 minutes left. I quit my last job because of the narcisssistic bs from my boss and the plant manager. I know its what happens wherever you go, bosses always have a big head, it comes with the territory, but working for them was putting myself through a constant ethics dilemma. Customers lives’ are at constant risk with how production is done there. Dont eat froyo or ice cream from self serves, the companies behind the supply dont care if you have severe allergies. They will mix allergens because it saves a literal 5 minutes of time.

5 minues left. Goodbye everyone. Goodbye to my first love, to my first hate. Goodbye to my best friends. Screw you mom, screw you dad. My brother and sister were ok, they cared enough. They at least tried on a couple of occasions to reach out to me first to just catch up. My brother is an asshole but I know he always meant well. My sister was the same. I love them for it.

Goodbye