What the difference between a chronically depressed/suicidal person and one who is not?
I know of so many arrogant egocentric selfish people- these ppl tend to be the happiest ppl- they love themselves way too much, think too much of themselves, and are selfish to the core. These ppl don’t question their existence, or their skills- or the lack thereof- they think so highly of themselves when they have no reason to. Hell, it’s usually the dumbest ppl with the lowest amount of skill that think they’re the best/smartest ppl. Or the most assholish greedy selfish ppl who think they are god’s gift to mankind.
They’re delusional- they think they’re all that when they really aren’t. Not by a long stretch. Perhaps we are also delusional- on the opposite end- we think too lowly of ourselves. We ought to be prouder of ourselves but aren’t.
When the whole world has gone mad- is it everyone who’s crazy, or are we the crazy ones for actually noticing the madness?
I feel like depressed ppl see the world for what it is- but all the “optimists” and “normal” ppl are delusional. Look at history’s litany of top philosophers and mathematicians and geniuses- they tend to be depressed AF. I mean we here aren’t geniuses obviously – but we are realists, and being realists make us depressed. We don’t see ourselves as the most amazing thing in the world like egocentric selfish assholes- but these ppl who do are literally the happiest ppl.
Anyhow, I wish I could be delusional and think highly of myself and think my life is so important and matters so much to this world like all these other delusional ppl- but I cannot be delusional as I am too logical. And logic says this is a crap world full of corruption and greed and callousness- and most of our individual lives are meaningless- like what does ONE individual person like us do for this world?
We aren’t doing anything really meaningful (for the most part)- I mean most of us aren’t changing the world for the better and making life-altering inventions or devices or whatever. We are just sitting here barely trudging through the day, and consuming resources. That’s pretty much it.
How do we become delusional? I would rather be delusional and think too highly of myself than be chronically depressed.
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Anyhow- these are the rants of a logical yet defective brain. O_o
Somebody should really help us- or put us all out of our misery. -_-
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I think you have to gradually increase the amount of ego centrism in your life. A little delusion, for the cause. The first step is realizing that doing nothing is self indulgent. Maybe you didn’t realize that, or don’t want to own up to it. It is though, it’s kind of that last foot stomp; “You won’t offer me terms acceptable? then I won’t work.”
and I’ll grant that the economy is shit and there’s no good work to do. Even with that being true, idle time is indulgent. Feeling bad about life, is an indulgence.
So we’re all about our own indulgences. The truly productive don’t care either way, if the world goes to hell in a handbasket or if life is peaches and cream. That’s what productivity does, it swallows you. They aren’t happy, they just can’t engage or it’ll interrupt productivity. Look at me, a few stray wires and I’m down. Smarter people, better resourced people don’t end up here.
but I long to be totally indulgent, totally about my desires, my dreams. Why not? No one else is going to be, ever. I’ve spent sufficient time serving others, I think anyone would agree.
but….. helping someone can change the world. I believe that. Because of what I did, there are less sex offenders out there. Because of work I did, people won’t go hungry. Because of work I did, intergenerational trauma is better understood. That was good work.
Ordinary people do most of the work in this world. “powerful” people? con artists, flim flams, circus entertainers. Good at claiming credit for work they didn’t do. Not a one of them could or would do my job, or let me do theirs. Why? because it would expose them for the idiots that they are, idiots and incompetents, the majority of them.
Your title kind of answers your question unknowingly. With things the way they currently are, individuals love themselves too much. We have become so divided that people usually only think of things in context to themselves, which usually means screw everybody else my thing is always more important.
We have given in too much to tribalism and we have lost touch with community. In the digital age we have just found better ways to be more alone. Hence higher levels of depression. Humanity is really good at destroying everything around itself. It’s great.
I think it just boils down to having a large enough social group, that you can choose to be arrogant around and jettison those who displease you.
For many of us, we cultivated good relationships because being of a lower socioeconomic income we need a support network because life is forking rough being in our position.
From living in bad housing, to rotten, stupid bosses who also lord over you, to scummy backstabbing so-called friends, you have to create an “island of tranquility” for yourself to have some normalcy in the world.
If you’re educated, rich and have a high enough income where you can opt to be a little arrogant, then there’s little that can bring you down except abject loneliness.
You can afford to have a bunch of superficial relationships that seem authentic but are tissue-paper thin and cannot stand much strain.
But if you are surrounded by superficial/artificial people like yourself, then what does it matter since you’ll never need them to save you from poverty or other major issues in life?
Ofc if one is unable to say control their liquor or had relationship problems and you need that good friend/shoulder to cry, that’s harder to come by….since few superficial people give a damn about anyone but themselves and I know many like that.
At the end of the day you probably need a mix of people but true friends are like diamonds in the ruff….they’re the ones who get most taken for granted as well…but once they realize their own worth then they also become choosy about how they let into their lives.
The trouble is that as humans, nobody’s perfect and sometimes even people you thought were your best friends can have a bad side to them.
Let’s also not forget sometimes the petty, childish fights/arguments that can happen between superficial friends too.
It’s almost a wonder to me how people manage to keep so many friends in their lives because practically everyone I know has rubbed me the wrong way at least once in my life….and if its usually trivial I’ll let it go, but sometimes you know that person is a piece of trash and you’d rather not keep them but you have nobody to replace them with.
I’ll end on this…I have a close relative who I thought was my best friend in a way but I’m starting to piece together she doesn’t see me the same way and she has low-key contempt for me, which is sad, because when she was younger, she was nicer, more reasonable and easy-going.
Now she’s a prickly b*tch and it’s to the point I don’t care to be around her…she’s messed up in so many ways and can’t see it because she thinks she’s perfect and everyone else is screwed up.