I’m Sorry

–Fictional work of a delusional nobody—

Hello and the fact that you’re reading this means that you were the poor unfortunate bastard who found my body(i’m terribly sorry about the mess the envelope in my pocket contains money for a cleaning service and there business card).

Now on to business shall we,  where were we , ahh yes you’ve  found me, now im guessing you are wondering why  what could have possessed me to do such a thing  well I hate to dissapoint you but im not completely sure why i did it either there have been many factors that have lead me to my decision but nothing of any real significance. The only stand out thing i can say that has guided me direction has been a perpetual lack of happiness regardless of the ongoing world around me.   All and all my life was a decent one and i had ample opportunities to do something with it  but i squandered those over the years.

I have never had any ambitions nor goals and dreams to speak of and have always distanced myself from others as a safety measure to keep from infecting the minds of those around me and as a result there is very little in this world i care about  even while writing this i sit here and think why bother? does it even matter? no one cares anyways why am i writing it out?  But i digress, and now i must move on towards the point.

I must say to any of my family first and foremost DO NOT MOURN for my passing rejoice in the fact that i have found peace in the only way that i could understand.

To my father and mother i love you both very much and i really hope that you will come to understand that it was not your fault and that there was nothing that you could have done to prevent my fate  Please do not blame yourselfs for you have brought me the moments closest to being happy.  Lastly i must say i am sorry for the pain that my loss has brought you understand that it was not meant to hurt anyone.

To my brothers and sisters  I love you all more than you can ever know and i am dreadfully sorry i never had the chance to tell you all that. I am sorry that i was never there and that when i was i was cold and uncaring. I see so much talent in you all i hope you may find the paths to happiness and i’ve been told that the world is a beautiful place  if you can find what you’re looking for out there. My advice to you all is to not follow in my path. Never give up never surrender and always hold to your beliefs no matter what others say,  the world is already plagued with to many sheep like myself devoid of a single original thought simply following, and i can see soo much more in you do not let your dreams die

Lastly to anyone else reading this THERE IS A BETTER WAY  this is a path that i have chosen out of laziness for i am far too lazy to care enough to seek help nor did want to in some sick ways i felt that this was the easiest way to avoid having to put forth any effort in a life that i care nothing about  but there is help out there.

there are an abundance of places to go and seek help and i greatly urge you at least open yourself up to the possibility of happiness i am told it is a wonderful feeling.

Take a moment while you here reading to glance one last time at my body and think of all the things that I will never again get to experience,all of the things I will never do,and the future that I will never get to see.

I do not wish this on anyone I want you all to be happy no matter who you are. I know what it is to simply exist and if you too also know what it means to be hollow then I urge you to get the help I never did.

IM SORRY

P.s   if im still warm i’d like to donate any remaining organs for transplant   and if im not well sorry for the smell