It’s so hard on me. It really is. I don’t even know how to feel. It’s like everything is a lie.
The guy I mentioned on my last post has been the cause of my problems. It’s all because I didn’t mean for any of this to happen.
Monday night I was feeling so down about my mom and him and just everything (Tuesday was my mom’s death anniversary) and so I texted him. I said “My mom died 7 years ago. You would understand right?”
His reply?
His exact words were “Ugh I’m sorry I’m not trying to be mean but can you please stop texting me”.
The only reason why I texted him is because his mom died too.
Or at least that’s what I was told. I say this because someone told me him mom didn’t die. I’ve prayed that he didn’t lie about that at least. I told this to a friend of mine and he said that he doesn’t think he lied about that. He said he’s heard him say it on the bus.
It’s just there are some pretty memories..
I don’t know what to do.
I’m so annoyed at myself. I hate myself so much because of this. I have put up with his bullshit for like a month. I’m tired of this yet I want to give him another chance.
Silly me right?
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Yes, silly you, it sounds like you are already under his spell. Take it really slow and walk like you are in a mine field.
Actually, in fact, and blumtly, it sounds like you two are just not for each other. There should be truth and honestly, always, and a smoothness, chemistry and easiness about it.
But what is it with some of us and being hooked by people who will never love us (it seems)?…
justanothergirl09,
i agree with October_rain, and i would never trust someone that told me their mom was dead and she wasn’t, no second chance for that, I’ve heard of tricks to reel someone in but i draw the line when it comes to my mother! my mother is dead i miss her more than anything, i don’t know what to say? if it’s true he lied that’s enough! drop him like a hot potato!