I know i don’t want to die but really, what other option do i have? Life is just too stressful and i don’t know what to do anymore. So for all of you reading this i think im just gonna kill myself, I’ve tried with multiple unsuccessful attempts but in the end im just going to do it while my parents are sleeping. I plan to leave a suicide note for my family and if any of my family is reading this or if someone knows me and figures out its me then please please please tell my mom im sorry and that i did this so she wouldnt be so stressed out, because highschools hard you know? So i guess I’ll just get ready.
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Dear Disarray,
What is over the top stressful at school? It sounds like you have loving parents. Do they have an idea how close to the edge you feel? The must know about your previous attempts?
You really need to talk to your parents about how you feel and the pressure you are under at school. They also have school counsellors that can help you handle the stress of school.
If its the workload, you can get tutors to help you. If its the school kids making you feel shit, then change schools or do home schooling. There are so many options at your age.
If you feel such a close connection to your mum to want to tell her how sorry you are then I’m sure she must feel a great deal of love for you and would listen to you.
Please at least try this first. Sometimes just being honest is the best thing.
Disarry,
High school should be the best time of your life. I’m sorry you feel so hopeless. Wait till you’re 56 like me and feel like you’ve failed at everything in life. I can understand how low you are feeling. I’ll bet there are some days that feel so bad it’s as if the tunnel will never end or it doesn’t matter how much you try it’s impossible to climb out of the hole.
All I can tell you is trying to find someone to talk with you.
God bless you.