I just got done cutting my wrist about ten minutes and i regret it!! i was just so upset and angry. My mom said that if it happens again she is going to take away my license and car. i dont want that!!!! i dont know what to do?!? I dont want her to find out but its so hott so i cant cover it up she knows by now that if i say it was the dog that im lieing! i dont know whats going to happen. i need advice.
I started cutting about three weeks ago. At first it hurt alot, then i realized that if you break a plastic cup into small pieces and fling it against your wrist it still bleeds and it doesnt hurt as much. I am so ashamed to be saying those words but I cant help it. I used to never be able to understand the people who said that they “needed to cut” and that they “couldnt go a day without it”. Now i understand because I am one of those people. I cant go a day or even an hour without thinking about it or actually […]
I havent been on here in a long time!!! i feel like im missing my family on here! so i have had some horrible stuff happening and i have reached my limits so i cut myself. i had earlier written a post on how to start and ex out the pain of cutting but now i understand. i cant go a day without thinking about cutting and/or cutting. i just feel like i need it. it sucks to look down at my hands and wrists and see the scars. I always blame it on the dogs when someone asks. they are so naive. i honestly […]
I was at drivers ed tonight at my high school and there was a basketball game going on and i looked in and i saw all the girls with their friends and families and all i cant think is why cant i have that? why cant i have friends who will support me? why cant i have friends in general or people who like me? no guys are ever interested in me and the only guys that are, are the kinds that just want a ding dong ditch because i let every guy in that i can because they are the only ones that ever […]
Another of my friends committed suicide today.. seriously? thats three in two months. I cant take much more of this.. with these deaths my aunts death and my parents divorce and fighting and me being bullied i cant take this any longer. i feel like collapsing on the floor.
I am in high school. And ever since elem school i have been rejected from everything. I just dont fit in anywhere. Im not mean or too shy but people just dont like me because im smart. They think that im better than them. They make me ashamed of who i am. I can never stop crying every time i use the bathroom at school. when i come home. i go straight to my room and i cryy and cry. I look on facebook and twitter and the camp ground i used to go to seasonally. I see all these pictures of people that i […]
I have thrown so many signs out for years now that i want to committ suicide and the people around me are so self consumed that they dont realize how badly i am hurting inside. I just want someone to recognize a sign anything and just say that i care in person not someone from the internet. my family and friends are so selfish. i hate this and i hate my life. my parents are too concerned about their divorce and my friends are too busy with their boyfriends.. where the fuck does that leave me? stupid idiot cunts!
Ya know, I have had many, many, many, suicides this past month or so. Three. They all never showed any signs or anything and of course with the subject coming up everywhere i look now that this has happened it has reopened my deep feelings of wanting to do it however i stuck in there because it was the holidays.
Today i found out my parents are getting divorced. out of the whole year it had to be this month with all my friends’ suicides. like seriously. this is tearing me apart but i put on a brave face and listen to both of them […]
One of my closest friends killed themselves today. Thats 2 in only three weeks!!! what the fuck. i hate this so much. who else is next?? fuck my life.. im so depressed.
Has anybody hung themselves and lived? if so what did it feel like?
So my family and I put up all the christmass decorations and all the trees up.. Its really depressing. I really love christmas to the point where i want to cry but i just cant do it. It hurts to be teased with all this joy and then dec. 26th its all gone. back to being depressed. i hate this but i love it! F*ck Life.
I suffer everyday.
I suffer from the guilt. The guilt of getting my moms old high school sweet heart and setting them up and my mom said they had crazy sex. BTW my mom and dad were married and they still are so i helped my mom cheat on my dad. I hate my father. He is so abusive. Then the guy that slept with my mom just left one day and never said a word and now i have to live with the guilt of what i know and i can never tell my dad.
I suffer from irritable bowel syndrome so i can […]
I tried cutting but it hurts too much. Even though i know that’s the point. I still can’t do it but i want to. any ideas?
My friend committed suicide the other week. I had no clue. About a year before that i had suicidal thoughts but I never acted on them. I just bottled them up. I convinced myself that they weren’t there. But now that she committed suicide. She has rekindled everything. Its all i think about. But im too scared of the unknown. That there wont be anything after I die.
Plus i have two little sisters and I would hate to leave them like that. But i want to. Just to stop all the anxiety and suffering. I can’t tell anyone about these thoughts because they will send […]
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