butto_love

Feeling super heavy lately.
I gave my best at an interview where they said big things promised a higher position, hyped me up and then just… vanished. No updates, no feedback. It’s like being left on read but professionally.

To make it worse, I helped a friend with the same task he didn’t get that role but ended up getting placed in one of their sister concerns. Now he’s casually sharing his news, not even realizing how tough this is for me to hear.

Maybe I’m overthinking… but damn, it stings. Feeling heavy. I imagined about this […]

I live with a toxic father someone who can be kind when he’s in a good mood, but the moment he faces problems, he turns cold and takes it out on everyone in whatever way he chooses. My mother endures it all in silence. She pushes herself beyond her limits every day, and I can see how it’s destroying her mentally too.

As for me, I’m anti-social, working a 9-to-6 job, with no real friends or emotional support. I feel like I’m just barely surviving each day. There’s this gut-wrenching weight inside me as if I could vanish without anyone […]

Family is something that can give both happiness and heartache. Scoldings, often intended with good intentions, can make me feel wrong and like I’m not allowed to do things my way. There’s a strict structure for everything, and it must be followed. I have low self-esteem and admire people who can do things I can’t. I’m tired of everything

THE PAIN OF YOU WANTING SMTG BUT YOU CANT DO IT KNOWWV ITS FUCKING PAINFUL … WHICH MAKES ME FEEL THE LOWEST OF LOWEST …. I CANT OVERCOME IT ………. I FEEL I AM UNLUCKY IN ALL ASPECTS ….. AND MY PARENTS DESERVE A PERFECT KID INSTEAD […]

I’m really disappointed that I can’t join my classmates on the industrial visit. As a final-year student, this was a trip I was really looking forward to. Unfortunately, financial constraints are not letting me from going.

It’s especially like heavy heart because this was likely to be the last such trip during my college years. I feel unlucky because I’ve missed out on similar opportunities in the past, even during my school days. While others enjoyed these experiences, I was always on the sidelines.

This situation has now left me feeling frustrated and a bit angry. I can’t help but feel that I’m missing […]

It feels like no one in this world is truly trustworthy, especially the people around me. I say this because those closest to me have proven unworthy of my trust. Selfishness has consumed them. Why do people adopt such a cheap attitude towards others? The betrayal by someone I trusted has caused me immense pain.

Selfishness always seems to take the upper hand. It’s astonishing to see how people can change over such trivial matters, revealing their true colors. I mean, why? Isn’t it wrong to betray someone or break their trust?

It’s been days since I joined the Suicide Project. During this time, I reconnected with my so-called friends, and we resolved our conflicts. We’re on good terms now.

However, my interactions with people around me continue to be problematic. I fear this might also happen with my friends. It’s frustrating to navigate friendships in college. I perceive many people as self-absorbed, hurtful, and selfish. They seem oblivious to how their actions affect others.

In my imagination, I envision them lined up, each with their hearts ripped out, similar to a scene from a movie. While I don’t actually want to harm them, I feel […]

Seriously speaking I feel I’m unworthy in all aspects . I’m insecure everything about me . Today’s my birthday and I’m diving to the deeper depths of sadness . I don’t know what I have in life ….  Just living some void shit …. My existence doesn’t have any meaning.  I don’t expect anything from anyone but that’s making me more isolated and depressing.  Idk whom to say these thoughts . I don’t want to share to anyone I know . Cuz they will not value or respect my feelings especially the closed ones . The person I love is making me feel like it’s […]

It’s a new feeling you taught me
Walking past my phone
Waiting for it to light up

But now I expect everyone to not talk with me and get hurt. At last, even the boy I loved truly left me for his selfishness. Screw up people and big screw up the phones. People around me change me like this ……….. Now I’m a lost cause.