I went through a lifeless 3-year relationship, and recently, I started feeling a spark with someone at work a guy I really admire in every way. I don’t even know why I like him so much, but I couldn’t keep it to myself and ended up confessing my feelings to him — the first time I’ve ever done that. He said I liked the wrong guy. Now I feel embarrassed and can’t act normal around him like before. He apologized, but seeing him every day still hurts. Watching him be so normal and friendly with other girls makes it even worse. I just feel like […]
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I'm a misanthropic person. I selflessly loved every people around me. But everyone made me feel they don't deserve that. So now I'm a lost cause in bonds and relationships
Feeling super heavy lately.
I gave my best at an interview where they said big things promised a higher position, hyped me up and then just… vanished. No updates, no feedback. It’s like being left on read but professionally.
To make it worse, I helped a friend with the same task he didn’t get that role but ended up getting placed in one of their sister concerns. Now he’s casually sharing his news, not even realizing how tough this is for me to hear.
Maybe I’m overthinking… but damn, it stings. Feeling heavy. I imagined about this […]
I live with a toxic father someone who can be kind when he’s in a good mood, but the moment he faces problems, he turns cold and takes it out on everyone in whatever way he chooses. My mother endures it all in silence. She pushes herself beyond her limits every day, and I can see how it’s destroying her mentally too.
As for me, I’m anti-social, working a 9-to-6 job, with no real friends or emotional support. I feel like I’m just barely surviving each day. There’s this gut-wrenching weight inside me as if I could vanish without anyone […]
I haven’t officially completed my undergraduate degree yet. I’m in my final semester. I got the chance to start working early and took it, but I couldn’t keep up with everything. Over time, I’ve become increasingly disillusioned with people almost everyone. There are many things I genuinely enjoy, but I haven’t been able to fully pursue even one. I’m earning now, but there’s no real happiness in it. Life feels exhausting full of masks and meaningless routines.
Both my personal and work life feel completely messed up. I don’t know where to turn, what to say, or what to do. […]
A heavy feeling , my heart weighs like a ton . I cant bear this pain , feels like I can rip it out of my chest . Why world is being this much cruel . Hate this feeling . Hatred Hatred Hatred …. When bad things happen to me all i feel is hatred . I am being misanthropic on its peak . Come on why. I dont belong here . I hate people . I am just a dust in this whole universe . All i can think about and ask is Why Why Why . At this range im losing my mind […]
Family is something that can give both happiness and heartache. Scoldings, often intended with good intentions, can make me feel wrong and like I’m not allowed to do things my way. There’s a strict structure for everything, and it must be followed. I have low self-esteem and admire people who can do things I can’t. I’m tired of everything
THE PAIN OF YOU WANTING SMTG BUT YOU CANT DO IT KNOWWV ITS FUCKING PAINFUL … WHICH MAKES ME FEEL THE LOWEST OF LOWEST …. I CANT OVERCOME IT ………. I FEEL I AM UNLUCKY IN ALL ASPECTS ….. AND MY PARENTS DESERVE A PERFECT KID INSTEAD […]
I’m really disappointed that I can’t join my classmates on the industrial visit. As a final-year student, this was a trip I was really looking forward to. Unfortunately, financial constraints are not letting me from going.
It’s especially like heavy heart because this was likely to be the last such trip during my college years. I feel unlucky because I’ve missed out on similar opportunities in the past, even during my school days. While others enjoyed these experiences, I was always on the sidelines.
This situation has now left me feeling frustrated and a bit angry. I can’t help but feel that I’m missing […]
It feels like no one in this world is truly trustworthy, especially the people around me. I say this because those closest to me have proven unworthy of my trust. Selfishness has consumed them. Why do people adopt such a cheap attitude towards others? The betrayal by someone I trusted has caused me immense pain.
Selfishness always seems to take the upper hand. It’s astonishing to see how people can change over such trivial matters, revealing their true colors. I mean, why? Isn’t it wrong to betray someone or break their trust?
I’m a final year student about to enter the job market, and my family’s well-being weighs heavily on me. While I appreciate everything my parents have done for me, their pressure to find a job immediately is causing a lot of stress.
Looking back, my academic performance wasn’t ideal due to personal struggles in high school. Now, many companies have strict eligibility criteria, making things even more challenging. Although I managed to do well in college and 12th grade, it feels like it’s not enough.
Hearing talks about being a burden to the family breaks my heart. I want to contribute and find a […]
It’s been days since I joined the Suicide Project. During this time, I reconnected with my so-called friends, and we resolved our conflicts. We’re on good terms now.
However, my interactions with people around me continue to be problematic. I fear this might also happen with my friends. It’s frustrating to navigate friendships in college. I perceive many people as self-absorbed, hurtful, and selfish. They seem oblivious to how their actions affect others.
In my imagination, I envision them lined up, each with their hearts ripped out, similar to a scene from a movie. While I don’t actually want to harm them, I feel […]
Seriously speaking I feel I’m unworthy in all aspects . I’m insecure everything about me . Today’s my birthday and I’m diving to the deeper depths of sadness . I don’t know what I have in life …. Just living some void shit …. My existence doesn’t have any meaning. I don’t expect anything from anyone but that’s making me more isolated and depressing. Idk whom to say these thoughts . I don’t want to share to anyone I know . Cuz they will not value or respect my feelings especially the closed ones . The person I love is making me feel like it’s […]
I think I have lot of complexities about my body and looks . I feel like I’m not the way I like to be . I really worry thinking of it everyday . I like a person …. but I feel like that person doesn’t deserve me …. I feel like I’m not a perfect match for that person …… I understand we must have self love for ourself and shit . But I feel I’m not beautiful in anyway ….. I don’t know what to do to overcome thissssss. I suffer a lot thinking about this ….. I don’t know what to do seriously […]
But sometimes i feel betrayed and lost in thoughts . This was an imagination of my thoughts where i visit my ex marriage .
A fine day. My ex-lover’s wedding ceremony is about to begin.He invited me to it.
Although I was not sure if I should attend, it is a testament to his character and the respect he has for me that he would extend such an invitation.
It also speaks to the strength of the bond we once shared and the memories we have together. The person I carved into my veins is getting married.
I try every day to stop loving and building […]
The thing is eventhough we are not together . I cant some times get over our memories together . I feel like i loved too much . The bond I thought forever is shattered into pieces which cant be fixed back ……
I respect his decision . I think he left for a reason . Let him be whatever he wants to be …..
We cant like hold on to the people …. And i didnt do that or fight back because we must not be in place which is not ours …. I AM A AVERAGE , BROWN GIRL ……… IF THIS WAS THE END WHY […]
It’s a new feeling you taught me
Walking past my phone
Waiting for it to light up
But now I expect everyone to not talk with me and get hurt. At last, even the boy I loved truly left me for his selfishness. Screw up people and big screw up the phones. People around me change me like this ……….. Now I’m a lost cause.
You must just cope with the fact that you have a problem as long as you have a pulse. So fuck up everything and live the moment happily with people or without people.
sowed a seed in a barren heart
nourished it with water and blood
as the time passes by
it started to grow
began to feel on all my sufferings
it gave me reassurance of my every doubt
eventually i realised
it was a parasitic plant
i let it grow, while i decayed .
I can’t quite put it into words but
we were something else.
We burned bright together but
what was even more beautiful was how
we glowed in presence of each other.
I honestly thought we’d go the distance
but the fates conspired and we were
nothing more than ships passing in the night.
And though we never reached the shores
of our dreams together,
We should never meet in another life
There was a tale about a boy and a girl. They were both close friends who became closer over time. She was not interested in love or any type of meaningful relationship since she was not interested in these things. But, that guy was a sweet, compassionate, and overall wonderful person who professed his emotions for her over the phone.
She had no idea what he was up to since she considered him as a friend-zoned individual. Yet her feelings began to grow and she was in a steady and matured state. They began conversing and got to know one another better and better. Their love […]
Let it go. Go ahead. You don’t deserve what’s happening to you but that doesn’t mean you should stop being nice. You can find joy in spreading it to others, and while some may find it fun to bring you down, it slowly destroys their soul. I don’t have anyone to tell my feelings to. Talk with your consciousness. It’s okay, Trust this struggle is part of the process. And trust that as long as you don’t give up and keep pushing forward, no matter how hopeless things seem… you will make it.
Sometimes you have to be strong for yourself. You have to know that […]