I just can’t.
I want my misery to end.
No one is going to save me, and I’m too sick and broken to save myself.
too long to type but FML, just FM shitty life
You know, I had always thought mind control would be the best superpower to have. It probably still is. Along with self-healing. Or time travelling. Or the power to see the future.
Ooh there’s new powers i’ve never heard of:
omnifabrication- the ability to invent anything.
omnimanipulation- the ability to manipulate anything and everything- time/space, objects, mind, life/death, etc. now that’s just cheating! lol
But I’m thinking the power of “luck” would be cool too. It’s a power you can’t directly control, but shit, it sure would be nice to be “lucky” for a change.
would greatly reduce my stress and anxiety over lack of money
reduce my depression from my lack of resources to go places, do things, see things, afford things
pay ppl to help me do things
afford better, healthier, and tastier food
oh yeah, and have an actual NICE place to live in instead of worrying over fucking mold/mildew/stale/rotten air
would do wonders for my depression.
and my health.
who says money doesn’t buy happiness or help depression?
fuck yeah it’d help me. LOTS.
you notice how the people who always say “money doesn’t buy happiness” never give it away.
funny how that is eh?
who would you be? could be from any movie, tv show, anime, cartoon, etc.
cuz i sure am
What a waste to live life having depression 90% of your life. Years and decades go by and you’re miserable af. Severe depression is so debilitating. And no one understands. We’re just labeled as “lazy” and shunned by society.
19 Lies You Were Told as a Kid—That You Probably Still Believe
Adam and Eve ate an apple
“We see it in artwork, in TV shows, and movies that the forbidden fruit Adam and Eve ate referenced in the bible was an apple, right? Not so much. It is never actually referred to as any specific fruit. Many theologists theorize that, given the other geographical landmarks referenced, the fruit was likely a pomegranate or fig.”
Holy cow, I’m not religious but I just assumed there was an apple in the bible in the Adam and Eve story, bc that’s just what we’ve all been told, everywhere. […]
The fuck is this? Oppositional Defiant Disorder??
They’re just straight up making up shit.
Oppositional Defiant Disorder- ODD
“A disorder in a child marked by defiant and disobedient behavior to authority figures.
The cause of oppositional defiant disorder is unknown but likely involves a combination of genetic and environmental factors.
Symptoms generally begin before a child is eight years old. They include irritable mood, argumentative and defiant behavior, aggression, and vindictiveness that last more than six months and cause significant problems at home or school.
Treatment involves individual and family therapy.”
So literally anyone who doesn’t believe in mainstream propaganda or doesn’t believe in authoritarian rules […]
I’m so damned tired- physically exhausted- but can’t sleep, then can’t function during the day. I am so weak. Bc I’m too exhausted to even go to the grocery store, then I don’t have enough nutrients, causing me to be even more weak and tired.
It hurts so bad.
I don’t want to be sick and tired anymore. No one knows what it’s like except for the ppl who are chronically ill and with chronic fatigue syndrome. It’s absolute fucking torture. And yes, I WOULD wish it on my worst enemy.
Woke up to being thrown out of my guild in this stupid game I’m playing. Then I went to join another guild, only to be kicked out of that one bc “my team is too weak.”
TF. We can’t even play games now without having to be in teams or guilds where you have to rely on others to do their end of the “work” and to do it well.
Whatever happened to just playing a fucking game at your own pace and having fun? Back in the day, games weren’t so “team” based. It’s fucking annoying now.
It wouldn’t be such a fucking […]
Emotional Deprivation in Infancy. 1948 Study comparing orphans to home babies
And this is why shit like “just think happy thoughts” don’t fucking work. Someone who has been physically and emotionally neglected since they were young does not and CANNOT get better with just “thinking positive.” We are so damaged, physically and cognitively. The problems are permanent (unless the baby was taken out of that bad environment into a good one as a baby/toddler).
I wasn’t an orphan but my childhood was SUPER horrible- I was neglected and uncared for, and then later abused for most of my childhood/teens, so no, I did […]
Started getting ready around 2:10PM.
Left the house at 2:40PM
1- I went out to get groceries, then put everything away
2- Did Laundry
3- Showered
5- Ate Dinner
It is now 10:08PM.
Took me 8 fucking hours to literally get groceries and do laundry.
I’m exhausted and feel like I’m about to collapse.
FML.
Anyone here have done something they regret to this day? No, I didn’t do anything bad. But I made a decision 13 years ago that’s altered my life forever. And it haunts me forever bc maybe I could’ve been happy and had a whole different life had I not made that decision back then.
You know the story of the Butterfly Effect. That even a small change can lead to HUGE devastating results. Well…I suppose it’s kind of like that. Except it wasn’t a small decision. I thought it was best / emotionally safest for me at […]
tired of my shitty life
tired of being depressed all the time
tired of being chronically sick
tired of being physically fatigued all day every day
tired of being unable to sleep and get ACTUAL rest
tired of being lonely, no friends, no family (that cares), no S.O.
tired of being yelled, shamed, criticized by society for being sick/depressed/not working
tired of always being poor- can’t work and make money when you’re sick every day
tired of things just getting worse and worse
i just don’t see this cycle ending
i don’t see it getting better without help
i’ve been stuck in this sick wheel for […]
I wouldn’t want to be in a coma or anything like that, but I haven’t slept in 14 fucking years and I just want to fucking sleep- have GOOD RESTFUL sleep like a normal person like I used to- and wake up feeling refreshed instead of feeling like an exhausted zombie every fucking day.
My depression would be “cured” for the most part if I could just be healthy again- before my car accident fucked me up in so many ways and before I went to drs for “help” only for them to make me WORSE. fucking idiot evil drs.
anyway, fuck this shitty life […]
I need someone to physically help me- help me pack, drive me across the country (taking a flight is exhausting on my feeble body), and once I get there, I need help getting furniture and all the little things I need like soap, toiletries, curtain, bathmat, broom, etc. Cleaning the place, setting it up, buying the furniture and household items- I am stuck here where I am bc I KNOW what is in store for me when I get there and I have ZERO energy to do any of it.
Like I literally won’t be able to take a shower until I get […]
I am wasting my life away spending hours on SP as well as hours playing games and watching YT videos bc it’s staves off the immediate deep depression and distracts me for the short term. But I am not doing anything to get me out of this predicament. There are things I need to do like get ready to move but I am too fucking fatigued and tired every day so nothing gets done in that regard. And no, it’s not like “do a little each day.” My thing is I’m not sure I have the physical energy to pack and […]
*insert evil maniacal Mr. Burns laugh*
Everyone always says shit like “I wouldn’t wish it on my enemy.” Well I DO. I DO wish “it” on my enemy. And every single person that has NO sympathy, no empathy, no compassion or NO CLUE as to how being sick means I can’t do things anymore, how I can’t function anymore.
I wish I could give ppl a taste of what my health problems are like, for ppl to FEEL it, and have NO WAY OUT like I don’t. Go and tell me to “journal” or “think happy” one more fucking time.