Real happiness.
(Or, what would get rid of your depression?)
have a strong desire to live?
So many posts and comments about wanting to die (and I’m one of them). Just curious if there were people who are depressed yet still have a *strong* desire to live??
I am getting yelled at left and right for not waking up early, for not being productive, for not doing enough of this and that. What part of CHRONIC FATIGUE do they not get? It’s not like I CHOOSE to be so tired I can barely go and shower and change my underwear, let alone be out and about doing this this and that. ESPECIALLY since they disturb my sleep in the morning, EVERY morning. If I am TIRED, I don’t have any energy to do anything. Then I get yelled at for rolling back into bed, because I’m so […]
1. Everything you say can, and will be, used against you at a later time.
2. Everything you do (or don’t do) will be used to criticize you. At every opportunity.
3. What other “universal truths” shall be listed under “Family”?
I’m in a dark mood (when am I not?). Any good scifi / dark movies or shows you’d recommend?
Back in Oct/Nov of last year, I had a moment of feeling good (briefly) trying some new therapies (for body). And I decided that in order to live, I would need to fix my feet and be able to walk. Well, that is true, but that means going to stay with my sister for 2-3mo to have my feet fixed by someone here. Well, this is where I am atm and I am regretting coming down here (of course, of course).
What was I thinking? When I decided I wanted to fix my feet and live- was that moment a moment […]
Anyone watched The Butterfly Effect? The one where Ashton Kutcher (yes, his one good serious role) is able to go back in time to alter his (their) past, to fix things, but each time he tries, the alternate life / universe is made worse. Then he discovers that he should not have been born at all. He was supposed to be miscarriaged. He goes back in time and kills himself as a fetus. He finally fixes it- life for everyone is now great again.
I don’t know what the point of this post is. I wish I could go back […]
I swore I wrote a whole post last night. But I’ve been sick and heck, can’t remember things. Maybe I only dreamt I sat and wrote some stuff.
Anyhoo, since I can’t remember jack, what are some of your random thoughts today? Could be anything- weird, silly, funny, thought-provoking, thought-provokingly weird, etc.
Have you ever made a decision that was irreversible/un-doable/irrevocable? That you wish you did not make that has forever changed your life?
There are some decisions in life that you just can’t take back. Many decisions are minor or have minor consequences. Some decisions, however, can have disastrous or unforeseen (to you at the time) consequences.
Yeah, I’m sitting here bemoaning the stupid ass decision I made back in 2006. Not just ruined my life but I would have had great success here, in many areas, had I stayed.
Yes yes, hindsight is 20/20, blah blah. Doesn’t make it better that […]
or anything funny, silly, weird, interesting fact, etc. Need a little pick-me-up from…well, life…
I used to bottle up all my emotions, and stuffed it in a “box.” I was like Dr. Spock, all logic no feelings. But at some point I broke. I experienced my first heartache and now I can’t get back to the way I used to be. I am now all emotional and sensitive. Before I could at least deal with life by shutting off all emotions and go through life via logic. But now that the emotions have seeped out, I can’t stuff it back in.
Has anyone gone through this? Did you go through life suppressing all […]
Can I have a normal relationship with people anymore? A large part of me still wants to shut everyone out. But a human cannot live with no companionship. Or at least live sanely with no one to talk to or be with. And I have so much pent up anger for people…
My parents were actually on their very best behaviour the past few days. They were actually trying to be good to me for once (I refused to see them for the last 8 years or so). But I was sad, depressed and angry at my sister. So I sulked and isolated myself in my room. Wasn’t so much avoiding them as avoiding the whole world.
Anyway, I didn’t come out today (nor yesterday or the day before). I almost came out this morning but was tired so decided not to. They thought I was avoiding them. Well, this morning […]
Why do siblings deny they got treated better that the others? My sister and I got treated like crap, while my other sister and brother were treated like the two “golden” children. The “golden” child thinks there’s no issue, that we were all treated poorly. Yeah right. And that we think it’s just “favoritism.” Really? Telling 2 of your children they’re pieces of sh*t and that you wish they weren’t born, and telling your other two children how “precious” they are, goes well beyond “favoritism.”
People who get treated better *always* deny they get better treatment. Why is that? […]
I’m here visiting family. It went okay for the 1st 4 days. Then, surprise, the powder-keg inevitably went off. And now it’s awful. I’ve been here almost 1 1/2 weeks now.
I didn’t want to come here in the first place, but I needed to get my foot fixed. So here I am. And I’m stuck here. My sister was “nice” for 4 days but now it’s gone sour and I don’t want to be miserable for the next 3 weeks.
I’m in a place where you need a car to get anywhere. I’m thinking […]
I’ve been away from SP for the past 2 weeks or so. Anyone miss me? (that’s okay, you can lie and say you did) : P
What’s been shakin’ at SP?
1. “Fryddy” Krugger! Noooo!!
2. Banana Crime Scene
3. “Think Thin”
4. SPF PB
(other than depression, suicide)
What do you feel on a general basis, from day to day, year to year (and for those old enough, decade to decade)?
For me, it’s anger (at all of life’s injustices) and hopelessness (that shit ain’t gettin’ any better).
every decision you’ve ever made, was the wrong one?
I don’t mean obvious bad things like doing drugs, partying too much, getting into trouble, flunking out of school, etc. I don’t mean that, and I haven’t done any of that.
I mean decisions you made that you couldn’t have known they were bad at the outset? I had taken the logical, practical approach for most of my life. I thought they were good decisions. But it turned out I couldn’t have made worse choices.
Major decisions like which university to go (I chose a pretty good school, on paper, the practical one […]