eternaldarkness

When things are so sucky you want to end it all, and yet are unable to, due to laws or lack of good, legal methods.

I am living a tortured existence.

I wish to have never been born, to have never existed, to have never had to live through years and decades of pain and agony and suffering. Yet, here I am- on this planet called Earth, with a bunch of twisted beings called “humans.”

But not all humans are bad you say. Not all, but there’s more than enough to make this world a shitty place. There is no […]

I’m sitting in my room, hungry. And stores are closed. It’s the year two thousand eighteen.

Where’s my darn cooking robot to cook me food?? This technology was promised to me by cartoons from decades ago, dargoneit!! Have we not progressed that much in over two thousand years that robots can cook for us yet? Nope, seems not.

All we’ve got is a slooww roomba who only vacuums when there’s already nothing on the floor… Heck, might as well replace us with robots. Our human bodies are too clunky and too fragile…and parts cannot be easily replaced. […]

A new and better year, or a new year with the same old problems we’ve been dealing with?

Is there ANYTHING good that’s coming in 2018? I pose that as a serious question. I honestly can’t think of anything.

I mean, really?

– The economy is crap. They’re trying to cut healthcare, and practically everything the poor and middle class has. They’ve already pushed through the ‘fuck-you-poor-people tax plan.’ Also the ‘fuck-you-middle-class’ plan. Anyone making under 75k just deserves to get screwed over, cuz well, it’s your fault you make too little and therefore are unimportant like the little peons you are, so who gives af about you?
– Every day there’s more news about new and better ways politicians, giant corporations and the rich fuckers are screwing us over.
– Net neutrality is dead. Companies can fuck with your internet, […]

All species become extinct given enough time. But with us silly humans, we’d probably destroy ourselves way before nature/evolution ends us. How do you think the human species will end?

-WWIII / Nukes
-Global warming / Pollution / Natural Disasters arising from us destroying our environment
-We will create AI that will eventually take over and kill us all (like iRobot-ish)
-A more advanced species will arise and enslave / kill us
-[insert your thoughts of human demise]

would you still be where you are now? Would you still be depressed?

Justice as in- those who do wrong get punished. And those who are good get rewarded.

-Those who do bad things like rape/murder/bankrupt the economy get put in jail and taken out of power.
-Those who cheat or lie do no get to climb the ladder and get ahead in life.
-Those who work hard and are smart get rewarded in life.
-Those who are innocent are freed and have their name cleared.
-Those who are in abusive families get removed and taken to a better place.

-There is no money […]

– Suicide is the 10th leading cause of death in the US
– For every 1 successful suicide, there’s 25 unsuccessful attempts
– The rate of suicide is highest in middle age*
– In 2015, the highest suicide rate (19.6) was among adults between 45 and 64 years of age. The second highest rate (19.4) occurred in those 85 years or older.
– Younger groups have had consistently lower suicide rates than middle-aged and older adults. In 2015, adolescents and young adults aged 15 to 24 had a suicide rate of 12.5.
– There is a common perception that suicide rates are highest among the […]

Is it even possible? Maybe only slightly depressed people can find love, but the severely depressed are unlikely to find love or a partner.

If the divorce rate among the general population is listed around 40%-50%, and that’s the gen pop, where only 1 out of 2 find love (or something like it), what’s the rate for us depressive sacks of potatoes? 20% chance?

Do you personally know any severely depressed people who have found love? Or a good partner? Or manage to finally have a good life and live happily ever after? I feel like the super depressed are hopeless. While […]

If you could rate your life (happiness, sadness, love, pain, success, failure, friendships, relationships, money, health, career, emotions etc) of everything from a scale of 1-10, with 1 being in absolute hell, pain, abuse, etc, and with 10 being sheer bliss, everything is wonderful, how would you rate your life? Your past, present, and what you see for your future (in numerical form).

Ex:
-you had an a shit life growing up, so you think a “2” for past
-you are more or less neutral (managing life- not great, not bad), so a “5” for current
-you believe the future will more or less be […]

I was actually having a good day, that is until I had to contact customer service. I went on chat, the 1st guy transferred me to another guy, that other guy transferred me to another guy, who then transferred me to another guy. And that guy transferred me to another guy. Yes, I got transferred a total of 5x. Guy #6 didn’t seem to understand what the problem was, even though it’s clearly stated in the chat history. Order # is clearly on chat. Makes me repeat everything even though it’s all in the chat log, and supposedly […]

-You are not suicidal enough, get the heck off this site!
-You are too suicidal, get the heck off this site!
-You are not in enough pain. You don’t belong here on SP. Get off this site!
-You are in too much pain, go check into the hospital, get some drugs, and get the heck off this site!
-You are too happy and positive, and write too many annoying positive things, attack!
-You complain too much about your family who have no obligation to take care of you, get the heck off this site! Attack!
-You write a post about how people […]

This goes out to several trolls here on SP:

1. Why go on a suicide website and attack fellow SPers? Because you can only punch down and not up? Because you feel crappy about your life and attacking other people and making other people feel bad makes you feel better?

2. If you’re going to be a troll and a turd, at least stand behind your username instead of being a coward. There are several trolls here who routinely say hateful and hurtful things to others, then when others call them out, change their usernames like a little turd, then spew hate and attack […]

For some, it’s their pets.
For others, it’s their family or friends.
Or it’s not having a reliable painless method.
Or you’re too afraid of death / pain.

What is keeping you here?

I wonder if she was successful
Hope she isn’t in pain

So it looks like maybe POS neighbor 2 complained to the office about POS neighbor 1 about the smoking? I was originally gonna go to the office today to complain about the smoking today because I thought the office would be closed yesterday since it was thanksgiving. But it appears the office may have been open? I went to check my mail and apparently USPS delivers on thanksgiving? cuz I got mail in my box.

Anyhoo, I walked past the office as I got my mail and it didn’t have a note on the door saying it was closed (they […]

It is 5AM. I am up because I can’t sleep. I haven’t slept well for 9 years and it sucks like hell. Also, this is the only time I get any peace and quiet and fresh air. God I hate my shitty neighbors.

I just want some peace and clean air to breathe. Is that too much to ask?

Fuck I’m tired. I’m tired of life. Tired of dealing with shitty people and shitty neighbors. Tired of my shitty life. Tired of it all.