Does anyone else get nauseated at the idea of waking up around 6 or 7 am? I can’t handle a productive day lasting longer than 8 hours after that i have to rest. I just lose interest in everything so if I wake up at 6 my day has to be over by 2 and I need peace and quiet. I don’t know why this is. I also always want to nap. However I can never just go to bed early, early to me is like 1030. If I go to bed around 11 there’s no way I’m waking up at 6 though. An idea […]
Its february 26 2017 @ 4:08 pm. I am stuck.
I was doing well for three years everyone, to the old timers and to the noobs. hello. Im now back again checking this site every 20 minutes desperate for interaction. 2012 I was chaotic. i was a mess. I just wanted to die ive tried many times and after January 17th 2015 i realized im stuck here for a reason. I shouldve died that night and i didnt. That ended all suicide attempts for me. I have had many moments where my life has gotten so much better. Ever since I moved out and go […]
Yup…..all I wanna do is sleep and I really wish I can just never wake up….
When part of me feels like I keep coming on here every hour now for the last couple days because I might be getting bad again….SP has always been my safe haven
Curious as to who’s still here and who’s new. If youre still here from like 4 years back. Hiiiiii, I occasionally come back here to view my posts and remind myself of my shitty life when I think my life gets hard currently. Anyways it’s been a while SP to those who don’t know me, stay strong and I’m happy you’re here despite what you’re going through <3
Hey guys I haven’t been on here since like 2014 but not really active since 2012
Anyways update
Things are okay
Im 18
I graduate this year
Start college in the fall
My family is okay ish i wish it was better but oh well
Congrats to everyone who’s made it another year
May we still push forward
<3
Anyone need someone feel free to text me
(208)446-2439 I will reply generally quickly
^^texting app not real # to anyone who wants to blast me
okay, still i dont see the big fucking deal with me posting a pic on here when i see others doing it too. but il try to explain myself in much better detail so you can fuckin understand.
lets see, i was bullied all my life about how i look. i was always told to kill myself. told i was to fat to ugly. not good enough. i was verbally abused by my parents for years. telling me i couldnt eat. id just get fatter. this drove me insane. by 7th grade i stopped eating, my parents were pissed that i chose not so i […]
OMG, i joined this site 2 years ago, and at first everyone was so supportive and caring and month by month everyone is becoming judgmental the amount of judgment ive gotten in two days from people on here is insane. i post a picture of myself. i give out my number for people to contact me. WHY IS IT THAT BIG OF A DEAL!? i see others on here do it to. so why are we attacking me?!? what is so special about me that i dont have the right to post what others do. SORRY. im going to post what i damn well please […]
this is me. ive changed so much learned so much. been through so much. ive tried more suicide attempts than i can actually count. everyone goes through shit. everyone feels like theres nothing left in life. but thats okay. everyone is stronger than they think. and thats why ive been on this site for 2 years, come so close to death a few times. but maybe im still here for a reason? were still here for a reason. sadly, life’s complications push you down, […]
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that little girl
she was so naive
didn’t know what life was
so sheltered as a kid
she forced herself
to learn alone
she made friends
some lied
some cried
some died
some succeeded
some failed
she was alone
she had to reach again..
where is that little girl?
shes had some growing up to do
grown up decisions led to adult consequences
she just didn’t learn
she tried so hard
she caved
she lit the lighter and inhaled
knowing the damage
4 months later she lost herself
her baby passed
and she cried
where oh where is the naive little girl?
she lifted up the clouds […]
i cannot believe who i have become from the day i registered on here, to now. so much has changed. good and bad.
well, lemme point out big events that have happened to me since i last posted.
-when i was 15 i found out i was pregnant.
-the father to be was a DICK.
-he abused me
-unfortunately i lost the baby due to a miscarriage :c
-ive ran away for two days..stupidly came home
-ive been grounded since
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Need to talk? Il listen 🙂
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my dad caught on that im bi-sexual…he now hates me. he wants nothing to do with me cuz i defied his religion. and im now a gross psychopath with aids and shit haha ive never had sex but with a guy. and sure i make out with girls and ive had 2 gfs..but really who gives a fuck? thanks to religion my family has more problems.
so much stress and so alone. all i want to do is just never talk and never sleep and never eat and never drink i never want to do anything i never want to do what i need to i do what i want to and what i want to is what im bout to do. i dont know how to handle all this..so il let death take care of this. </3 my relationship with the world has expired…
yeah so shit i remember last yr shit ive been a member of this site for a year now. damn yeah so lets start there then..ive grown up so much and at the same time hit rock bottom.
last yr i was being bullied for being fat at the same time i was starving myself and working myself to the max to get thin. i did it. then one bite of food became an addiction over this past yr now i have start over with that.
last yr i was scared to leave the house. now this yr i leave and i tell haters to […]
^yupp…………………………………………. my world is completely empty now..cuz im that much of a fuck up.
u know me better than anyone else does. i have pushed you away today and im sorry. extremely sorry. sometimes i wish we werent far apart. sometimes i wish i could just say “i need a hug” and ud be right there holding out ur arms. sometimes i wish i could just walk down to your house to escape mine. sometimes i wish we could laugh about stuff no one else knows about. sometimes i wish i could walk up too you and you’d automatically know whats wrong. sometimes i wish i can just have you right next to me all the fucking time.
i […]
if u were to meet me in person without knowing my past. You would not think at all that im depressed..i always look so full of joy and happy loving life..im the one that looks like i have everything i need. i have a shit load of friends but only 2 i cant talk to about whats really going on.
when im actually left alone from my family my whole world glows. im in the best mood ever i have my music blasting texting friends attempting to make plans to hang out. im always trying to have a good time no matter what.
its my […]
as they sat on a hill
a sunset deep into their eyes
they stared and stared
into what they tried to find
all they need is happiness
all they need is love
all they need is motivation
as he sat there
and sat there
he thought of ways to die
as she sat there
and sat there
she too wanted to die
but as well tried to save his life
oh please dont go
oh please dont go
we will be forever
do you really mean that
of course i do
only you were meant for forever<3
as the words left the boys mouth
he realized how sorry he is