okay, still i dont see the big fucking deal with me posting a pic on here when i see others doing it too. but il try to explain myself in much better detail so you can fuckin understand.
lets see, i was bullied all my life about how i look. i was always told to kill myself. told i was to fat to ugly. not good enough. i was verbally abused by my parents for years. telling me i couldnt eat. id just get fatter. this drove me insane. by 7th grade i stopped eating, my parents were pissed that i chose not so i took away their power of harassment and forced me to eat instead, by 8th grade, i started starving again i worked out every day. i lost A LOT of weight quickly i started to somewhat like myself. but to anyone else it wasnt good enough which pushed me down. more thats when i found sp, and i was encouraged to post a picture of me. during the time i was my most suicidal. i stayed off of here for a long time. cause my life was starting to get better. im slowing accepting the way i look and i still dont like what i look like, but not as bad as how it used to be. everyone has insecurities. i posted a picture early showing people that i had overcome a good portion of my battles and im still here today. the title “everyone is strong” i thought went well with the post cause i believe everyone is stronger than they think and if you feel bad today you should always look ahead.
and again. NOT SEEKING ATTENTION, tbh im curious yes of what people think of me but do i care? not that much i bully myself now way more so if someone attacks me its not that bad. but point being. i posted a pic and yes i have self image issues. doesnt make looking for attention or compliments. i have self image issues within myself. if you think im ugly or beautiful thats just fine, the picture just goes with my life. not this website or anything others. it fit what i felt at the time and the post and message i meant to get across
so please stop saying its for attention. cause its truly not.
and for those saying i shouldnt post my # online. yeah i know. the number i use is a textin app. i wouldnt give out my actual number. but kay rant over.
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There’s no real big deal with the photo in particular. I’m glad you’re feeling better.
The problem with phone numbers is that a sophisticated intruder can trace them back to their source, usually whoever’s name and address is on the bill. This is pretty unlikely, I admit, but it does happen. Usually this kind of thing is for identity theft or financial frauds of various kinds. But it’s not much fun to have an ID thief take out student loans and credit cards in your name, or even get access to your bank account, which they can do if they succeed in collecting enough information about you. And there are such thieves, who follow someone around the Internet precisely to get that information, bit by bit, until they have what they need to impersonate their target in business transactions. I wouldn’t worry too much now.
But I’ve been burned before, or I wouldn’t tell you.
like i said, the number is on a texting app i use on my ipod i dont see how that can be traced
Little message of support here, if I may. I’m sorry things are the way they are. Been reading this site on and off for couple of years, and people do post their pics every now and then. Sometimes they barely get any comments, but sometimes a lot… especially when it’s an attractive person. And with that comes the anger toward that person if they’re deemed too pretty to have problems with their looks. No matter how much they’ve been abused about their appearance. It’s unfair, I think. And you don’t owe anyone a special explanation, although it’s good you posted one to give yourself some peace of mind.
Everyone has problems and they are valid even though it can feel someone else somehow had it easier thanks to being less ugly/beautiful. People who haven’t walked in your shoes don’t know shit, and they may make assumptions to feel better about themselves. I know I do, just try my best not let my own bitterness get someone else down.
Sorry to ramble, you already knew all this. It’s just that sometimes it’s good to get a reminder from someone else, maybe. You are lovely inside and out.
thanks (:
I’m disappointed in some of the users of this site. Lets make one thing clear. This is the suicide project. We’re all in the same boat here people. We’re a community of people on the brink of suicide. Many young people, lost people and lonely people.
Put all your issues aside and be supportive. By supportive I mean look at the posts that are made, take them on their individual merit and respond accordingly. Treat people like adults, we’re here together.
This is not the place for petty minded assumptions and judgement.
Do better.
Fakingit, before my mother passed away she would always tell me: “Don’t let the bastards grind you down”
So get that strength in yourself, the strength you rightly said we all have inside us and keep on using it. Anyone who projects their own insecurities back on you can and should be flatly ignored and seen for what they are.
thanks (: you are absolutely right
You’re welcome. Stay strong!
I agree, I don’t see a problem with you posting your pic, phone numbers, or Kik. If you want to post a pic that is your right. Its a good pic :). If you want to talk to people and help them, then I commend you. You are a great person for wanting to talk and listen to others and there is no reason for anyone to assault you for anything you post on here. Like arealist said, we all all in the same boat here. People judging us is the reason lots of us are here in the first place.
@Fakingit: I had what I thought to be an innocuous post removed earlier today, too. I suppose this site is moderated, and at moderators’ discretion what we share, even if legal otherwise, can be removed/censored. I’m very surprised, too, but then we know at least as well as any that the world isn’t fair. I empathize with your frustration. Best of luck to you.