Well I finally got to tell my ex wife how I really feel about her and man she got angry. I told her she had one last chance and she blew it so Im done with her forever. She threw in my face that I have abandon our son because he is going to jail soon for his second DUI/DWS and a bunch of other violations. I told her to take a look at him because she is the one who did that to him. She then tells me she will never let me control her and live by my rules. First off she is […]
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So I had to split from my ex wife with BD/BPD again after 4 months and I made the mistake of texting her yesterday and telling her I will unblock her in a year. Well I let her text me back and got a big pity party from her like usual. I know she was trying to suck me back in and she is good at it. I had to block her then again. I haven’t got past it yet and can’t stop thinking about her. All the pain came back on me also. She is very good at the intermittent reinforcement and I feel […]
I wrote this a few months ago to give to my ex wife. I spent years trying to keep her from killing herself because she is bipolar and had a bad childhood. Now she wonders about me although we split up a week ago again. We were almost partners a few times 20 years ago but we just became junkies instead lol. Good times…
How did I get here
Why can’t I heal
All thats left is pain
That I wish I didn’t feel
Where do I go
what will I find
who am I leaving
The love left behind
Everything is wrong
I can never get it right
The demands are overwhelming
Its time to say […]
I feel like Im in a prison and I can’t get out. Im broken and just want to disappear but I can’t even find the strength to do that right now. I have to get away from my ex ASAP or she will eventually come over here and who knows what phase her bipolar will be. It could be good, bad or ugly. Right now good would be the worst because she would be able to control and manipulate me into giving her yet another chance to hurt me. Bad would be her screaming and yelling at me and ugly would be her smashing my […]
Well I have been seeing my bipolar ex wife the last three months and she went off on me yesterday about me trying to control her and that all I want is for her to be my good little bltch. We were starting to fall in love again and the feelings started getting in the way and she blew a fuse. I got tired of her wanting everything her way and confronted her about it and she didn’t want no part of it. She thought it was ok to blow $5000 dollars the last 3 months and she wanted some more money and I said […]
I didn’t want to get up today so I took a Xanax and went back to bed. My ex-wife still wants to be in my life and she is the one who broke me and she can’t understand why I am so filled with pain. Maybe its because she is bipolar and probably more screwed up than me. Still here I am getting texts, calls and random visits from her and I let her. She was chronically suicidal for years and Me and our kids didn’t know from one day to the next whether she would live or die. Now she wonders that about me […]
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So here I am broken and despising my wonderful life and I have to face all the hell around me like my own Dad taking his own life 8 months ago and it wasn’t pretty. We all knew it was coming but most my family has no idea how I really feel inside except maybe my crazy ex. In her defense she is the most suicidal member of my family tree of all ironies. I spent years not knowing from one day to the next if she would succeed this time. She’s had 4 attempts that I know of. One she […]
Well I married a Bipolar many years ago. As you can imagine she has destroyed my will to live more than once. Years ago when she was on super manic and she looked like the daughter of the devil himself and I handed her a loaded and chambered gun. It was committing suicide. Unfortunately she handed the gun back and said she was going to destroy me far more painful and slowly than that. After about 20 years of cheating, breaking up and all the lies and deceit she divorced me and tried to get alimony because she thinks she deserved it. I didn’t beat […]