tired123

Does anyone else feel like they are stuck in a never ending swirling pool of darkness that is pulling you down? I mean at times my emotions make me dizzy. Thoughts racing, sadness, darkness and no way out. So many things are so wrong. I try to focus on the good. And I do have things I should be happy about. But the suction of my emotions wont let me up for air or to see the light of day.
This world is a horrible place. People are cruel. It seems everyone is out for only themselves. Finger pointing, acting like spoiled children, […]

And here we go again… I come here when im at the lowest of the low. When i REALLY want to take action. I read other posts and I sometimes leave one myself. It seems pretty pointless. But then again so does everything right now. Why do i bother. I must want to have hope or I dont think I would bother. It would be easier for me to go. But not easier for my family. UGH There seems to be no help for my feelings or thoughts. I have tried everything and so many different meds. They dont help. I have done counseling blah […]

Once again holding on by the skin of my teeth. Telling myself “it will pass.. it will pass”. OMG i want to end my life but at the same time praying that I wont. “It will pass”.
When I feel like this I literally HAVE to just hang on…… “it will pass”. I know this feeling will end after…. i dont know a few days or weeks. But I also know it will return….
Im sooooo tired of this, hence my name…
Oh dear God please make it stop.

Life is so messed up… Why do we / I have to be here. Why…… Can someone just give me ONE good reason that we are forced to be here.
Can someone just let me know if I leave here will it all be over? Or will I just come back or will the next place be any better?
Is there a next place?
I kind of hope not. To just vanish and just not be anymore, would be peaceful. If there is something after this world will it be worse?
These are the thoughts going through my head when I am wanting to finally […]

I have really lost faith in the world. People are just so hateful. I just dont want to be a part of it any more. Yet here I frickin sit. Only one option if I want out.
Why do people feel it is ok to be as cruel and hateful as they want to others.. But I dont want to hurt others by just ending it? WTH
I hate this place and I dont belong here. I have lost faith in all of… well… everything. Except my husband. Hurting him and my adult children would be my ONLY regret.
Damn it. I want out!!!!! I […]

I have been on this site off and on for 4 years…. I have had depression WAY longer than that. I want to scream HELP ME!!! But I don’t think anyone or anything can. I have tried medication, counseling and so on. My last counselor told me she doesn’t like treating people like me because they are too hard to help. Then she stopped taking my appointments. HA HA HA I have to laugh because if i dont I will just have to face the fact that I am beyond help.
I’m tired of being pathetic. I’m tired of living for other people. My brain […]

I see so many people on here that have the same thoughts and same feelings as i do. It’s funny i feel so completely alone, like nobody can understand my feelings of depression….. Nobody can understand the push in my mind to end my life. The hole i feel in my soul… Then I come on here and I see all of you having the same thoughts and feelings. I honestly dont know if it makes me feel better or if it makes me think things will never get better. I have had an exit plan for years but i dont do it for my […]

Have any of you just laid down and just decided not to move and hardly even breath? Just willing yourself to die right there?

If only it could have worked. If only it were possible. No stigma for your family to be stuck with that you killed yourself. No guilt for your loved ones to feel thinking if I only could have done something…… I laid there for about 30 min lifeless willing myself to leave my body. It was quiet almost peaceful. But eventually I had to realize it wouldn’t work lol

Crap i wish it was that easy.
What now

I have been gone for almost a year and I was just wondering if anybody was still around from back then?
I thought I was doing ok. But here I am…. I want to thank you all for posting your thoughts. I come here when I am at my lowest. This sight makes me realize that I am not alone. There are so many things I read here that I have thought or gone through myself. If im crazy then im not alone in that either lol Thank you!!!!!!!!! <3

Hi everyone I was gone for a few months. I started to take some medication that was suppose to fix me lol. It seemed to help for a while but as you can see here I am again. Doing a little better but still wishing i could just not be.. at all. Not even sure what to say……. Just Hi I guess. Nice to see some familiar names still here.

I have such Social anxiety that i feel like most people don’t like me (Why I care… I don’t know) But the feeling shuts me down from talking and interacting with my coworkers. And that just makes my fears and anxiety worse. I don’t know how long i can hang on day to day feeling so insecure. Spinning my wheels.
I spend most days stressed and feeling inadequate. I would love to quit my job and open a business of my own, but then the gripping fear stops me. If I don’t have a job I dont have the money to survive. If I […]

If you look at the news, all you see in this world is murder, rape, injustice and evil. I am so tired of all of this. I dont want to be a part of this disgusting place. I just dont understand. What the hell is wrong with people?

I started going to a counselor yesterday, my first session. I really liked the counselor…. Got me to see some things in a different way. So why is it I feel even worse today?

F it I wont bother anymore.