tupacorbiggie

Like I said in a previous thread my subconscious mind keeps me from killing myself.  Also killing yourself properly isn’t easy.  I think death by hanging is the way I’m gonna end up going but I’m scared.  I wish my life didn’t turn out this way.  This world sucks so much..

I feel like society has screwed me over.  I feel like my parents have screwed me over.  I feel like the medical establishment has screwed me over.  I feel like my government has screwed me over.  And no one seems to care.  I feel like killing myself in a very public and theatrical way to get my point across.  Everyone around me seems like a brain dead zombie.  What methods are available to me to complete the act?  Basically right now my best option is hanging.  And I feel that is a totally degrading and horrible way to die.  Shooting myself in the head seems […]

So I think it’s coming to a point where I really need to commit to a decision or I’ll be in hell for the next 60 years.  In my mind it’s either hang myself or buy a shotgun and shoot my head off.  Which would you personally choose and why?  I’m going to sleep now but I’ll read the answers tomorrow if I remember.  Hope you guys are doing better than I.

I don’t know if you guys remember me at all but I posted here fairly regularly several months ago then took a break.  My life still sucks though.  Since ******** is basically impossible to obtain I think it’s either a shotgun or hang myself.  I’d prefer a shotgun.  How are you guys doing?  I hope you’re doing better than me..  Suicidal thoughts have become so normal to me that they don’t even faze me anymore.  My thing is that I really don’t want to fail my attempt and end up a vegetable or end up in some institution against my will and lose whatever freedom […]

Whether on the way to get some helium or rope or a gun my mind always brings me back home to this miserable place.  I feel an urgent NEED to kill myself nonstop yet I can’t actually go get the tools to do it and actually carry out the act.  This life is literally torture and no one knows how suicidal I really am.  I gotta keep it secret otherwise they’ll throw me in the psych ward.  I should have killed myself years ago..

That is all.

I have nothing to live for and from I’ve heard IV heroin is the best high there is.  Also there’s a good chance you can OD easily.  Should I start up an IV heroin habit?  Perhaps if I get caught up with the wrong crowd someone would shoot me in the head..

FML..

Give me an easy way out of this torturous hellish existence or I feel the need to take out the mother fuckers who deny me this basic right.  Fucking idiots stopping me from killing myself peacefully deserve a long slow torturous death.  They won’t even allow me a gun.  Fuck everything about this existence.  Fuck you modern society.  FUCK YOU!!!!

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