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Family & Friends Effects

The effects of suicide on family and friends.

A Victim of My Own Mind

by beachyhead 8/11/2013

written by beachyhead

Hi all. I’m currently really low in the depressive cycle of bipolar. I hate the guilt I constantly feel for being this way. I never asked to be manifested on this planet anyway, so why is it such a taboo subject when telling people that I feel suicidal? People are hypocrites, saying they want to talk anytime but then when you explain that you are at peace with the idea of ceasing to exist on this physical plain, they turn and then the guilt starts.

I have a degree and I used to be in a band who were pretty decent, but all of that is […]

8/11/2013 4 comments

I’m Losing It

by rafaelgarcia733 8/11/2013

written by rafaelgarcia733

I’ve thought about taking my life so many times. I know some say it’s the cowards way out and that someone always has it worse than me – Truth is, I’m just so fed up. I’m exhausted. It’s like things are so bad I just don’t even feel like getting out of bed. I have great friends but I just have so many emotional issues that even hanging out with them seems like a chore.

I was sexually molested and abused continuously when I was young. I didn’t even know to tell or what to do. My mom found out because there was blood in my […]

8/11/2013 9 comments

Newfound Anorexia.

by Dez 8/10/2013

written by Dez

I never understood anorexia…I always thought ‘why would you ever give up food to be skinny when you already are?’.

Now I understand. I haven’t eaten a proper meal in days, and I still feel fat. Every time I look in the mirror I see it everywhere, I see nothing but fat. I feel so guilty when I eat and when I do I cut as if to punish myself.

I don’t know what lead me to see or feel this way. I simply woke up and couldn’t stand my reflection or the plate of food in front me. I’ve tried eating and talking it out with […]

8/10/2013 3 comments

So you want to end your life? Giving up? Lost? No one to talk to? I’m here.. No judgement. Read this first then talk to me! If it didn’t change your perspective, maybe i can.

by alexaawearsprada 8/10/2013

written by alexaawearsprada

DON’T YOU DARE

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=zJxgrSCZJ1s

Before you decide to take your life, imagine who will find you. Imagine them walking into a room, and seeing you just hanging there. Whether it be your little sister, little brother, mother, father, grandparents, a friend. Imagine what will happen when they find you. No, they will not say â€œFinally, theyâ€™re gone.â€ No, they will not say â€œIâ€™m happy they did that.â€ No, they will not say â€œI never loved them anyways.â€ They will die. Their hearts will […]

8/10/2013 10 comments

Shattered but NEVER broken!!!

by zmungro 8/9/2013

written by zmungro

The room stands still as a gust of cold air dries the tears left on my wet face. As I scroll down my computer screen I canâ€™t help but to keep reading the tear jerking stories of what people have written on â€œThe suicide Projectâ€. Â Today in the United States, suicide takes more lives than car accidents. Over the past couple of years the suicide rates as risen and it has affected more men than women.

My story beginsâ€¦..

Eyes swollen tear dots dried up and there goes the rumble of my unfed belly. I was witnessing the darkest moment of my life and I didnâ€™t even […]

8/9/2013 1 comment

What happened?

by Saint Thomas 8/9/2013

written by Saint Thomas

When i got back from my gospel camp i felt “new” in a way i felt good inside everything was turning around then the “shit hit the fan”. About a few weeks from being back my little sister went to Seattle for her round up band thing and my mother is a volunteer for this band. turns out my mom met some guy who is another volunteer with the round up band and now my parents are splitting up and that’s just one of the things that making me stress out hardcore. If any of you have read my other posts you would have noticed […]

8/9/2013 2 comments

I can’t.

by wut ever 8/9/2013

written by wut ever

I just want to cry. I can’t. I want to be depressed. I can’t. I want to fall apart. I can’t. I don’t miss it, at all. I just… I can’t anymore. My life is pretty steady. Easy going. I laugh, smile, I’m generally happy I just want to break. Fall down. I just can’t cry. I’m not allowed. I won’t let myself. I can’t go back. I’ve learned a lot, seen a lot, done a lot. I just want to be a mess. I know that won’t fix anything. I’ve been holding on. Everyone around me is happy, I’m happy. Why do I want […]

8/9/2013 2 comments

That’s Derogatory.

by sleeplessinSTL 8/9/2013

written by sleeplessinSTL

I know everyone is different. I get that. I get that some people find some things offensive, while others don’t.

But for god’s sake, don’t go around calling people dykes.

I was at a group therapy thing, and this guy comes up to me and goes “Hey, you’re that dyke right?”

What. The. Fuck.

And he’s done it to like two other people in our group!

Some people don’t find that offensive, but I do. It’s just fucking stupid to say that without knowing the person. To many people I know, that’s derogatory.

Oh, and to clarify, I’m bisexual.

Fuck you.

The reason I find it so bad, is that all my life, […]

8/9/2013 9 comments

Weakness and Negativity

by common35017 8/8/2013

written by common35017

I don’t like being weak. But damnit I must be. I cry every time I’m sad and I can never get past my mistakes. But I can see why. I’m honestly ruining my dad’s life. Me stressing him out is causing him to have seizures. My negativity is sucking the life out of my own father. Whenever I try to change I just end up doing something else wrong. My dad wants my mom to come back home and I’m too selfish to not have an attitude with my mother, for my dad’s sake. I so often contemplate suicide. I honestly think it would make […]

8/8/2013 1 comment

Imagine

by fanguyisonfire 8/8/2013

written by fanguyisonfire

Imagine this:
You come home from another shit day at school. The bullying, the classes youâ€™re failing, the loneliness. Youâ€™re sick of everything. You walk into the lounge room and slump onto your couch. Your little brother sits happily next to you, smiling at the cartoons on the TV. He turns around and asks how your day at school went. You say everything was â€˜fineâ€™. Blatant lie. He says thatâ€™s good and goes back to watching cartoons. You lean over to his cheek and give him a kiss. He turns to you again and says â€œWhat was that for?â€ You smile and say I love […]

8/8/2013 13 comments

I Was So Close….

by XxemofuckxXD 8/8/2013

written by XxemofuckxXD

It was during Christmas break last year, when I couldnt stand my life anymore. My stepparents left so i was locked in my room. when they leave my friend would come over. That day i thought she was practicing with her band. I then busted my door open, ran to my parents bedroom and grabbed my stepmothers sleeping pills. It was an entire bottle, 250 pills. I then i drew a bath. i got into the bathtup, took all of the pills and slit my wrist. If you slit your wrists and submerge them in water you’ll bleed out faster. FROM THIS POINT ON […]

8/8/2013 2 comments

Anger

by sleeplessinSTL 8/8/2013

written by sleeplessinSTL

I just wanna rant about nothing for a bit.

I think the worst part of me is my anger. I don’t like feeling sad, and I’m just not comfortable with it. I still feel depressed, but I never express my sadness unless I’m behind closed doors. Even then I don’t like crying. I feel like it damages my masculinity….even though I’m a girl… but that’s not the point.

Instead of showing sadness, I show one of the only emotions I am comfortable with; anger. I’ll punch walls, throw books (which usually only happens when it has a bad ending), and and kick things. I’ve even broken a […]

8/8/2013 5 comments

Supportive? I Think Not.

by Dez 8/7/2013

written by Dez

So I’ve been cutting for almost a year now and about two months in my parents saw my wrist. I couldn’t stop cutting after they found out so I started cutting in places they couldn’t see (chest and thighs). I guess I got carried away because a few weeks ago I wore a tank top that was a bit low and they saw the scars…

Instead of getting sad and being supportive like a normal parent, they got extremely angry. They began screaming at me, telling me what a screw up I was, how bad parents I made them seem. I didn’t really care because they […]

8/7/2013 7 comments

Understanding And Acceptance

by Dez 8/7/2013

written by Dez

Just a couple of days ago I realized I was asexual and since I’ve been quite happy.
I’ve always been disgusted by sex and was never really attracted to anyone and knowing what I am gives me a sense of contentment.
The only thing that’s bothering me is my friends and girlfriend dont seem to understand…
I still love my girlfriend, and I’ll be able to love other people, I just don’t want anything to do with sex.
I still want to get married and adopt children, but they don’t understand.
I’m also afraid that when I tell my parents they’ll treat treat me like […]

8/7/2013 9 comments

Memory

by -alone- 8/5/2013

written by -alone-

Dear, “Friend.”
It hurts.
You’re my friend, or at least I thought you were…
I’m not a toy that you can use.
I have feelings.
You are not here when I need you, you don’t care.
When I cry out for help, you act like you didn’t hear.
You call me a loner, but I’m trying to talk.
But you wont let me… You’re scared of me leaving.
I’m a loner.
I’m a weirdo.
I’m nothing.
I’m a *****.
Oh, It hurts.
Keep calling me names, It will only make me worse.
You say you’re kidding, just playing around.
But look closer at me what […]

8/5/2013 0 comment

H.O.P.E

by ConfuZed 8/5/2013

written by ConfuZed

I have been through a lot but mainly it’s been all in my head but I’m proud that I’m here still, alive and fighting! Each day is a struggle but there are moments in each day that I am thankful to have been their to experience it. Hope is that glimmer of light in the dark tunnel, that peace of mind that you get once in a while and most importantly “tomorrow”. I’ve cried myself to sleep most nights and I’ve even had no sleep once but through it all I was just happy to be alive. Pain is a good thing because it means […]

8/5/2013 5 comments

near the end

by PainNlife 8/5/2013

written by PainNlife

I’ve been up all night thinking….is today the day? Tomorrow? Tuesday? …seconds keep turning into minutes that keep turning into hours that keep turning into days that keep turning into weeks that keep turning into months that keep turning into years….Life keeps going….Its unforgiving…you miss the bus you miss the bus there is no catching it….I keep lingering and festering like an open wound exposed to germs … I hate that the sun rises signaling the end of yesterday and the beginning of today….I fucking hate that today is the future that seemed so promising 5 years ago…I turn 22 next month on the 5th […]

8/5/2013 7 comments

its me. (brief story)

by berriegrande 8/4/2013

written by berriegrande

Hey. I’m a 14 year old girl. I was suicidal last year, I was referred to CAMHS (Child and Adolescent Mental Health Services)

I didn’t go. When I was young, my mum used to hit me when I made her angry. I told my school and she got a warning.

My eldest sisters told them I was lying. COINCIDENTALLY the same social worker got involved last year about my “suicide note”.

No. I said, “Won’t death be the perfect escape” among other things. It was private. like a diary.Â SO MY FRIEND DECIDED TO RAID MY ROOM WHILST I WAS AT SCHOOL AND SHE FOUND IT. Anyway. no […]

8/4/2013 5 comments

My story…

by lotsoflove8080 8/4/2013

written by lotsoflove8080

I don’t know why but putting my story out there feels like it will help, so here I go. Read if you please.

I was born healthy, I have two older brothers. My mom worked all the time so I stayed home with my dad. My dad is bipolar. Though I only vaguely remember, I’m told I spent most of my childhood sitting in the dark in the living room because my dad’s paranoia made it impossible to leave. My dad had some alcohol abuse problems and he would abuse my mom too. I shared a crawlspace as a room with my older brother. We eventually […]

8/4/2013 5 comments

News

by sleeplessinSTL 8/4/2013

written by sleeplessinSTL

I wrote a while ago about my friend with cancer. I said that she was a little better. I guess that was a few months ago.

She died yesterday. I have officially lost two of my best friends. And I know it won’t mean much to most people in the world, she wasn’t likeÂ Talia Castellano. Not everyone loved her, even though she was the nicest, and sweetest person ever. We used to read The Fault in our Stars together. She used to make me listen to One Direction. She would come to my boxing matches. I absolutely loved her. Â I had hope though. They say that […]

8/4/2013 11 comments

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