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The effects of suicide on family and friends.

Im just breathing..

by RunawayHolly
written by RunawayHolly

I have no interest in anything anymore…I have no job..Im single for the first time since I was 17 and Im lost…My mother is making my life Hell…my “So called”, friends are making things so hard for me..there is only one person I thought I could trust and I considered him my best friend who I could talk to about stuff but he screwed me over time and time again so I have pushed him so far away…and he’s getting mad about it,trying to make me tell him how I feel…But I don’t want to..I don’t want to talk to anyone anymore…I don’t feel..I just […]

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Searching for the unknown

by sadhappy
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This is my first online post but definitely not the first time I’ve wrote about the topic. This all started 7 years ago. i was an angry, sad, depressed teenager and i had my reasons why i felt like I did. i sought out professional help and it was anything but helpful. The reasons why i was upset are in the past… i think. i hurt myself and got to a very scary point in my life to the point where i no longer felt in control of my actions. Now i have made some great accomplishments in my life through hard work and […]

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Why bother…

by loreildarksky
written by loreildarksky

I can’t do it. I can’t.

I’m in so much pain, all the time… not physically. Emotionally and mentally.

I haven’t been on this site in a while… Not really, since (he)… left. God… I wish I’d gone with him. So much. Then I wouldn’t be forced to endure. I hate enduring. It feels like waiting, waiting for even more terrible shit to happen. But I have too many people I would hurt if I went, hurt like I was hurt when (he) left forever, to a place where I could never speak with him again.

I miss him… I really do. He was my lifeline. I […]

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I am so lost, I’m scared I can’t be found

by beautifully__broken
written by beautifully__broken

i don’t know who i am anymore. i don’t know where i’m going, i dont think i want to go anywhere. i want everything to end. now. i’ve come to the dead end, the end of no return. i no longer know what it’s like to be happy. happy- what is that word? what does that even mean? i wish i could wake up in the morning and love my life and love everything around me. but i dont. i wake up hating the person i am in the mirror, i hate the sun, and the flowers, and the trees. i hate the day time. […]

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Chance.

by Running-In-Circles
written by Running-In-Circles

You fucking hurt me,

cant you see every time you made me bleed?

I cry,

I lie,

I say Im okay,

But Im really not.

My dreams make you say the words I wanna hear,

I want you near,

I wanna hear you voice,

I wanna dance with the reaper all night.

Lets make some noise,

and lets make up for all the fights.

All the drunk texts,

and hurtful things I said,

Im sorry,

and that I ended all the love […]

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Cutting.

by Running-In-Circles
written by Running-In-Circles

Cutting. A weakness like drugs that takes you over. It relieves pain, and stress. But in the end you get more stress then ever.   I heard some do it for the joy of the pain, or just to feel something. Why would you want to feel something? Why would you want to feel pain out of all the emotions in the world? Isn’t love something you would want to enjoy? Or happiness? Others do it out of pity for their life. They want to know somebody is still here for them. I can’t blame them for this. Then their are the attention-hogs. The one’s […]

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Just waiting

by Nothin2Live4
written by Nothin2Live4

Longing to feel your lips kiss me goodbye
Buring with desire to feel you by my side
Please baby just hold me tight

Don’t let me go
Not till I’m gone
I never wanted to die alone

But here I lie with  you on my mind
Lying here just waiting to die
Needing you by my side

I guess this is goodbye
Farewell, so long
Just know, I’ll never let you go

 

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sex and how to get over it.

by rob14
written by rob14

i can’t get over the fact that my girlfriend now , lost her virginity to my arch enemy… it should be a whatever thing , like oh you can’t expect a girl to be a virgin kinda thing. But my not being able to get over it comes from the reason that she lost it to someone she chose over me . It’s like you hate someone and then your now girlfriend has you and him on the line and she chooses to date him instead.2 months pass and you already feel like secound best but now that guy you hate has something over you […]

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Lost without a sound

by katiebear12
written by katiebear12

I have lost so much in my lifetime… sometimes it seems crazy how much one person can lose. i have lost the small relationships i had with my dad and my sister who i haven’t talked to in three years. i have lost a mother that can do everything i need her to do for me… she can only do so much now. i have lost my happiness and motivation. i have lost friends and so many other people i have cared about. i lost my trust and care about my physical well being. i have lost my will to eat… but most of all […]

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You’d think I would feel guilty

by BehindtheSmile
written by BehindtheSmile

Last night,  my uncle had my entire family to his house. My aunts, uncles, cousins, the whole crowd.

At first, I looked at them and felt bad. Would my death hurt them? How could I do that? In a few months, they would be at my funeral. Everyone was happy, and I would ruin it.

But as the night progressed, I began to feel glad I was leaving. I knew that it would still make them sad, but it really was for the best. I didn’t fit in. Everyone around talked of simple, insignificant things. They were all wrapped up in their work, birthdays, money, sports. None […]

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Is a little time so much to ask?

by justonemore
written by justonemore

My mum used to be my best friend. While I was attending high school, we used to commute together, so we grew really close, spending two hours in the car together every day. When we stopped commuting, it wasn’t as easy, but we still spent a lot of time together. I felt like I could tell her anything. My brother is verbally abusive to me, and she has always been there to help me handle him.

Ever since she started dating, though, it’s like I’ve fallen off the face of the planet. She works during the week and will go to his place after an hour […]

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Forever and Always?

by Running-In-Circles
written by Running-In-Circles

Sometimes I wish could die.

Always Hiding,

Like nobody understands me.

Like nobody can see.

 Dreaming is usually my happiest moments.

Maybe Im to blunt,

Maybe im to strange,

Maybe im insane but,

 I wanna be happy. Is that too hard to ask?

Always chosen last,

Nobody cares enough to ask in the first place.

He even hates, 

I love him, he isnt happy with me I feel like. 

He is with me so I dont die,

and I try to hide,

Do you care at all, […]

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Back In That Place

by Breathe
written by Breathe

Taking pills, any kind, just seems to fix evverything. Parents screaming at you, take 2. Work or school overload, another two. Max dose it up just enough to stay functional. Appetite suppressants, the great side effect of pills. Skinnier and skinner I imagine….. I’d be beautiful only if I were skinnier. He says I’m perfect but he doesn’t have to stare at my awful body, the ripples of fat every minute of everyday. I’ve gotten through this before, but now im in a relationship, i dont know how much of my bullshit he can handle. I’m doubting him and not letting my walls down. I […]

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cant wait

by passionfruit3
written by passionfruit3

i have been doing good in the last three weeks.Now i really dont know what to do.My voices have suddenly come back with a vengance.They were really quiet and i was fine.Hearing them a little is normal.But lately there pretty loud and constant.I wont call anyone theyll just bring the cops.I dont hate cops unless i have too deal with them so i try to stay away.My insanity is increasing day by day. I will possibly end up in the hospital for an attempt.I dont know what else to do two of my therapist are sick one i dont see my main therapist till monday.And […]

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I hate myself

by rawr4
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Everyone says love yourself but I can’t. I hate myself. I look in the mirror and I see ugly and horrible. I made a lot of mistakes in my life, but that one night went too far. I lost the person I really like and my friend you talked me into it but when i did it you got mad you knew i was drugged . I hate myself. It shouldn’t have happened. But it did. Now i look in the mirror and I see skin and bones and slashes through out my body. I hate myself. Everyone is right, I shouldn’t be here. I’m […]

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i could change the world by ending my life.

by hopeless.
written by hopeless.

Nobody in my town or my age seem to understand the idea that their actions effect other people as well. It has been a year and a half since I attempted suicide, yet nothing has gotten better. My final year in high school was complete hell. I was tormented by a group of girls who used to be my best friends. Day after day they told me how no one likes me or wants me around. They repeatedly shouted names down the hallway at me or spread rumors about me being pregnant. This summer they have peanut-buttered/egged/balognied my car twice. Then, try countless times to […]

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I was happy. I was fine with life. Couldn’t you have let me stay that way? For just a while?

by Anonymous13
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Happiness. It was in my reach, merely a week ago. I used to dislike living. I used to complain and moan about things of no significance. I was unhappy, but without a real reason to be. And I knew that. I knew that my unhappiness was uncalled for and most of all: selfish. There were people out there going through real pain, people who had actual reasons to feel this way. So I pulled it together and started focusing on all the positive things in life. My friends, my somewhat dysfunctional family whom I still loved and cared for, my somewhat normal life. I started […]

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