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Family & Friends Effects

The effects of suicide on family and friends.

WHAT DO I SAY NOW? – PART I

by serenityseeker 11/14/2015

written by serenityseeker

What Do I Say Now? PART I

I don’t really know how to go about saying what I need to say to all of the people that I need to say something to. Honestly, how do you say that your sorry for killing yourself to all of those that you love and care about; when it was a truly selfish and self-centered thing to do, but it really was what you wanted at that moment and that you are still somewhat bitter about the fact that it was fucked with and you failed at because someone decided they knew what was in your best interest better […]

11/14/2015 1 comment

I think I’m going to do it

by tandb 11/14/2015

written by tandb

There are only a handful of things keeping me from doing it, and they’re all people. My wife, whom I don’t want to leave to pick up my shit. My little brother, who will be so confused. My parents, who will be ravaged. My employees, who will not understand.

But the reasons not to are starting to be outweighed by the feeling that I need to do it.

I feel like the moments where I think about doing it are the only moments of clarity in my life and that everything else is fake.

I think that the fact that I don’t want to do it, but feel […]

11/14/2015 6 comments

Fuck high school

by Audreyparker 11/13/2015

written by Audreyparker

I really wanna go back to the psych unit because I fucking hate being in the real world because people expect things of me and when im there no one expects anything but for me to be sad and thats really all i can do and i hate people in my school because they dont understand how sensitive i am and i really wanna kill myself just to prove them a fucking point and no one understands me and just kinda laughs at the weird things i do when im trying to be serious and im just done being the only person in the whole […]

11/13/2015 8 comments

Protected: How Evil I am ?

by daitya1989 11/12/2015

written by daitya1989

There is no excerpt because this is a protected post.

11/12/2015 7 comments

Forever and Always -Parachute

by pitbulllvr 11/12/2015

written by pitbulllvr

Leslie was sitting at the dinner table waiting for her fiancé, Liam, to get home from work. Leslie works during the night at the Reykjavik Airport. She waited an hour or so, just sitting. Just waiting for him to get home. She was sure that if he was going to be late he would’ve called her. She decides she will wait a little bit longer, hoping to see his car pull up the driveway. She calls his work and sits at the dinner table while the phone rings. Each ring sounds like forever to her. Finally, Christian, Liam’s best friend, picks up. He recognizes Leslie’s […]

11/12/2015 1 comment

A Mothers Love

by crockpot14 11/11/2015

written by crockpot14

Before I found The SP page, I would write all my thoughts down in my “journal”. I use the term lightly because really it was a death diary. I wrote all my reasons I cut that day or why I was feeling really down that day and since I found this website, I haven’t been writing in it. So I was going through my journal today and I read this one message I wrote a few months back and I would like to post it on here. So here it goes.

“It is summer time and my mom wanted to take a family vacation. So on […]

11/11/2015 21 comments

Protected: :-) Thanks :-)

by daitya1989 11/10/2015

written by daitya1989

There is no excerpt because this is a protected post.

11/10/2015 6 comments

I am lost

by dontakeforever 11/9/2015

written by dontakeforever

My husband of four year hates me..

He has lost all of his patient.. He’s very short and snappy with his words..

Little things about me that used to not bother him make him go off

We can never have non-casual conversations anymore..

He raises his voice more often than ever..

His kiss on a cheek or him saying love you is just a daily routine but not out of his heart..

Now he only cuddles, hugs, puts his arm around me, kisses, or is sweet when he wants sex…

I feel like being stuck at a bottom of a pool but don’t know how to swim…

I know our marriage is ending, […]

11/9/2015 15 comments

My “Bestfriend”

by crockpot14 11/8/2015

written by crockpot14

Everyone has that person who they can tell anything to and they know they won’t judge, or make fun of them for it. I have always considered this guy to be my best friend. We have known each other since fifth grade, and when we met we just clicked. We are now both juniors, I still consider him to be my bestfriend but i know he has drifted to other people, and i get we both have other friends, but he sort of just dropped me. But with him, its that he won’t answer me for a few days and won”t talk to me in […]

11/8/2015 5 comments

I wanted to share my story…

by ClaudiaValencia 11/8/2015

written by ClaudiaValencia

I am really nervous about sharing my story as I dont want to say anything that will bother or upset anyone 🙁 but i will try my best to express myself in a way in which no one will be upset by.

I was born in Venezuela and i moved to the united states when i was 3, iam 17 and almost 18 now. (forgive me for not mentioning where in the USA i live)

I am really grateful to this country because it has given me great opportunity where as in Venezuela I would most likely not amount to much (not that i will ever amount […]

11/8/2015 9 comments

My Thoughts

by mystory0496 11/6/2015

written by mystory0496

I remember feeling from a very early age like I didn’t belong anywhere. I always felt like the black sheep in my family and I was always pretty shy so making friends wasn’t really a strong suit.

I started getting depressed when I was about 12 years old. I had a teacher who I usually went to when I was having a bad day because I knew no one else would listen. I was having trouble fitting in when I was in middle school. I tried to fit in with all different groups of people but I never really clicked anywhere. In […]

11/6/2015 1 comment

have i fucked up?

by death bunny 11/2/2015

written by death bunny

my girlfriend and i decided a while ago to have a kid and eventually got pregnant. everything was fine until lately, when she got to the eighth month. she is now starting the ninth. see, both me and her suffer from mental illnesses, and in her case, she felt as if the embryo was protecting her, and so her illness disappeared, even if for a while. knowing she is gonna deliver soon, her illness is back. it was enough when both of us dealt with our difficulties before, but with a baby on our hands, that seems almost impossible. at least, that’s how things look […]

11/2/2015 4 comments

It’s for the best I promise you

by wannabedeadcat05 11/1/2015

written by wannabedeadcat05

I have made a decision, one that I hope I won’t be hated for because ill be doing that already. I’m going to give my daughter up for adoption, I’m going to be homeless soon, I still can’t get government assistance much less housing (it’s very hard to come by) and the cold weather is getting worse. My daughter can’t live like this anymore, my job as a cashier barely does anything for us I wish I could work full time but it’s only me who takes care of my baby. Her father loves her but is a deadbeat. He says he’s focusing more on […]

11/1/2015 4 comments

I Want Them To Come Back

by GerbzBaby 10/31/2015

written by GerbzBaby

I miss all of the old friends I have lost. They left me and I left them. I miss all the good memories I had with each of them. Now I’m stuck at home alone on Halloween with no energy and no friends who want to invite me to hang out with them, I have a feeling this years holidays are going to suck.

10/31/2015 4 comments

Helpless Disaster

by InhalingAnxiety 10/30/2015

written by InhalingAnxiety

This is just going to be a bunch of nonsensical rambling, but I’m just so tired of people. I’m drained, too, thus no proofreading to see if I even made sense.

Sorry for the waste of time.

Two of my friends have been inseparable since I introduced them. They became best friends. One is a lesbian, one is an inactive bisexual (she likes women, but has a child and wants a man to replace his shithead father, thus being inactive in the lady-looking-for-lady party.) I’m going to refer to them as lesbian and bisexual, hope I don’t offend anyone.

10/30/2015 3 comments

Poem for today

by kzn123 10/28/2015

written by kzn123

I’m new to here, so hello… I’ve been feeling down for a while now and alots been going on… I’m sure a lot of you can relate to this poem …

You make me feel so worthless
So depressed and so alone
You make me feel like crying
And cutting deep into the bone

You look at me in solitude
With your evil looking glare
Make me feel so worthless
Like I’m living in despair

I want you to understand
To have some gratitude in there
To feel the emptiness I feel
And the loneliness in the bed we share

Why am I here
What have I done
Will […]

10/28/2015 9 comments

Stressed

by PandaMonkey0207 10/21/2015

written by PandaMonkey0207

When my family tells me to stand up for myself and when I do they tell me that I’m not choosing the right path. I swear these people can’t make up their mind. It’s my life and my choices. I am the one who has to live with them. I’m 18 years old and in college for heaven sakes -_- . I can make my own choices and do what the hell I feel like. Jesus. I’m so ready to get out of this fucking house. They think I won’t leave. Smh. The stress I’m in I’ll pack my shit and leave tonight..
I don’t […]

10/21/2015 1 comment

Illness of Stress and Parents. Help Would Be Greatly Appricated

by GerbzBaby 10/21/2015

written by GerbzBaby

Stress has been making me feel ill lately. My chest feels tight, I’m more tiered than usual, my eating habits have declined, I’m more confined in my room, and my temper had been flaring on and off. The only things I can think about to get away from this is running away, or just ending it. But those are things I don’t want to do. But this “family vacation” we are taking in December is making me stressed to the point of feeling sick. Why you ask? Here is why-

One: The Plane Ride

Two: The Other Family

The other family is an ‘old family friend’ of ours. […]

10/21/2015 2 comments

Depressed

by Navartiti 10/21/2015

written by Navartiti

I am so depressed. I don’t know what to do, I don’t want my sister to die, she has terminal cancer. and she can’t be treated where I live ( Jordan ) And I dont have the money to send her outside for treatment. I tried asking people, the government, i made a campaign to raise money I tried everything nobody want’s to help me, I am so depressed I can’t even go to work. I live in the UAE and work here, what kills me is that I am not there with her and she is in so much pain. she is so depressed […]

10/21/2015 9 comments

It’s been a year

by Bloodi 10/20/2015

written by Bloodi

It’s been a year and I was better. I’m happy with the person I’m with.. Sooo happy… But my “mom” has now physically abused me multiple times. She is like an infected wound that just won’t heal, and won’t get better, only worse. I feel like smoking weed and drinking till I pass out, and I’ve never smoked, drunk, anything… Just goes to show that just because you’re blood related doesn’t mean you have to call them family…. F*ck me…

10/20/2015 5 comments

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