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Family & Friends Effects

The effects of suicide on family and friends.

Can’t even kill myself

by Engeltje 4/19/2014

written by Engeltje

Everybody thinks I’m okay, but in fact, I feel really worse and I hide it, because I want my parents to believe it’s going better. Actually, I feel more suicidal then before right now, really want to life this stupid f*cking life and world. But actualy I don’t think I have enough energy right now to kill myself, and to prepare my suicide, which makes me even feel worse. I hate it!! I just can’t even kill myself, because it’s going that worse, who would ever thought that?!

4/19/2014 7 comments

by wintersnow92 4/19/2014

written by wintersnow92

ill never be able to accept love , i just don’t see how it is possible.I have done so much wrong. He shows me more love than anyone in my entire life ever has and yet all i can think about is jumping off that cliff or slicing my wrists and watching all the pain end, but i know that no matter how much i wish for that I could never be that selfish…..never! Â I have more than so many people in this world so please tell me why i wish of this every night, tell me why that when Someone I finally actually likes […]

4/19/2014 2 comments

i woke up into a nightmare

by and__alone 4/19/2014

written by and__alone

i didn’t want to wake up. i was having a much better time asleep. and that’s really sad. it was almost like a reverse nightmare, like when you wake up from a nightmare you’re so relieved. i woke up into a nightmare.

4/19/2014 2 comments

Thoughts

by ted.e.m. 4/18/2014

written by ted.e.m.

I wouldn’t say I’ve had a terrible life. In fact, I would actually say I’m very blessed in many ways. Contrary to many of the posts I’ve read on this site, I grew up with a loving family, good friends, and a easy life. But I guess I wouldn’t be writing on this site if there wasn’t a problem…and that problem just happens to be me.

Now don’t get me wrong. This isn’t a cry for help or some pathetic attempt to feel sorry for myself by throwing a pity party. It isn’t a rant on how terrible my life is or the injustices I’ve experienced […]

4/18/2014 1 comment

Coming out in RELIGION

by klasky csupo 4/18/2014

written by klasky csupo

Okay so I’m a newly converted atheist at my catholic high school. Some people know and some people don’t. the problem is whenever someone I know/have a high level of respect for walks up to me and ask I deny it… Why why can’t I be myself it makes me feel awful because quite frankly I can’t even tell my folks who are adventists. it so hard. Im totally accepting towards their faith seen as I’ve been Christian for 16 years but no one is respecting of what I believe in sigh. I hate lying about who I am for the sake of some uptight […]

4/18/2014 4 comments

I hate this boring, bored reality / real life / real world, I hate this life, this LIMITED world, and I hate people/humans ..!!

by niki 4/17/2014

written by niki

Movies, books, video games, novels, comics, anime/manga, etc etc, basically human’s IMAGINATIONS is a hundred times FAR much more interesting than this very LIMITING reality / real-world / real-life here in this world!

and what’s even worse is that most (about 90%) of humans / people I meet & know everyday are mostly stupid, shallow, superficial, mundane/boring, money and profits and image driven only, ignorant,.. mostly human beings especially today these days are much more bad & hopeless ..!!
(there are -thankfully/luckily?- only FEW humans/people that I like, eg: the very creative/imaginative & ‘other-worldly’ artists who created/made all those awesome fantasy, sci-fi stories, novels, books, […]

4/17/2014 7 comments

3 years later

by Marissa Kresge 4/17/2014

written by Marissa Kresge

It’s been 3 years since i last made a post on here about my depression. Let’s just say I’m the happiest I’ve really ever been. I coped with my depression by exercising and being healthy, doing so I lost 20 pounds in the process which I am happy about. When year 10 of school started I decided I would try something risky and I did. I tried out for the foreign exchange program to go overseas. With the risky decision I succeeded and am now going to Germany in July. And this is all because I found a way to cope with my depression and […]

4/17/2014 2 comments

I just want to.

by hellblau 4/17/2014

written by hellblau

Visions I’ve been dreaming are coming down, they’re changing my future.Â Visions I had buried underground returning to abuse me. I’m getting worse, I can’t sleep. I thought that the feeling was gone, but it’s getting stronger. And I miss him, I miss him so much. I’m missing him like never before. But still, can’t be with him, can’t tell him, can’t dream about it. It hurts, like hell. I just want to be okay. I just, want to.

4/17/2014 0 comment

A Shattered Heart

by ldbproject 4/16/2014

written by ldbproject

If you are reading this, please listen with an open heart.

My best friend committed suicide on March 14th. She had an account on this website that i just came across and she had posted asking about ways she could do it, and my already shattered heart broke a thousand times more as i read the comments telling her how. As much as apart of me wants to respond with so much anger to anyone who encouraged her in how to end her life, a bigger part of me also breaks for all the others who were in her same numb state. She had talked with […]

4/16/2014 10 comments

The reason we self-harm, is because we are not able to handle changes

by Engeltje 4/14/2014

written by Engeltje

~ The reason we self-harm, is because we are not able to handle changes ~

This is a quote I wrote a few days ago. I was really thinking about a lot of things, when I came to the point I started to realize this. I’ll explain the quote. People self-harm for certain reasons, for example because they are depressed, sad, lonely or mad (but there are many more reasons). But where does this come from? It comes from changes we’re not able to deal with. Like you’re living your life, and you’re happy with that. But at a certain moment your house burns down, that […]

4/14/2014 10 comments

To all the “veteran” members of the SP community.

by RogueShadow1281 4/14/2014

written by RogueShadow1281

I’m sorry about all the things I did in my “youth”. I made the stupid decision to push you away back when SP chat was so popular. I made a stupid comment saying I committed a grotesque thing that meant I would get banned from that community and sort of shunned. It was for the better, although only because I was on the chat for far too long. I bet it’s either dead now or only 2 or three people left on there.

I can’t think of all the names of my old friends of whom I miss dearly, but yet somewhere in my mind your […]

4/14/2014 23 comments

Heartache|Heartbreak – Am I crazy in love?

by shadow2210 4/14/2014

written by shadow2210

I cannot fathom the thought of love.

There was a moment 2 years ago where I experienced intimate love for the very first time. At that point in time, I felt like I was on top of the world – but, when after almost 7 years, you’re world decides it wants to move on, you are left broken and cold – it all changed.

Although my love towards this individual has only changed from intimate to platonic, it becomes a ride of anxiety-fear-hope-annoyance, because it has been 2 years since we’ve seen each other; 6 months since we’ve emailed each other; I am waiting to hear from […]

4/14/2014 2 comments

“Mom”

by ARiAOfTheMelancholy 4/12/2014

written by ARiAOfTheMelancholy

I feel worthless enough already. My very first day of school, I felt ignored and lonely. This then created an alternate me. One who doesn’t think about herself but others, to feel and be included. They never asked how I was so I knew to keep it in, all these feelings of loneliness and fear. Fear of being wrong, fear of being judged. One wrong step and I crash to the dust. I failed her expectations, so I beat myself down, she did too. As a high achieving person like herself, she expected highly of me. So every night from then on, screams and shouts […]

4/12/2014 0 comment

I don’t know..?

by iwontgiveyoumyname 4/12/2014

written by iwontgiveyoumyname

I don’t know if anyone reads this, I hope so.

I don’t know what I’m feeling, I’m empty. I’ve had a depression, It’s been gone, but now I think it’s coming back. Last time I had it was actually around christmas, I wouldn’t live anymore. It’s wierd you know, being happy about life,but then some things happen and boom, you just want to die. In January I told my teacher, that I’ve been sad in a long time, and that I wouldn’t live anymore, that I didn’t care about anything or anyone. Luckily I have this really good friend, she told me to talk with someone, […]

4/12/2014 4 comments

Now or never

by deadflesh_has_noregrets 4/12/2014

written by deadflesh_has_noregrets

Cold blue steel
Pressed to my temple
I tremble some
this trigger has always been light

No tears will spill
for me, not for me
only anger for the mess
I will leave

A half-century of life
like trash in the wind
leaves me so angry

– that my old man didn’t jack off in the sink

4/12/2014 0 comment

am I still here?

by Natalie 4/11/2014

written by Natalie

I had friends who I loved with all my heart. I moved in with 2 of them and my boyfriend. We were our own little family. And now. My boyfriend and one of my friends moved away. I try to keep in touch with my friend who still lives in the same town as me but she never gets back to me. Saying she’s working and then I see snapchats of her with other people.

Am I really horrible that this girl that I considered my family for so long would flake out on me?

I have no friends in my home town and I can’t moved […]

4/11/2014 1 comment

Boyfriend

by horsegal28 4/10/2014

written by horsegal28

I don’t know what to do. I love my boyfriend so much, and I’ve told him so many times that I never want to hurt him, but that I know I will, and he just stays. I keep giving him chances to get out of the relationship, but he keeps saying that he’s staying. I’m still planning on killing myself, I haven’t picked a new date yet though. I don’t know what to do to make it hurt him less though. I feel bad because I know it’s going to be really hard on him, but I just can’t stay here much longer. I’ve waited […]

4/10/2014 5 comments

Should I break up with her before I leave?

by amity 4/10/2014

written by amity

I decided to off myself some time ago, but in the middle of getting everything arranged (will, notes to people left behind, etc.), I rekindled a love with a wonderful girl I met my freshman year of college (5 years ago at this point). Â I was so fascinated and enthralled with her that I thought, maybe, somehow, this is what I’ve needed. Â Something healthy and fulfilling after years of miserable, abusive, horrid intimate relationships. Â So, I put everything off.

Afterwards, I was happy, really happy for a spell, and every part of me was distracted by her. Â Even when bad feelings came, I knew I had […]

4/10/2014 16 comments

I fucking hate hormones

by shitcunt69 4/9/2014

written by shitcunt69

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I honestly don’t know how to do this. For the past 2 or whatever year my anxiety has literally gone through so high I feel like someone stuck covered my heart in glue so that I can’t breathe. It’s gotten to the point where every hour I need to be constantly sighing almost every hour. And my so called “Friends” are just complete asshole and bullies to me since i’ve been prone to fear my entire fucking life. I guess my child hood wasn’t so bad since I was such a stupid kid and don’t remember much. My parents were very loyal to me […]

4/9/2014 1 comment

go to hell

by nobodysgirl 4/9/2014

written by nobodysgirl

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where can I go where there is nowhere to go to who can I talk to who isn’t already playing what can I do when they have everything laid out and planned for me already wtf can i get my shock now can I get my whatever the hell they gone give me now I don’t care anymore commit me, kill me, anything is better than submitting. I don’t believe andi don’t have to I lost enough of my soul and I don’t care who don’t believe me: who I am, what I am supposed to be idont care who believes me or not […]

4/9/2014 6 comments

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