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The emptiness and numbness

by alina_01 8/27/2014

written by alina_01

It comes back and just consumes me and even when I try to feel I can’t. I feel empty and I’m alone I should feel sad but instead I feel nothing. Ugh it is the most annoying thing ever! I watched a movie recently, one of those rare weird movies that people typically don’t tend to watch. And I made such a connection I felt understood like I could understand, of course on certain levels because not each person and situation is the same. But I shared a similar pain and it sucks and im so numb this very second that I don’t care enough […]

8/27/2014 1 comment

i hate myself

by insecure-wreck 8/27/2014

written by insecure-wreck

My Body is hurting like crazy I hope my pain has a limit because I’m so tired of it all damn muscles spasms n it’s too much pain I have pills but I choose not to take them my spine n back feel like the springs on a slinky going forward I have a few friends I like to chat with n to maybe help me to get better in a way by making me laugh n at times I just don’t know whether I want to just throw in the towel n say I’m done with life it seems I’ve been waiting […]

8/27/2014 2 comments

another day failed

by kateralia 8/27/2014

written by kateralia

Yet another day has passed & I have failed. Or is it life has failed me?

What is the point in trying if all you do is fail.

I’ll never have another partner, I’ll never have a family. I’ll never afford another car, I’ll never travel again. I’m stuck in this one place, in this glass box that I can see out of but noone can see me. I’ll wither away in this empty box, never having what my soul yearns for most.

8/27/2014 11 comments

The sadness will never end

by Grimmjow 8/27/2014

written by Grimmjow

To begin i must be honest and say i had no intention of sharing this with someone else but it keeps eating me inside.I was always a shy kid and i didn’t have many friends.I am always getting bullied at school i even tried talking to someone about this but nothing changes the other kids that bully me got angrier.It was the day that they locked me our school’s closet bleeding with a broken nose that i realise that i must have done something wrong.I keep trying to fight this but the sadness and the frustration of nobody loving you and nobody hearing no matter […]

8/27/2014 3 comments

tonight

by lovemyshihtzu 8/27/2014

written by lovemyshihtzu

I’m planning on it. girl at work gave me whole bottle of caffeine pills. didn’t know I’m suicidal. stole some vodka from my dad’s liquor cabinet. tied noose…. I’m so done.

8/27/2014 12 comments

what went wrong

by DeadGirlNotFound 8/27/2014

written by DeadGirlNotFound

it all started when i was ten.. my relationship with my parents was horrible, i started rebelling, cutting myself for the pain i felt, nobody loved me back then, my mom emotionally abused me 24*7, every moment at home felt like forever, it was hard.my dad was so controlling, he would scare me with his voice, and behaviour, he took away my phone, my stuffs, called me a dirty hoe. my mom and dad would fight, and scream, and she would threaten him that she will leave the house,or they will get separated. my mom also threw plates at me many times. we lived in […]

8/27/2014 1 comment

The end

by firegirl 8/27/2014

written by firegirl

Tonight’s the night I end it. The only person I ever loved left me and won’t talk to me . I lost a baby and my friends don’t care anymore. I can’t wait to just go to sleep and never wake up. I only hope I do it quickly or that if I drink enough that the pain will be quick. I wish I could have told him I love him one last time.

8/27/2014 2 comments

Patient Zero

by depressednihilist95 8/27/2014

written by depressednihilist95

I really don’t know if I qualify for being depressed. I chose to have “depressed” as a part of my user name because it was a label that people were throwing onto me. I thought that depression was irrational. Wanting to die for no reason seems like depression, but wanting to die because of say, spiritual reasons or philosophical reasons does not seem much like a “chemical imbalance” to me. I should probably be careful with what I state here, but I believe that some people actually have rational reasons for suicide.

I don’t know if my reasoning would be so rational, though. All I want […]

8/27/2014 2 comments

blind

by kateralia 8/27/2014

written by kateralia

I went shopping today & caught myself going through the winter clothing sale racks, thinking to buy for next winter. Whats the point? The universe has only 4 months left to brighten up my life before I’m done.

It is amazing how many times I could have stolen from shops. You see, I have to use a walking stick if I’m going anywhere. And I always wear a small backpack. Whenever you exit a store, the person at the front is supposed to stop you to check your bag if its larger than say a small clutch-purse. Not one og the stores I went in & […]

8/27/2014 2 comments

I’m drowning

by imdrowning 8/27/2014

written by imdrowning

I’m drowning in my own sadness and depression. Just when i think I might be getting better I get worse. It’s a constant cycle of feeling happy then utterly hopeless and wanting to die. I can’t break the pattern no matter what drugs the docs prescribe or what activities I used to enjoy. I can’t find a thing in my life to lift this depression. I’ve tried all the things from before but nothing helps. I’ve taken to constantly listening to music to try and help but every song no matter how happy it sounds makes me even sadder and more depressed. I can’t win […]

8/27/2014 2 comments

Done

by paco 8/27/2014

written by paco

I am 51 years old. This is not about fleeting moments of sadness or bad days or a broken and lonely heart. I have family that loves me, friends and a good job. I have no reason to be sad and miserable, but I am. I am tired and bored and depressed. I no longer have any fight in me, no desire, no hope of better days to come. The thought of living another twenty years, another ten or even another year is nearly unbearable to me. Life for some of us was never meant to be long. For whatever reason, some of us just […]

8/27/2014 1 comment

Faking a smile.

by smilingbutdying 8/27/2014

written by smilingbutdying

Everyone knows me as that smiling outgoing girl who is sometimes annoying but speaks her mind whenever something pops into her head! No one knows I feel so alone all the time, and that I just want more love. I always think about my life in the future, married to my dream man, having my dream family that consists of a boy, a girl, And a pair of twins (girl and boy). But then when I think about it I don’t want anything I just want to meet my maker and live a happy life in heaven.

8/27/2014 3 comments

sleeping problems!!!!

by insecure-wreck 8/27/2014

written by insecure-wreck

Does any else have trouble sleeping? With amy problems or conditions that prevent you from being able to sleep or get any sleep at all?

8/27/2014 17 comments

I want to go

by Scarlett Dawn 8/27/2014

written by Scarlett Dawn

I’ve been wanting this for so long; but now it’s more than a desire, it’s an obsession

I have nothing in my life that gives my living any credibility

I’m just a girl who’s broken beyond repair and this may well be how the rest of my life be like and I do not wish to keep going this way.

I need to go. I have to go.

8/27/2014 10 comments

To scared to pull the trigger

by almightyaire 8/27/2014

written by almightyaire

As I write this, I’m sitting in bed with a loaded 9mm and capt Morgan white rum.
For the life of me I don’t get why I can’t do it, all my life all I’ve whined about and cursed god to do was take my life, yet presented with the opportunity I can’t do it… This is NOT a plead for help nor is it having second thoughts, my life has been shitty since birth! The usual… Father issues, my whole family gives me the cold shoulder.hell, one of my aunts thought it would be a good idea to tell me how my mother was […]

8/27/2014 10 comments

by Black rose 8/27/2014

written by Black rose

Everytime I try to write a poem it just ends up being depressing, I wrote a depressing poem and tried to make it more positive by ending it with a good message but others aren’t so pleasant:

Some people don’t know the truth,
But I’ve uncovered the proof.
The world out there sucks,
It’s evil, cruel and vicious
Life is a malicious *****.

You must believe me
I’ve suffered the pain
And felt my work was all in vain
I have had depression
It attacks your mind with great aggression

The little words you speak,
They keep breaking me, making me grow weak.
I don’t want to die

8/27/2014 2 comments

by BrokenClock 8/26/2014

written by BrokenClock

All the mental and emotional stress hurts.
My body is starting to hurt as well.

I just hope the pain ends.
I can’t stop crying.

I just want inner peace.

8/26/2014 4 comments

One constant thing is sp

by sunflower 8/26/2014

written by sunflower

Somehow i always end up back here… back to my blog thats held my darkest secrets. I guess i find some comfort in that sp will always be here to listen. ive turned to tumblr recently which ive been venting on… but on here its different. every time i come on i feel like ive lost a battle; except this time i can truthfully say i dont want to die; i have so much more living to do… but i am so sad. i’m lonely and i hate feeling this way. I feel anxious all the time, i feel helpless, alone and i hate living […]

8/26/2014 1 comment

my stepdad

by insecure-wreck 8/26/2014

written by insecure-wreck

I don’t know what it is about him that makes me feel worthless n nothing to him I have spinal scoliosis see he doesn’t seem to believe that n sees me as lieing about how much pain I’m in he has been my stepdad for about 10 years since I was in grade school I’m so tired of him I’ve been in pain from my spine n body for about 3 years but lately it’s just been getting worse I don’t know what to do I feel like giving up on life n he doesn’t care for I can see it in his eyes […]

8/26/2014 11 comments

by 1298 8/26/2014

written by 1298

went to my first therapist session today. …

yeah i really can’t do this. i thought so seriously about killing myself afterwards. i mean, not more seriously than i have before. it’s just… i can never explain to anyone how this feels. i hate everything, and i try so fucking hard all the time to just get along
but i’m stupid, and i make mistakes, and everything is just so goddamn pointless and i never get any joy out of anything and i know people want me here now but i still don’t care, and i guess i hate myself for that, too, but what am […]

8/26/2014 5 comments

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