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You can’t see my pain ::)

by Fragile
written by Fragile

I don’t actually know what to write .. even my tears roll down my face , before I even put my hand on the keyboard . 

is it because it’s too painful to be written ? or because I’ll be writting something , people would never pay attention to ? 

I’m not a suicidal person , I do not cut myself or had suicide attempts .. I just cry , tears hurt more than any cuts on your wrist .. you know why ? cause the pain may go away when you cut yourself , you either die , or get […]

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A smoke for the thoughts

by MirrorMirrorOnMyWall
written by MirrorMirrorOnMyWall

Humans are very bad at making decisions. And I’m no exception. Even though I haven’t decided weather or not I will go for the big and final exit or not, I’m already on my way. Unconsciously, I’ve already started to wither. Smoking is obviously bad and sometimes I wonder if I’m going to get lung-cancer one day. The lung-cancer part doesn’t scare me – but the fact that I couldn’t care less, really freaks me out.

That’s one of me biggest problems now days; I simply don’t care. I don’t care if won’t graduate, I don’t care if my pets gonna die and I don’t care if […]

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So Fucking Done

by teardownthewall
written by teardownthewall

I’m so fucking done with this household and this “family”. I’m tired of being taken advantage of, of being the only one that works, the only one that keeps the fucking lights on, the only one that carries the fucking world on their shoulders and is still expected to do everything. I haven’t even gotten the chance to sleep today, fuck I’ve only gotten four hours to carry me the last 24 hours! But no, they still need me to do more and run all their god damn errands and run their welfare asses around like I’m their god damn taxi driver. They can all […]

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Alone Part 2

by Broken_Soul
written by Broken_Soul

Like all humans the boy had limits.Limits to what he could do.but also limits to what he could take and after all the time that had passed he finally understood one fact.He would always be alone.the boy had tried harder than most people would have…he tried harder than he should have….he gave up.he was done.he decided to not care anymore.he cut himself off.he showed nothing.that darkness in his heart had once again warped him.his face grew blank.no smiling.no more crying.nothing…he gave in to the lonliness.he kept it all inside.his feelings of pain and resentment and sadness…he decided to close them in his heart and pretend […]

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A Strange world indeed

by Broken_Soul
written by Broken_Soul

Its so hard to understand something you just cant get a grip on.take life for example,it truly is a beautiful thing…but at the same time it can be so….cruel.emotions are a great subject.they make us happy and sad….angry and loving.and yet it is these very same emotions that can do so much damage.let me ask you a question.why?….why is it that we’re given happiness on a silver plater just so it can be ripped away?…why is it that this emotion called happiness is dangled in the face of those who can never have it?.To me the answer is clear…you have to fight….the happiness you may […]

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I’m sorry

by Slowly_Fading
written by Slowly_Fading

Sorry I’m different. Sorry I like different music. Sorry I’m not perfect. Sorry I’m bisexual. Sorry I’m depressed. Sorry I have low self esteem. Sorry I hate myself. Sorry I’m a fuck up. Sorry I’m not who you wanted me to be Mum. Sorry I don’t get all A’s. Sorry I’m not smart. Sorry I’m not beautiful. Sorry I don’t get solos in choir. Sorry I waste your money Dad. Sorry I do what I can to get out of the house because I hate it there. Sorry I’m not athletic. Sorry I can’t do everything you want me to do Mum and Dad. Sorry […]

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One of those days…

by Still Lost
written by Still Lost

My mood took a turn for the worse this morning. Maybe the reality that I can’t figure out how to end my pain without dying. I don’t know. But then I read posts from people who think they have all the answers to depression and mental illness… Well, it is a beautiful day here in San Francisco. My cats are adorable. I will try to smile and forget my pain for as long as I can.

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Still…

by coconut-scent
written by coconut-scent

I wont say names and I wont say ages, it’s difficult enough to even type this sort of stuff.

Within a span of 4 months my life changed dramatically. My father passed away and I was assaulted by peers older than me.
I wasn’t sure how to communicate what happened. My father dying, people I thought I was safe around. How can you tell your family or your friends about any of that and have them understand how you’re feeling?

Sure they could have been through something similar or close to your experience, but every experience is different. You don’t get assaulted by the same person/people. You […]

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A question that needs to be asked.

by All But Over Now
written by All But Over Now

I woke up this morning not long ago and decided to head to SP to see today’s posts. I noticed I had a fair amount of responses to my post last night. As I was reading them, a couple of users were talking about a topic that made me stop dead in my tracks and literally say ‘wow’. I feel everyone should take a look at this and give me there thoughts, because I really wish I had the answers.

” I’ve noticed one thing…a whole lot of awareness. Too much, I think. And intelligence. And thoughtfulness. A lot of very smart, sad, interesting, hyper-aware people. […]

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Definition of Irony: Receiving Invoice from the Ambulance Company after a Failed Suicide

by TChambers
written by TChambers

The only thing more pathetic than a person committing suicide is a person that fails epically at it…

“He knows that you have to laugh at the things that hurt you just to keep yourself in balance, just to keep the world from running you plumb crazy.”
Ken Kesey, One Flew Over the Cuckoo’s Nest

 

Eventually I will get into the back story on why I tried to kill myself, but not today, not up to going through the last 5 years (well really, 45 years)  in detail just yet.  However, I would like to share my opinion on suicide, […]

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Inadequate

by Remnant The Unbroken
written by Remnant The Unbroken

Not for anything but I’m so sick of feeling lonely and insecure and useless and inadequate. For once in my life I’d love to have a friend or a significant other stick with me and tell me that it’s going to be ok, that I have a life worth living. Sometimes I just have to be reminded, because the self pep talks are useless.

 

It’s probably extremely pathetic on my behalf, but I’ve recently started talking with my ex again. It’s stupid but I miss him. He’s married to an absolute ***** who’s driving everyone away from him, and I’ve warned him numerous times to get out […]

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scars

by Sharn
written by Sharn

scarsI don’t know what to do anymore.. I battle with severe anxiety, depression, insomnia and anger issues.I try my hardest to be what they want me to be.. the perfect daughter. Have the perfect grades, I was working 2 jobs but I just can’t cope any more. I’m lost. Dropped out of school at 15. Quit one job. Have barely any shifts at the other one. I blow up at everyone over everything. I can’t help myself .I cry everynight trying to think of new ways to be perfect… I tried cutting… It just wasn’t my thing so I started burning myself. The pain […]

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by bluesun
written by bluesun

When can I leave? I want so badly to go now to just fade away. But I can’t. I promised myself I would wait till my parents were gone. So here I am waiting, forever waiting till the time when I can cease to exist. There is nothing for me here and there never can be. I only destroy everything and create pain for those around me. Around people but never part of anything, no connection. Alone. And hurting.

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The F-ing Pogues

by misanthrope
written by misanthrope

Man I just heard the awesomely funny and always profound”What do you do with a Drunken Sailor?”Shane Fucking MacGowan people!!!! OH this guy…a living miracle.More saturated with booze and drugs than even Keith Richards-just not quite as long. I think when he does finally go, he should be sainted,and im definitely goin to start a petition and then address the The Pope . He will resist,but if the world demands that Shane MacGowan be awarded Sainthood ,and compels him to like… conference call with  the Holy Trinity ,i think this could happen….Those three are hard to catch together at one time,but I think once the […]

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by Bisban
written by Bisban

 

Hyper beam, inspiration

The dying hell of Leech

Calypso

Are you the dead queen

Does this, have an end

The words

The lyrics

I don’t even exist

I see a wild Ratatat, smiles

I just want to breathe and be strong, Calypso

My … reality

Robin Williams, angel man

Would of saved me a million times

How I exist, nobody knows

I’m just Leech.

 

 

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An Introduction

by EiramPheniex
written by EiramPheniex

Hello all. This is my first post so please bear with me. I am a 35 yo female struggling with several mental illnesses including chronic depression and Borderline personality disorder. Im not sure how i should be anymore because everything i have tried f-ed things up. I finally have gotten to the point i understand im not lazy, faking, seeking attn or looking for an excuse. However, it does not take away the Emptiness inside. Nor does it take away the feelings of wanting to commit suicide. I don’t understand why even on my good days small things can happen and i think i dont […]

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