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Welcome to hell

by DeathDreamer 6/21/2014

written by DeathDreamer

Sick of people telling me there will be monsters and deep dark caverns of doom if I kill myself. That’s a pile of horseshit. Not a single one of you know what happens after death and I don’t give a fuck for any opinions based on nothing but your own twisted imaginations. You think there is nothingness? Good for you. You might be in for a surprise.

Off anti-psychotics, I can see things clearly. Life is a never-ending circle of betrayal, shallow people, and morons complaining about ‘oh today I got a bad grade or he/she doesn’t like me.’ Get over yourself. There are people with […]

6/21/2014 20 comments

today someone said something about, in hell where at the bottom depths, lies magical sands with the power to bring forth great fortune.**

by Bisban 6/21/2014

written by Bisban

So what… Keep trying, uh? The story must begin with a crew. The “bebop” genre description describes it all fully well. I don’t know exactly how it goes…. somewhere along outside the box, but not really. But anyway, as I’ve mentioned, I am here seeking the ‘Pilgrimage’, becoming my tribal name of faith. A tribal, that’s what it’s suppose to be about. Me and my own one in a million, fated. I read elsewhere how like… Wiccan is referred to as a way of life, which then made more sense to me, based, on the living myth.

Oblivious. A suffering fetus. Mother, cow, a celestial mind. […]

6/21/2014 0 comment

I’m here

by ABurialAtOrnans 6/21/2014

written by ABurialAtOrnans

Hey guys,

So this is for for any of you who are feeling as if they can’t cope anymore or if you’re feeling alone and you want to make new friends, I’m the guy to see. c: Plus, it’d be a much better email to read than one from FasterLouder, Facebook, Twitch, Twitter, Jay Jays, or Quicksilver. -.-

So the address is: dconnolly96@hotmail.com (What, were you expecting boobielover_69?) You can talk to me about what you’re dealing with and how you’re coping with it, advice on things, just if you need someone to talk to, really.

Can’t wait to hear from y’all. n.n

6/21/2014 2 comments

by MysteryGirl 6/21/2014

written by MysteryGirl

The worst feeling for me is when my mum sees my cuts and scars and just gives me the most disgusted look and says “just stop that.. its wrong”.
Thanks mum i feel the love

6/21/2014 1 comment

this is my story (the sad part) i think

by kaelyndelrey 6/21/2014

written by kaelyndelrey

hello. I’m kaelyn. I’m 15. this is the part of my story that isn’t so great but i figured that I need to start somewhere.

my parents were 18 when I was born. they weren’t together. I want born into a freakishly religious family. I am not religious at all.

anyways.

I think that the bad thoughts (hurting myself, wanting to die) began around age 8. my mom had a boyfriend who lived with us and my sister was 4. my mom worked all the time. her boyfriend was very abusive. one of the last things i witnessed him do was hold my mom in the air and […]

6/21/2014 2 comments

Darkness: The silent hour.

by AarinaDaae 6/21/2014

written by AarinaDaae

I’ve spent the last 48 hours sitting, walking, cooking…Not hungry. I start pacing. Hello panic attacks…Nothing is really helping. Someone shared a suicide story on Facebook. Great, I decided to watch it. I”m completely beside myself. I go to youtube in the hopes of listening to some music that will help and I find more “suicide hope” videos. Yeah…I’m filled with the hope of an end someday. They all seem to outline my issues in a glorified, filtered image.

Another panic attack. My heart is going to give out before I can commit at this point. I’ve started to cross into the realm of being so […]

6/21/2014 0 comment

read maybe ._.

by lifeless.love 6/21/2014

written by lifeless.love

So im sequoia.

my fight and my story might not be as bad as yours, but sadness is sadness. depression is depression. there shouldnt be a competition of who has it worse. so if you’re gonna tell me my problems arent shit, get the hell out.

anybutts,

Hiya c: im a 13 year old girl.

8th grade.

with depression

severe anxiety

and a fucked up family.

soooo here’s my story.

aye you sexy butt hole (;

wtf is wrong with me cx.

srry anyways,

it started when i was 7. my parents were in the middle of a divorce, and i didnt know it at the time but my mom was addicted to drinking and smoking. she […]

6/21/2014 9 comments

I am tired now

by Near Death 6/21/2014

written by Near Death

Hello,I have planned to end my life soon.I find it better than wasting time wandering around for help,which,in my case,i never got.

I am 18 yrs old.My family are religious fanatics.The kind of people who would run to God for every silly thing.They are weak people.Never gained the strength to live life.And they tried really hard to instill this “attribute” or “goodness” in me.But i simply dont understand all this nonsense.My mother has separated from my dad 5 yrs back.And shez extremely touchy and volatile.I cannot share anything with her as things blow up out of control.

I am left all alone now.I have lost my esteem;much […]

6/21/2014 2 comments

Do I Deserve It?

by FindingOrion 6/21/2014

written by FindingOrion

Hey guys. My “story” isn’t nearly as traumatizing as any of yours, and I almost feel as though I’m wasting your time, so I apologize.

I was a fairly normal kid, or whatever normal is supposed to be. I had a best friend, someone who loved me, tons of persons to talk to (yes, that is the grammatically correct way to address them). Or at least I thought I did.

See, I’ve always had moments of sadness. Just “off” days. I would wake to see rain and heavy skies when it was sunshine for everyone else. It wasn’t until November of 2012 that I had a “reason”. […]

6/21/2014 2 comments

by Kallian 6/21/2014

written by Kallian

Just told my current manager that I was ready to hang myself, but I think that he thought I was just making a statement, seeing as I was dealing with a difficult customer. He even said “I’ll join you”. Lol

6/21/2014 0 comment

Everything I Hate About Myself

by thepainiskillingme8062 6/21/2014

written by thepainiskillingme8062

This is my first. I just have to get it out. All the reasons I hate myself. They make you believe that the happy pills will make it all better. I’ve been on them for three months, and here I am. Still depressed, still alone, still misunderstood. The main reason I hate myself is because I’m addicted to porn. All you people who are gonna say it’s natural shut the hell up and look somewhere else. I don’t care if it’s natural. I don’t care if the freaking pope did it. He’s not me. Do you know what it’s like to be called disgusting by […]

6/21/2014 16 comments

I am not looking to be judged

by brebrook 6/21/2014

written by brebrook

I am quiet because it pushes normal people away and attracts the ones who will understand. I cut because I like the way it feels. I am addicted to the pain. I don’t feel like myself if I can’t see a scar. I am emo. If you ask how I am I will say I’m fine, because you can’t understand. I used to be like you. I’m human, just a strange type. If I could only take off the mask you could see me. But the problem is, I don’t remember what I am without putting on a show. If I were to tell you […]

6/21/2014 0 comment

Really dysfunctional don’t think I should be a part of society.

by peragape 6/20/2014

written by peragape

So I’m 24.

I am on the edge of understanding, people say like a baby bird getting ready to leap from the nest for the first time. but it feels like the closer i get to the edge i will either fall down and my wings will give out with nothing to break my fall… Or life will head off in an infinite spiral of discovery with joy beyond my wildest dreams. -.-

I am super attached to my ego and pain, I am self destructive and use that to put off rebirth.

First some background…

I am of illegitimate birth, when I was born my father never touched […]

6/20/2014 3 comments

Hate it here

by beyonddarkness969 6/20/2014

written by beyonddarkness969

I feel I don’t exist and don’t have anyone to talk or to relate to. I feel invisible to the world. The only time people do notice me, is when out in public and I’m going thru my anxiety attacks. Yeah.. they notice alright. They either laugh, call me crazy, or walk away from me if they near by. It’s so embarrassing! I don’t know what brings them on, that’s why I try to stay self medicated when I go out. I’ve tried medicine for all of my disorders or illnesses, including the Anxiety, but they either make me feel worse or I can’t function […]

6/20/2014 4 comments

by Society_killed_me 6/20/2014

written by Society_killed_me

no one knows what am going thru, life is just one big fucking joke to me and no one cares. i cry myself to sleep every night. I’m so fucking useless that y everyone walks out of my life. They dnt care about me. as soon as i die everyone will be so glad im gone. thats if they even remember i exist

6/20/2014 1 comment

What do I do?

by lmaz9 6/20/2014

written by lmaz9

This is the first time I have wrote on one of these so not sure what to expect. I’m looking for maybe an answer or someone to agree with me, anything really.
So I’ve been with my fiancé for ten years and we have three amazing children together, we have had so much bad luck together and lots of ups and downs. I have made a fair few decisions that have not helped us in our relationship two just recently, I got a number off a girl and arranged to meet but didn’t because I realised it was wrong, I know that’s not the […]

6/20/2014 2 comments

Leaving a note or no note, thoughts?

by tbd 6/20/2014

written by tbd

Just thought I’d poll thoughts about this.

No note could create legal problems for others (i.e., wondering whether someone had a poisoning motive). The absence of a note may leave others wondering, which may be good or bad.

Leaving a note may be a means of providing reassurance or useful instructions. (I’m not talking about the kind of note designed to blame and hurt others.)

Thoughts?

6/20/2014 16 comments

A burden to everyone.

by thesmithsx 6/20/2014

written by thesmithsx

This is my first post on here… i kinda just wanted to vent everything.

In short, i’m a complete fuck up. I feel like i’m one huge disappointment to my family and friends. Especially my family. I feel like they expected me to be like my two sisters, but of course i’m the odd one out. I’m 19 years old, for as long as i can remember i’ve always been known to be the ‘rebellious’ one, i guess.
I feel as though i’m constantly disappointing and hurting everyone around me, and i truly hate it. I’ve done things i’m ashamed of, things i would never tell […]

6/20/2014 4 comments

From Jumping To Chalking

by The Distress 6/20/2014

written by The Distress

So I color up this railroad-converted walking/recreational bridge probably every other day with chalk. Chalk is kind of a beautiful thing because it’s brilliant and radiant if you put enough effort and creativity into it, but it will never last forever. Now read that sentence above again and replace the “chalk” with the word “life.”

yeah that’s some real shit – I just thought of that as I did a double take xD…. but anyways back to the point.

Chalking brings people together: people want to stop and watch you draw or write, they want to join in with you, they want to make their own creations, […]

6/20/2014 2 comments

The Actual Truth About My Life

by AKidWithAName 6/20/2014

written by AKidWithAName

Maybe suicide is the solution. Everyone always says it’s not, but nobody but me is actually worthless. Every other person in this world has worth and I can see that in them. But then, I look at me and I see nothing but worthlessness. I am not worth anything to anyone and if you don’t know me, you can’t say that “you would be sad if I died”, because I can guarantee that if you met me, you would think I am annoying, stupid, worthless, ugly, etc. Everyone else always has. you don’t have to deny it. There’s […]

6/20/2014 8 comments

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