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Just let me die

by evasiveshine 6/1/2013

written by evasiveshine

I tried to change my life for good but it doesn’t change. I lied compulsively from my childhood. It might have been an achievement that I didn’t lie to one person I loved for 20 days. He never trusted me on anything I said true but believed everything I lied. Doesn’t God want me to change. I am fed up of everything so took sleeping pills. Even there my hard luck didn’t stop. I survived. No one even believed me that I took pills. I have nothing in my life no friends, no ambition not even a single thing I should live for. Please God […]

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2Weeks an 1day

by forsaken1 6/1/2013

written by forsaken1

In 2 weeks an 1 day I’ll be dead and I have nothing left to say, I’ll probably post on here a few more times just to express some feelings and the day of an that’s it

6/1/2013 7 comments

Simple

by Lover4evr 6/1/2013

written by Lover4evr

My boyfriend sings me You Are My Sunshine every night before I go to sleep. Â And he’s tone deaf. But it’s that simple thing, that small gesture, that makes me feel a little better about myself. I know I’m not near as bad as I used to be, I haven’t had one of my episodes in a few weeks. I really just feel like I need to make the better of situations, I need to stop being negative and holding onto the past. Maybe it was my fault I’ve been this way? In some ways it was, and in other ways, it wasn’t.

I haven’t thought […]

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by Charlotte 6/1/2013

written by Charlotte

i was talking to this girl today. and she told me that she has started self harming. people call her anorexic because she is so naturally skinny. she says she hates her body so much and she cries every night and she thinks she is so ugly.

this girl is one of the main reasons i started self harming. over a year ago, she made me feel worthless and i got depressed.

i have just found out today that she is just as sad and self consious as she made me. i wanted to just yell. i wanted to scream â€˜karmas a *****â€™! but i didnt. i […]

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relive, happiness, sorrow. It’ll never be enough

by tlbh 6/1/2013

written by tlbh

Don’t hold you’re breath, I’ve already taken enough of it. I can’t hold on much longer the ropes are killing my hands. I’ve already held on tight enough and I can feel the end. When will it ever be enough. I tried to be that princess, that bad girl, the girl you want. None of it ever worked out so why sit here and torture myself , pretending to be everything you want. Well here it is, the last bottle, the last chance it’s done. I’m done. Goodbye, it’ll never be enough

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Has anyone ever died of lonliness

by whyme13 6/1/2013

written by whyme13

This is my first post on this site. I just happened to google the title of my post and SP came up. HereÂ I go, I am so sick of not having someone in my life to do anything with. I know it sounds pathetic but its getting harder and harder not to wish for some quick death. All my life I have went out of the way to help people and be a good friend. I tried to be a good brother, a good son. I was always told “Don’t worry, you meet someone”. That gets old after hearing it a few years. I’m not […]

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Why does life have to be so hard?

by cJay4 6/1/2013

written by cJay4

I wish I could get this feeling away from me but suicide pops into my head all day. I’m 21 years old and feel like I have already lived enough. I’m drained. I sit here now typing this in my bed n don’t even have the energy to pick my head up off the pillow. And I did nothing today. Like I do everyday. But suicide seems so nice right now. Like all this stress and sadness gone in a minute. Â But what’s so hard about it is I don’t want to die. When I think about it I just think of my mom n […]

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my addiction.. cutting

by twinklestar23 5/31/2013

written by twinklestar23

Everytime i try to stop i fail…. i keep cutting. i’ll be clean for two weeks and then i do it again.. i have anxiety.. and depression. I like to cut sometimes… and bleed. sometimes i wonder if i just cut deep enough. and overdose on pills i’d have WHAT i WANT. … WHAT i neeed….. Maybe one day/… but up to now.. im at 4 pillss… strong pills.. all i need is to go far away…. isolate myself… and KILL MYSELF. . i truley love him as well….. but he doesnt know.

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i jst dont kno anymore…

by Cocobitzy1996 5/31/2013

written by Cocobitzy1996

This is the kinda crap tht get me…fck man ! i have no true friends, ill never have tht one special person who tells me they love me again .. ive lost it all …ill always be alone with no one to care…its jst me in my own little dark place..the only place ill ever feel safe. idk wht to do anymore..life suck right now theres only one way out i can think of..n ive been holding on so hard for it not to happen ik i have a long ‘happy’ life ahead for me bt we will tht being ?! ugh im jst tired..tired […]

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Insane pain

by Listen 5/31/2013

written by Listen

I feel as if I’m going insane.. Losing my mind. Losing it.. Like I’ve lost everything else. Everything is cold.. dark.. and unforgiving. Everything sets me back.. So far back. I thought I could have just something that could be mine but I was only mistaken because here it goes. Growing wings.. and slowly setting off. I should whisper goodbye but the words won’t go.. won’t slide off my lips into the cold air.. They’re ready but won’t go. I need help but don’t really know where to look.. I’m alone.. So alone.. I have been alone and finding help is hard so do I […]

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Practice I guess

by forsaken1 5/31/2013

written by forsaken1

I have spent countless hours staring at this gun, familiarizing myself with it. I dare say I know it intimately, how much it weighs empty vs with a full cylinder how much force it takes to for the hammer to start to draw back and everything.
I often hold it to my temple, and in my mouth dry firing it. Practicing for the real thing, I have removed the front sight on it making it more comfortable in my mouth.
When I first started doing this I would jump everytime I heard the empty click, I don’t anymore. I can now pick up the gun […]

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Fatal Melancholy

by whyohwhysky 5/31/2013

written by whyohwhysky

Someone saved me last week from hanging myself. The loneliness was driving me mad. Yet, here I am again contemplating death. It is my refuge from the emptiness of life.

Now, I want to die because I simply don’t enjoy it. The one person who brought me joy and color to my world is now dead. I’ve been trying to move on and find happiness in the connections of those still alive, but I don’t enjoy spending time with people. Nor do I have the energy to try and find a new close companion.

So, I just sit in my room, waiting. Waiting for something to happen. […]

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done

by Blom_Me 5/31/2013

written by Blom_Me

done, seems all is to be repeated, nothing specail, just another. done

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by Blom_Me 5/31/2013

written by Blom_Me

Today,Â just for today i want to see myself as another persone, not just not me, just another, and then still decide if i like me.

I am here, all of me, but nothing anyone seems to see.

Tell me how can one persone seem to think that they have a world of love to give, and hate the persone they are.

Beautifull mind, beautifull me, just a lonely little thing i would intriduse as ME

Nothing missed, nothing known, just another day for others to say: I knew her, oh,…

Maybe?

dont really know what the reason is for certain me’s to be here?

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This world is full of shit

by Painman 5/31/2013

written by Painman

What does it take to find somebody in this world who actually cares about your situation and who actually works for your benefit? All I keep meeting is people who turn towards their darkside for any little petty stupid thing and people who have nothing but LIES. Here I am, Amphetimine addict who has just had a dealer I’ve known for over a decade stop serving me and blanking me completely just because HIS stuff Â made me paranoid andÂ I guess it tripped him out a bit, after all we havent all gotÂ brain conditionsÂ due to drugs.

I cant find anybody else who sells it and EVERYBODYÂ I know […]

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the thoughts consume my every move

by tlbh 5/31/2013

written by tlbh

It’s dark in here,

I can’t always find the switch or the air to breathe.

My days turn into the hell,

My nights are the blissful peace,

Because it’s the only place where I may really do it this time.

I put those awful pills in my mouth again, the taste was sweet serenity,

I lay back with a razor close to my hand,

I look at those cuts, I hear my heart beat ….

Slowly and surely I hope it’ll work this time.

My note is left on the back of my door,

Please don’t suffer over my longing to be gone,

Be gone from this world, cause it’s no longer a world at all.

The […]

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by I.cant.breathe! 5/31/2013

written by I.cant.breathe!

Go to YouTube.
Look up “Baby don’t cut by B-Mike.
Listen carefully to the lyrics.
Aren’t they awesome?

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Whats the point?

by abrokensoul 5/31/2013

written by abrokensoul

I dont even know why Im writing this. Im pretty sure it wont help but I have to try something… I am suicidal but you know the worst part.. I dont even have the balls to commit suicide.. I guess I should explain myself but i really dont know how to structure this.. So im just going to ramble.

I’m 23 years old and I’m from India. Right from my childhood I’ve had a sense of fear in me that never leaves me. Guess its all cause of my father. He used to beat my mother and sister and I used to cower in fear, just […]

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Why go on?

by markymark 5/31/2013

written by markymark

I’m not lost, I’m not in pain, I’m not under that much stress (22/m/In college), I don’t have too bad a life actually. My dad is unemployed so with my part time job I’m helping him stay afloat back home but I don’t mind. He wiped my ass when I shat my diapers as a baby and now I’m repaying him by helping him when he needs it. I’m not religious. I never understood the whole God thing. Not that I didn’t go to church. I really tried to believe, I wanted to believe, I just couldn’t buy into the invisible dude in the sky […]

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why?

by smusmu 5/31/2013

written by smusmu

Maby its time to tell why I am here. My brother killed himself a week ago. He didnt leave a note he didnt tell me, that anything is so very wrong. I knew that he is depressed, because he was in his room all day doing nothing. Hes moode changed super fast … But last couple of months he seemed much better, like he finnaly made peace with the world. I get it now… I read a few pages he wrote. He thought nobody loved him – I LOVED HIM!!! I still do… He decided to kill himself till july and didnt want anyone to […]

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