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Haha Hell

by AscahIsBroken 6/16/2013

written by AscahIsBroken

Haha it’s one of those nights again
Haha I can’t be the only one who feels this shit, right?
Posting drunk when I’m honestly sober
But I feel like last years tequila finally went to my head
I’m running through the parking lot screaming
My boss is parked right here
Slashing those tires, and I cut my hand
Suddenly my wrists are bleeding out
Haha I actually love my job, you know?
Haha my blood turns his white truck brown
Eyes wide enough to open the door
My smile returns and no one will know
Twitching on the bus as I wanna die on the […]

6/16/2013 3 comments

Sunshine

by forsaken1 6/16/2013

written by forsaken1

This morning I watched the sun rise as I have for quite a while now, it’s always the same but yet always different. This one was really special tho for it will be my last, it’s such a beautiful sight it’s like today it rose just for me. Today the sun shines just for me.

6/16/2013 9 comments

To the lady that struggled with fibromyalgia

by thinkimready 6/16/2013

written by thinkimready

I can’t remember her ID, it started with an “E” like edenformosa or something like that. I think she suffered from fibromyalgia and could never feel fully rested. Helium wasn’t working for her so apparently (others confirmed) she jumped of a bridge (Seven something bridge). The post may have been deleted but I just wanted to express how sorry I am that she was forced to jump, something she explicitly didn’t want to do. That is extremely cruel. There should be easier ways available. Peaceful ways, affordable ways. Â Thanks.

6/16/2013 9 comments

the trip, again. {part1,chapter1}

by @deadlife 6/16/2013

written by @deadlife

“monica? monica where are you?” as my mother yelled loudly while walking up the white wood staircase.*bang on door and sound of a door knob clicking* “monica open the god damn door or you will be grounded for weeks!” yelled my mother at my door.”WHAT?” I yelled madly back. “open the door” mother said with a slightly lower sounding voice. “no” I yelled. “monica i just wanted to tell you dinner is ready, if your hungry. i answered quickly so she would go away quicker “no thanks mom im just going to go to sleep” she yelled back ” ok […]

6/16/2013 1 comment

i cant handel this any longer.

by @deadlife 6/16/2013

written by @deadlife

Im not a very important person. I don’t tell people about my problems. I have many.Â They drive me insane. I wish I was better person. I cant tell anyone abut this side of me except my only friend cole. he is the only one who will ever understand me. ever.

this is a list 0f my problems

1.im different

2.i cut

3.i am bulimic and anorexic

4.suicidal

5.family death

6.commitment issues

7.my mother has been dating a married man I hate for 6 years

8.my family thinks there’s something wrong with me

9.bullied

10.no friends

11.awkward

12.shy

13.anger issues

14.migranes

15.lack of sleep

16.i hear voices

17.cant focus

18.sexualy abused by half sister [longstory]

and last of all

19.i cant stand myself

please help, my family or […]

6/16/2013 4 comments

I Am No One

by Rain 6/16/2013

written by Rain

Sometimes, I do wonder. How could hell be a place much worse than here? At least there, I’d know why I’m there. I dont know why I’m here. I’ve always wanted to be the person..the one who helps out that kid..the kid that no one knows is going through something, or feeling llonely, or contemplating suicide…I realized tonight that no one feels this way but me. I AM that kid. Â The kid that silently feels like a screw up..the one who relies on men because they have no one else. The one who feels lonely and hides well enough that everyone thinks im fine. I […]

6/16/2013 4 comments

Drained

by notwhoiwanttobe 6/16/2013

written by notwhoiwanttobe

I don’t know what it is about Saturdays, but my fiance develops this overwhelming cruelty on those days and tonight. Last saturday I spent the night in our closet because he punched me in the nose and didn’t let me leave. Tonight I cowered in a corner while he yelled at me that I’m ugly, stupid, a shitty excuse for a girlfriend, that my attitude sucks, and that I need to apologize to his friends for acting so “embarrassing” tonight. I got upset over a video game we were playing. I admit that it’s childish but I didn’t throw things around the room, punch walls, […]

6/16/2013 11 comments

by MichelleJ 6/16/2013

written by MichelleJ

At least I get to have a bit of fun tonight. I’m gonna talk to kkpeople who I get along with. I only care about people who want to treat me like a person. That’s just me. Good luck to everyone.

6/16/2013 0 comment

Good luck to those who want to see me as a ****. Up to you, but you need to consider you’re probably no better so don’t call me judgmental when it’s ok to be that way yourselves

by MichelleJ 6/16/2013

written by MichelleJ

6/16/2013 6 comments

I Dont Know

by Jlup@ 6/16/2013

written by Jlup@

My GirlFRIEND Does Not Love Me I Think I LOve Her But I Feel LIke Dieing

6/16/2013 0 comment

Letter to family… So I can move on with my life without most of them

by MichelleJ 6/16/2013

written by MichelleJ

To Mum and Dad,

Both of you are fucking horrible people to hang around. Dad, I disowned you early last year, and Mum, I disowned you at the end of last year. You and dad are alcoholic ugly people who gave me life with no regards to what your actions would do to me and my two brothers. We made choices, but you also helped us make the wrong choices. I hope you both fall off a cliff tomorrow. Kill yourselves so I and many others do not have to think about you anymore. You are not my parents, even though you are biologically. You are […]

6/16/2013 10 comments

I just want to check out

by anon81 6/16/2013

written by anon81

I ruinedmy life with bad choices, poor academic decisions, bad financial decisions, and dishonesty. When I met my husband and gave birth to our beautiful sweet babies I was so sad. Sad because all at once I knew I would never be worthy of this gift I was given because of my past mistakes.

I have devoted 10 years of counseling to my bullshit, with multiple explanations that the attention seeking and erratic behavior from age 18-23 was linked to feeling worthless at home, feeling powerless, bla bla. I don’t blame anyone but myself. The best way I can explain it is that I was crazy […]

6/16/2013 4 comments

Help me..

by idekidec123 6/16/2013

written by idekidec123

I’ve been depressed for 3 years now and I just can’t do it anymore. I can see my life falling apart day by day and go to bed crying every night. Nobody cares about me and probably wouldn’t even notice if I left. I have no friends because whenever I make friends they leave me shortly after. I have never had a boyfriend and guys only use me for my body and take advantage of me. EVERYONE I know has used me over and over again. Every weekend I sit at home by myself and eat my emotions. All I want in my life is […]

6/16/2013 2 comments

suicide

by rvsrk 6/16/2013

written by rvsrk

sleeping tablets is the best way of suicide without pain.

6/16/2013 0 comment

sooo

by Stacie 6/15/2013

written by Stacie

i think iam done with life is it bad to be sucidal i guess if theres a god then i will be burning in hell for entrintey mabe idk i dont really belive in it i guess iam going down as a athesist idk honstley evryhtings meant to happen and lifes worth living its all bullshit i think so the question is is it bad to take ur own life well its a form of destruction agnaist self so it is viloenet but do u keep living with all this pain and shit from people or do u enter into the next world weather good […]

6/15/2013 0 comment

It does not get better over time, sorry to say

by ctb-driver 6/15/2013

written by ctb-driver

At least that is my life. Ups and Downs, however the “ups” are smaller and the “downs” are getting larger. Work, no money, illness, family and tons more. I’m tired and need a really long break. Since I own nothing, the break will be permanent

6/15/2013 5 comments

never going to be okay

by Xx4ever-alonexX 6/15/2013

written by Xx4ever-alonexX

Well, I’m the girl everyone thinks is happy. They all come to me with their problems. No one would suspect that I’ve dealt with depression and suicidal thoughts as long as I can remember…
I know the first time I remember wanting to die was when I was 7 years old. When I voiced this thought to my mother, she said she would hit me if I ever said that again.
I remember I was about 12 or 13 when I first started cutting and starving myself. No one thought anything of my rapid weight loss; kids go through stages where they suddenly lose […]

6/15/2013 0 comment

alone

by kristink 6/15/2013

written by kristink

having a pleasant time high, home alone. i usually have better insight into me and my “distorted” thinking when i am under the influence. major insight of the day-i like being alone too much. i am having a hard time tolerating people. if i am around people i have to talk. and be fairly pleasant. after awhile i can’t keep the facade up-takes too much energy. easier if i just keep my mouth shut and smile. it has gotten to the point where i watch tv with the sound off. i read the subtitles. the chatter, the noise grates on me. what is going on […]

6/15/2013 1 comment

If ur feeling down n broken

by hateself 6/15/2013

written by hateself

for everyone having a bad day todayÂ tumblr_maxhjbVDfI1qd5dav.gifÂ i know its just a bunny but hopefully it might cheer someone up as much as it cheered me up

6/15/2013 1 comment

by MichelleJ 6/15/2013

written by MichelleJ

Suicide can be a relief

But when life gets better and you know it’ll get worse again, then better, then worse,

What do you do when you’re in a good period

And you know that somewhere down the track you’ll have a bad patch,

Which you know will be hard to tolerate let alone get through?

It’s like sometimes I want to die over knowing that today is fine but tomorrow may not be…

Yet if I were to die today, tomorrow might be fine!

So I don’t die, hoping for the best,

Knowing that I could be hoping in vane,

Or I could be hoping with success.

I never know until life happens because […]

6/15/2013 3 comments

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