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butterflies

by secretgrrl 5/28/2013

written by secretgrrl

butterflies

are drawn up and down my arms.

butterflies

in black ink around my arms.

butterflies

in purple ink
resting on my wrists.

if i kill those butterflies i kill myself.

the butterfly project.

seven rules
that i must follow.
seven rules
that i will follow.

because i know that i have to stop
and i want to stop.

i’m just having some issues stopping

but i will
eventually.

i will stop until the butterflies fade
at least.
and then i can revert to cutting

just a little.

in the meantime:

no more cutting

no more pain

no more red.

5/28/2013 0 comment

!!!

by I.cant.breathe! 5/28/2013

written by I.cant.breathe!

“I ask you this- Why are you sad?”
she asked.
and I replied…

(Put your personal reply in the comments)

5/28/2013 9 comments

I don’t know what to do

by purpleorchid 5/28/2013

written by purpleorchid

I don’t know what to do anymore. I feel so helpless and I feel like I can’t do anything right. No matter what I do, I feel like I’ve done it wrong. Does anyone else feel like this? It’s like I bully myself constantly — Whenever I make a mistake, I feel like a horrible person who doesn’t deserve to live. How can I learn to deal with my mistakes without feeling so badly about myself?

I just feel so tired and so worthless. I want to learn how to feel good about myself, without depending on the approval of others, but I just don’t know […]

5/28/2013 1 comment

Please read and give me your opinions, be honest.

by I.cant.breathe! 5/28/2013

written by I.cant.breathe!

One day I’ll be alright, but for now I’ve got to dream and fight. The future, they say, is oh so bright. But from my view it’s as dark as night.
Shadows upon the walls, demons creep, and darkness calls. There’s no victory, the battle lasts eternally. War zone up ahead, life and death fight in my head. I hear the screams of the dead, the words they whisper, the words they said. echoing, inside my mind. Are you okay? of course, I’m fine. No need to fret. For i’m alright. No I’m honest, it’s not a lie. Even if I just want to die, […]

5/28/2013 8 comments

Goodbye

by OlyaCta 5/28/2013

written by OlyaCta

I want to end my life. If I won’t be fine until tomorrow 2 o’clock I’ll jump from. A bridge.

5/28/2013 4 comments

Why?

by Pinkmoon89 5/28/2013

written by Pinkmoon89

I dunno. Life man. I’m so burnt out on this shit. In the past I made a lot of mistakes and now they are finally catching up with me. I have never been happy, but I try. When I was younger I was the fat kid and everybody picked on me. So I had no friends. Then I went to college, did a bunch of drugs, and ended up in a psyche ward. I got my shit together after that and went back to the university. Then I met a girl. Well, I loved her, […]

5/28/2013 4 comments

Why do I do it?

by Im Fine 5/28/2013

written by Im Fine

Most of the time, I don’t need people. They’re irrelevant. I can manage ok without them, better in fact as I find people tiring. I have to smile and laugh and pretend everything is fine. It’s so much easier by myself. I can relax and be myself – even if that means crying in a corner. At least I have that freedom when I’m alone. But every so often I find myself reaching out. Trying to find someone to listen to me, to accept me – to like me. I want acceptance and to be admired. I want people to be surprised by my intellect […]

5/28/2013 2 comments

Lies

by Kieylee102 5/28/2013

written by Kieylee102

You think things are going right and then you find out the one that you think love you are lying to your face and it seem to never stop. You don’t understand why they lied, but they just keep lying and you don’t know what is the truth or another lie. You just start to feel the world spinning and you’re scared that the spinning won’t stop. You share the room with that person and they’re so obsessed on keeping the lie alive that you can’t even look at them. You just want to yell and scream at them, but all you do is cut, […]

5/28/2013 0 comment

What is”..

by animerocks500 5/28/2013

written by animerocks500

What is respect and why dbe people demand it…..why do people ask to be treated wit more respect then others……I really do get it……Respect doesn’t exist?.. But I don’t know, what do you think?

5/28/2013 0 comment

What love used to be

by Elandra 5/28/2013

written by Elandra

it used to be that we were together
told everything to one another
we never kept a thing away
even when it came to our razor blades

we had the oddest friendship
bandaging the bloody mess
that was our arms
the reflection of our hearts

we were different in every way
from the way we looked to why we’d lay
in dark rooms with blood running down
sleeping peaceful in each others scarred up arms

you were quite
while i would scream
your words were mine
my tears were yours
forever be in our course

once to many
time to say
we tried to stop
why we felt […]

5/28/2013 2 comments

Freedom and Peace

by PascelTrees 5/28/2013

written by PascelTrees

We yearn for freedom and peace.. Is that what death is really defined as to us? Or Maybe we misjudge our ability to be free and peaceful in our lives?

5/28/2013 1 comment

Maybe I can help someone, for once…

by onlydyinginside 5/28/2013

written by onlydyinginside

I am drowning in my depression.

I am unable to reach out to anyone, because I have no one to reach out to. I have lost what friends I had because I was “a bummer to be around.” I did what I could do mask my feelings, but I can’t, not anymore.

I am writing this not looking for sympathy, but to simply tell my story, and maybe, for once, I can be of some worth.

I was raised with one simple phrase beaten into my head, I am worthless. Whether I am or not, does not matter when that is the only thing you feel: worthless. I […]

5/28/2013 3 comments

I never had a choice

by Ravyn 5/28/2013

written by Ravyn

I never asked to be born. It’s not like I was given much of a choice. I didn’t choose my parents, my house, the schools I went to or the country in which I live. I’m just here. And everyday it becomes harder for me to accept that. It’s not my fault that I see the world the way I do, or that I hold such feelings of hatred for it. Nothing would make me happier than to see it and everyone in it burn. But no amount of me hoping, ranting or dreaming of that is going to make it happen. So I give […]

5/28/2013 10 comments

I almost died once

by just another nobody 5/28/2013

written by just another nobody

I’ve actually almost died a couple time but this ones been on my mind.
A bunch a years ago my neighbors house caught on fire. Our house, close as it was was in no danger of catching flames but it was night we were asleep and our house was filling with the fumes. I still hear his voice screaming when I think about it. The sound of his fists beating on our door violently. I was sick for a couple days after the fumes clear our house but I can’t shake the thought that I really wish he’d forgotten to wake us.

5/28/2013 0 comment

Is it retarded to actually want to be homeless

by just another nobody 5/27/2013

written by just another nobody

I want to be a drifter. I imagine well actually I know from similar experience that it totally sucks to have no food or shelter but the thought of the freedom pretty much doing what ever I want within reason. I just feel like walking no specific destination no specific reason I just want to get up go and not stop till I’m lucky enough to die or get killed. I’m tired of looking back

5/27/2013 9 comments

I can’t just laugh it off anymore

by just another nobody 5/27/2013

written by just another nobody

It’s getting harder and harder to just laugh it off. I can’t take life seriously because real life is fucking boring aside from working to cover food, shelter and basic life necessities there’s nothing to enjoyable. I used to go out and do what ever just for the adrenaline but I’m always tired my seance of humor has gone from dry wit to just plain dark. It’s all just a gam to me if I don’t start playing it different I’m just going to sign out. I’m incapable of forcing myself to care anymore

5/27/2013 0 comment

Finding peace

by totallyagree 5/27/2013

written by totallyagree

The hardest thing about life is how short and long it is. Life is so beautiful, from the rivers to the ocean to love and music and movies. I love life sooooooo much. But on a daily basis I ask god to take me back. It’s so hard. I’m broke, which is fine, but I can’t afford a phone or electricity, let alone paying off my student loan or doing anything like travel. And that is all fine too. Although it isn’t because I don’t believe that life should be this way. Â A human being shouldn’t be shackled to the expectations of success. We should […]

5/27/2013 2 comments

This feeling of disappointment and that everything’s just too much…

by katsumiyanyan 5/27/2013

written by katsumiyanyan

Every time I would see someone celebrate their birthday (via facebookâ€™s remidner) I would be reminded of my own birthday and I would look forward to its coming. The funny thing is, I would look forward to it when itâ€™s still far away, but when the event draws nearer, I find myself dreading it. No, I donâ€™t dread getting older because after all, age is but a number. I dread it because Iâ€™m more than 100% sure that it will appear just like any other day, and this year, it was.

I didnâ€™t expect much for my real birthday since I knew people were working and […]

5/27/2013 4 comments

Hey, short story? trigger warning

by extra-electric 5/27/2013

written by extra-electric

I need help, guys. Â This isn’t exactly about me though. I just have this assignment, I have to write a short story.

And I just wanted your guys’ input on it.

There was a single wobbly wooden chair, a small table, and a dim lamp in the living room of young Derek Soma’s apartment. He sat on the chair every night, reflecting on the day that had just passed, smoking the last cigarette he had each day due to his a-pack-a-day smoking habit.

Derek lived in the poorest part of town called the Tenderloin. San Francisco was a big city, many said it was the perfect mix of […]

5/27/2013 3 comments

No one gets it

by progmessiah8 5/27/2013

written by progmessiah8

Everyone “understands,” but no one really “gets it.” No one has the slightest clue of what it’s like to go through what I’m facing. To this day, I know nobody in my life who is LGBT. I’m all by myself with this. Anytime I’ve told someone, I’ve had to deal with questions like “Are you confused?” or “Are you sure this isn’t just a phase?” and I get so annoyed by them. How does everyone think those questions make me feel, as the receiver? My parents accept me, but I have to keep it a secret from everyone else now since I can’t trust that […]

5/27/2013 14 comments

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