General

I really don’t know if I came across this page by accident. I already know the answer; it was no accident. 27 years ago, I took a bottle of pills to end my life; at the time I was 14. Yes you can do the math; now I am 41. During that time, I felt like I was too nerdy to have any real friends and I tried to “fit” in by doing all the wrong things: drinking and sex. Well then, I didn’t have to worry about HIV/AIDS. Anyway, I felt as though the only thing my parents cared […]

I read all these stories and they make me upset. I want to help … But I don’t know how to even help myself. Just know that I understand and that I would do anything to fix things for you… If I could.

I am sick and tired of feeling sad.

I have no one to turn to. I’m sick of constantly crying its all I seem to do these days.

I used to be so happy and outgoing. I don’t know why changed.

All I know is I’m sick of being a failure, everyone looking up to my little sister and me being the outcast.

I am sick of being stupid and useless. And I am sick of being fat and ugly.

Who would miss me if I died? Yeah my mum and dad would but I’m sure they would get over it with the super star little sister still around.

I can’t […]

You are so LOVED!!!!!!!!!!  I am a survivor of severe depression and know what its like to have been the brunt of every joke throughout my entire school career, to be in a room and feel so completely alone, to not fit into my own family.  There is HOPE for everyone of you contemplating suicide.  Killing yourself is not the answer.  There is so much that each of you have to offer that others around would miss out on completely.  You cannot see that and I know that because I was there, but you have to CHOOSE TO BELIEVE IN YOURSELF!  There doesn’t have to […]

I’ve started starving myself again, even though I quit hurting myself with cuts and burns. One of my…friends…chewed me out yesterday for not eating, but at the same time she doesn’t really care. I just feel really lost, which is why I found this today. Is ending self loathing really possible?

now look what i did now do you see why i hate my self my arms look like iv been hit by a lawn mower the blade looks like iv merde some one with it i hate my self so much

I work overnights at a group home for high risk teen girls. I have 4 daughters of my own, ages 7, 11, 13 and 15, and was blessed with incredibly intelligent, beautiful children. I have a man who loves me and the kids, though they are not biologically his. I am buying the home we live in, we have a dog….things should be perfect.

They aren’t.

Every night, I sit at this desk, and think about my death. I’ve gone past feeling guilty about how it will effect my family, to the point where I have almost convinced myself that it would be a disservice to them […]

I’m more than tired. I’m exhausted. So many years I’ve spent perfecting that just-right-smile, being there for others, just seeming as if I’ve got it all “together”. It’s an absolute farce and nothing could be further from the truth.

In reality it is tiring always being the “go-to guy”. It’s depleting being the one who is always “great! How are you?!?” I’m exhausted and I think I’m about finished. I grew up in the 80’s being bullied (I didn’t know that was bad until recently – I thought it was normal), spent the 90’s trying to live up to what society wanted, […]

The lonelier I feel.

What do you think/want the afterlife will be like? I want it be peaceful- for sure- but I don’t want to loose sight of loved ones, I want to watch them and see what they’re doing. Just to be like.. A spirit. Or just be sleeping for eternity doesn’t sound to bad either. What about you guys?

i ‘m totally stuck, torn apart.  my ex gabriel broke up with me a lil ovr 2 yrs ago and since then i havent felt any mental or physical emotions to any1 girl or boy…..then i met up w/ my old friend travis who i havent seen in a long time, and things just clicked, i felt evry wonderful emotion towards him, i havent felt like this in wat feels like forevr. he’s single and having a kid with someone else, but i told him it didnt matter. he said he didnt wana get with the grl again, we had sex multiple times […]